No Ideas on What to Write Next

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'm thinking in the following days I won't be religiously updating my blog anymore the way I am religiously updating it since I began posting on my blog. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about and I don't want to pressure myself in coming up with ideas on what to write next. Yeah, right. As if I can do away with pressure as I am make-believing that I am working as an amateur writer here online. Damn it. You know what? I'm thinking my readers if I ever do have some are sick and tired of me babbling the same things over and over again. Damn, how many times do I have to repeat that?

By the way, I'm writing this blog draft on a Friday and I just watched all over again the second movie installment of this Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately. You know what? If I'm not mistaken a decade ago I was fifteen years old and in third year high school and two decades ago I was five years old and if I'm not mistaken in kindergarten one. Nothing much. I'm still wondering what it will be like if I kept a blog since then or something. It's just that I only learned that there's such thing as an internet way back first year high school not to mention that it was also back then when I discovered that there's such thing as a computer. On second thought there's nothing much going on in my life back then anyway so what am I gonna write in my blog.

Damn, I remember when I was eight I wanted to be the youngest bestselling author of all time. LOL. Well, I guess such isn't happening 'coz I'm already in my mid-twenties and all I can do for now is to keep on updating my blog as I'm make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Hmm, am I saying the same things over and over again? Yeah, I think so. LOL. Hmm, so what something new am I gonna talk about? Well, stuffs around here are still the same old same old so there's really nothing new to talk about or something. LOL. Hmm, I did research on interesting blog topics online. It's just that when I browsed through it I don't feel like coming up with a blog draft for most if not all of the blog topic suggestions. Well, whatever. Damn it. LOL.

Hmm, I wonder if my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Well, I don't really know. Damn, it's not easy to be a writer, mind you. Yeah, right. I find it quite a challenge to be writer at this point when I'm still make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online so how much more if I really am a real writer in the real world everybody knows. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hey, my blog just survived quarter of a year last 15^th of September which in fairness something I can consider as an achievement. You know what? I'm thinking why won't I try to write something that makes some sense. It's just that it seems like I don't know how to distinguish what makes sense and what does not. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, I guess it's much better for me to just keep on writing without worrying that much if my thoughts make some sense or not. LOL.

You know what? I'm still thinking of joining a writing workshop. It's just that I have a funny feeling this isn't the right time for me to do that. Or maybe it isn't such a good idea or something. I mean, I'm not that high school girl anymore. Well, what I mean is I don't write as good as I do way back high school 'coz I forgot about writing when college came and my writing skills unfortunately became rusty so here I am trying to polish it again since I had my Bipolar Disorder. Hmm, it's just that I can't bring my high school self back most especially my fourteen year old self. Well, I may feel like a tween all over again by doing stuffs such as reading this Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately and watching the movie installments of the said Fantasy book series over and over again. It's just that if I think it over I'm only making a fool out of myself 'coz I'll never be my fourteen year old self all over again. Well, as they say there's nothing constant in this world but change. Oh, and thanks to my Bipolar Disorder for the many changes.