Within
the few hours before writing this blog draft I watched all over again
the seventh movie installment of this Fantasy book series I had been
busy reading lately. I also went online a few minutes before writing
this blog draft and then I went promoting my lyric video of my song
“A Broken Record” on a social networking site. Hmm, I also
researched on interesting blog topic ideas. It's just that my
research led me to nowhere so I still don't have any idea what else
am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and
anything nonsense in between. Oh, not to mention babbling about my
frustrations and how I'm living those even just inside the four walls
of my room. LOL. Hmm, I also researched on how to self-publish an
e-book without spending a single centavo and sell my e-book on online
e-bookstores. Well, never mind. Damn it.
You
know what? I feel like a college graduate who doesn't know what else
to do in life after college graduation 'coz all I learned to do my
whole damn life is to go to school. I mean, if you can catch my
drift. Well, what I'm trying to say is that I feel like not knowing
what else to talk about in my blog 'coz all I know to talk about are
my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between. Hmm,
can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more
confusing by the minute. Well, all I know is I want to be a writer
someday. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, so I guess the best thing for me to do
these days is to keep on updating my blog as I am make-believing that
I'm working as an amateur writer online. Well, I'm still not over
that mind reading issue though. Hmm, I don't know with me. Damn it.
Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about?
Hmm,
so why is the title of this blog draft “Thoughts Poisoning My
Head”? Well, I don't really know. I mean, I just remembered the way
I think whenever my psychotic mind drops by popped out of my head and
then I thought of giving the said title to this blog draft. You know
what? It's not a joke to have Bipolar Disorder not to mention the
mental and emotional torture that comes along with it. Oh, to add to
that the prices of the medicines too. Well, I'm just thinking if I do
the Math I'm most probably rich by now if I saved the dough spent for
my medicines since I had Bipolar Disorder instead. Hmm, on second
thought I'm talking about mental health here and I think everyone's
well aware how important it is to be mentally healthy so I'd rather
live a simple life as long as my mind is healthy and all that. Well,
as they say count one's blessings and not one's troubles. I mean,
what if this Bipolar Disorder I have is a blessing in disguise? Well,
maybe.
You
know what? It seems like I'll be spending the rest of my life waiting
for the day I die. I mean, my dreams are an inch away from impossible
and I'm thinking I'm only up to make-believing that I'm living my
dreams even just inside the four walls of my room. I guess the best
thing for me to do is to make the most out of each and every single
day the way I know how. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about?
Well, I don't really know. Damn, I just don't want my psychotic mind
to drop by and ruin everything. Well, if I can only start earning my
own dough by writing then that will surely make the whole damn world
a better place to live in. Yeah, right. Hmm, never mind.
I'm
writing a lot lately. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, I don't know
if this is what they call as a passion for writing or is this just
some sort of adrenaline rush. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, so what
else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL.
Hey, it seems like I'm playing with words all over again. Damn it.
Yeah, right. It's like writing a whole damn page when only two
paragraphs or a few sentences perhaps make some sense and the rest
are completely rubbish. LOL. Well, I guess that's just me and the
best thing for me to do is just to live with it. Damn, if I can only
start earning my own dough by writing then that will surely make the
whole damn world a better place to live in. Oh, I'm still thinking of
doing a writing workshop on my own. Damn, how am I gonna be able to
do that? Well, I don't really know. Hmm, whatever.
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