Well,
it's All Souls' Day and the home buddy that I am still opt to stay
stuck inside my cave where I peacefully belong. Hmm, I went online a
few hours ago to check on a social networking site if my cousin who
just got married uploaded wedding photos. Well, it turns out that she
didn't so far so it seems like I just ended up wasting my time. Hmm,
so I went checking out who among my friends on the said social
networking site was online at that time and greeted them a “Happy
Halloween”. Well, I know it's kind of late 'coz Halloween is
supposed to be on the night of the 31st
of October towards midnight if I'm not mistaken. LOL. By the way, I
also uploaded on a micro-blogging website that black and white photo
I came up with last Thursday if I'm not mistaken and wrote something
like when my time in this world of the living is up I want to be
remembered as a complicated girl who once lived in a simple world.
LOL. Hmm, whatever. LOL.
You
know what? I really sense no harm in sending a query to literary
agents by December or something so why is there a part of me telling
me that it's not such a good idea. Well, maybe 'coz it's my fear of
failure resurfacing all over again. I mean, what if literary agents
won't see any potential in my work of art or something and just throw
in the trash what I worked hard for in the past few months? Damn,
won't that be so heartbreaking? Oh, not to mention that I'm not
writing a book that has a beginning, a middle, and an end just like
what novels are supposed to be according to the online articles that
I have read. Well, on second thought my blog book “Mysterious Girl”
by Adeline Chrystyn is not a novel to begin with. I mean, my blog
book or shall I say my work of art is simply a written document of my
thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between since I
began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” last June.
You
know what? I'm still thinking of sending some of my poems to a local
newspaper. Well, it's just that problem is I have a funny feeling
that it's not such a good idea. Oh, not to mention that I don't
really know if I'm ready for criticisms especially for those
not-so-constructive criticisms expressed in a barbaric way. You know
what? I guess the best thing for me to do is to keep on blogging even
if I don't know where what I'm doing is going. By the way, a college
friend asked me through chat on a social networking site a few hours
ago if am I thinking of going back to school and proceed to another
business-related course. Well, I told her that I'm not interested.
Hmm, those weren't really the exact words of our conversation but I
guess the thought is there. LOL. I mean, as I've said I really feel
like I don't belong in the corporate world. You know what? I'm kind
of thinking since there's no such thing as a Creative Writing course
in this country where I live in then the course in college closest to
Writing that I can think of is no other than Literature.
Well,
the problem with Literature is that I don't really feel like studying
someone else's work of art. I mean, it's like I'm not really that
interested in studying Shakespeare or whoever that is. Well, let's
put it this way. I mean, it's like studying Music in grade school and
high school. Hmm, it's like teachers and books discuss about
Classical Music, Baroque Music, Contemporary Music, and whatever that
is which I'm not a bit interested in 'coz my ideal kind of class in
Music is for students to be taught how to play musical instruments
like guitar, piano, bass, drums, violin, and what not. Oh, not to
mention forming groups or bands then students get the chance to write
their own songs plus play them in a mini-concert inside the school
campus and stuffs like that. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Oh,
or much better come up with a record album as a project for the
finals or something. LOL. Hmm, it's just that I know I'm a fool
enough to be idealistic especially in today's modern world or what.
Oh, not to mention that who am I to suggest a new curriculum for
Music in grade school and high school. LOL. Well, I'm thinking maybe
some people will go and tell me if that's the case why didn't I just
went into a conservatory then. LOL. Hmm, damn it.
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