I Need to Sort Out My Priorities

You know what? I'm thinking why won't I just focus more in updating my blog or something. I mean, it seems like there's really nothing for me on social networking sites. Oh, not to mention that it seems like something is wrong when it comes to turning my laptop on these days and I'm kind of worried that what if a day will come when I cannot turn my laptop on anymore which means it's a goodbye to my blogging days. I mean, if you can catch my drift. You know what? If I think it over there's really nothing for me on the world wide web so why am I so hooked into it. Damn. I mean, my blog “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn haven't even survived half a year and here I go having some trouble when it comes to turning my laptop on or something. Damn it. Well, I guess I better prepare myself for whatever that is that may happen or what. You know what? I haven't even started a career in writing in the real world everybody knows and it seems like I'm gonna have to say goodbye to my blogging days one of these days or something. Damn.

You know what? I'm thinking maybe none of my dreams are meant to come true in the real world everybody knows. I mean, I tried and tried but still all my efforts went into waste. Well, it's just that I don't know what those days without blogging is gonna be like or something. Damn it. Hmm, on second thought I'm thinking since my current laptop is slowly depreciating and is nearly fully depreciated I'm thinking why won't I sacrifice dropping by online for now and just save the dough instead for the sake of getting myself a new laptop and not to mention a digital camera plus a camera phone. LOL. Hmm, so it seems like you won't be hearing anything from me for about five years or something if my Math serves me right. LOL. Well, I'm still gonna keep on writing. It's just that I won't be typing my thoughts down anymore and blogging them 'coz it seems like I'm gonna go back to the old school way which is scribbling my thoughts down on a piece of paper which is not that bad after all even if I don't really like my current handwriting.

Damn, saying goodbye to my blogging days feels like one of the hardest goodbyes. LOL. Well, let's put it this way. Hmm, if I can still manage to update my blog from time to time then it means my laptop is still carrying on but if you won't be hearing anything from me anymore for like ages then it only means my laptop finally can't carry on anymore. Well, look at the bright side. I mean, at least I managed writing 97,500 words of nonsense before my laptop will soon say goodbye for good. Well, in all fairness I can say that my blog book “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn is one of the best works of art that I have ever came up with my whole damn life and maybe my journey when it comes to writing this blog book will soon come to an end for now but hopefully will resume in about five years time. LOL. I mean, God has given me three years, nine months, and five days to make my dreams or shall I say frustrations or better yet foolishness come true even just inside the four walls of my room and I guess it's more than enough for me. I guess so.

You know what? I'm thinking why won't I get myself busy by reading the books in my mini-library. I mean, I guess that will make the whole damn world a better place to live in. Oh, not to mention that it seems like I don't really have a future when it comes to being a writer in the real world everybody knows someday so might as well just settle as a reader or something. I mean, for now. LOL. You know what? It seems like the reason why I'm a bit hooked to dropping by online is because it's where I get the chance to live the artistic side of me or something. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Oh, now I came to think what if a break from blogging and reading the books in mini-library for the mean time will make me a better writer in the future or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn it. Well, I don't really know.

It's a Social Networking Overdose

You know what? I wish I was mature enough when I began joining social networking sites. Hmm, I'm thinking maybe I wouldn't have ended up creating an account and then deleting it after a few days, weeks, months, or years. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I wouldn't have ended up annoying my batch mates 'coz they keep on receiving friend requests from me or something. Damn, why did my network provider ever decided to make their customers access this said social networking site for free as a holiday gift? I mean, it seems like I'm having a social networking overdose or something. LOL. Well, I have deactivated my other and not to mention unofficial accounts on the said social networking site but last night I decided to keep one unofficial account existing. Oh, this account that I'm talking about is carrying one of my old pen names. Well, I currently don't have friends that I know in person in this said other account. I mean, I just added complete strangers randomly in this account or something as a numbers game. Hmm, it's just that it's different in my official account in this said social networking site 'coz I decided to only add those that I'm interested to be updated with what's going on in their lives at present. Hmm, damn.

By they way, I decided to delete some of my status updates on this said social networking site last night. I mean, I felt like those photos I uploaded shouldn't be there or something. You know what? I'm really trying my damn best to be mature in this official account on a social networking site and I think I'm doing pretty well so far. Well, I think so. Hmm, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. You know what? It's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. Damn it. By the way, if I think it over I don't really get anything from social networking sites aside from unleashing the gossip girl in me and freedom of expression. Oh, not to mention that I feel like there's really nothing for me on the world wide web so why do I keep on dropping by that artificial world. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, damn it.

You know what? I did my part and I guess it's up to those who left my friend requests on a social networking site pending to accept my friend request or not. I mean, I'm thinking maybe those people don't wanna be friends with me anymore even on a social networking site or something. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to anyone. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I came to think that a few weeks from now the network provider's holiday gift will come to an end and I'm thinking it's much better for me to stop myself from being too hooked to this said social networking site 'coz I'll surely miss surfing this site at any time of the day when the promo is over. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, why won't I focus on updating my blog instead?

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. LOL. By the way, I'm not yet done reading this book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Oh, not to mention that I haven't changed my profile picture on social networking sites since I joined those social networking sites. Well, let's put it this way. I mean, if it's an awarding ceremony then the best picture goes to my current profile picture. LOL. Oh, and it seems like I can't find a photo of me that's worth to replace my current profile picture with. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing or am I writing in English in a way that it's only me who can understand all over again? Damn it. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here.

Days Without Dropping By Online

Well, for the past few days I was able to access my social networking account for free as a Christmas and New Year's gift from the network provider or something. LOL. Hmm, it's just that it seems like the fun is over from now on 'coz when I tried to log in my social networking account carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” a while ago it seems like something went wrong with the web page or something and don't ask me to describe it much further 'coz I just can't put my words into it. LOL. Well, so it seems like I'm going back to those days when I only get the chance to drop by online whenever I have written my latest batch of blog drafts to be posted on my blog or something. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Well, I don't really know with me. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know.

By the way, there's this song by the Twerking Queen that's giving me an LSS or a Last Song Syndrome. Well, I actually cannot relate to the song not to mention that I cannot dedicate this said song to somebody else. I mean, I was just caught by the song's melody not to mention that I ended up liking the song even more when I saw a video of the Twerking Queen on a video sharing website singing the said song live on a talk show. Oh, and when I checked out the lyrics I ended up liking it even more 'coz I find it a bit poetic or something. Well, all I can say is I had pleasant chills running down my spine while watching that live performance of this said song by the Twerking Queen. Oh, not to mention that that live performance made me forget all the ‘weird’ things the Twerking Queen has been doing in her latest music videos and not to mention her ‘twerking’ making me realize that the Twerking Queen is really a talented singer and she doesn’t have to do all those ‘weird’ things or shall I say go through all the ‘hype’ just to go further in the mainstream music industry ‘coz her amazing singing voice with an amazing song is more than enough to make her shine. Okay, I know no one asked for my opinion. I mean, I'm just saying.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Oh, I decided to drop saving in five pesos coin denomination and stick with saving in ten pesos coin denomination. I mean, with the rise of e-books these days I wonder if it's a good idea to have a books in print yard sale someday. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Oh, call me old school but I still opt to read books that are in print. I mean, I grew up doing so and I'm thinking it's gonna stay that way until my time in this world of the living is up. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

By the way, I tried to sing this song that's giving me an LSS. Well, it was a bit of a challenge to familiarize the words of the song to begin with but with a lot of perseverance I was able to familiarize myself with the words of the song and I just ended up singing the song over and over again not to mention that there are even times when I can't get myself into sleep 'coz late at night the song is still playing in my head. LOL. Oh, again I'd like to stress out that I actually cannot relate to the song not to mention that I cannot think of somebody to dedicate it to. I mean, maybe the song is just too catchy for me that's why I'm so hooked to it these days. Well, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. Well, I guess the best thing for me to do is just to keep on updating my blog to make the whole damn world a better place to live in and that's an amen.

Here I Go Flooding the News Feed

Hmm, so I have been liking photos of people on a social networking site and I have a funny feeling that I'm flooding the news feed of my friends on the said social networking site all over again. Well, I'm thinking maybe it's not such a big deal to them or something but if it somehow annoys them or what then they are free to stop receiving updates from me in their news feed or something. LOL. Well, actually I turned this said social networking site into a quasi micro-blogging website a few years ago by sending status updates via text message. LOL. Hmm, and now it seems like I'm turning this said social networking site into a photo sharing website or something. Well, it's just that I don't really have that much photos to share. By the way, I logged in to some of my deactivated accounts on this said social networking site yesterday to check out some old photos I uploaded back then and saved some of those photos then deactivated those said accounts all over again. I mean, this account carrying the name “Adeline Chrystyn” is really the official one and I'm trying my damn best to be mature in this account or something unlike before.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, yesterday I had Macaroni Salad for breakfast then I had Macaroni Salad for lunch then I had Macaroni Salad and Spaghetti for dinner. LOL. Well, never mind asking why I had Macaroni Salad for the whole day. Hmm, all I can say is it's been a year since then. Okay, so why won't I talk about something else? Hmm, like what? Well, I don't really know. By the way, natural calamities are happening not just in this country where I live and grew up in but also in the whole wide world if I base it on what I have seen on my news feed on a social networking site not to mention that here goes the topic of this so called “End of the World” all over again. Well, no one really knows when the whole damn world will end. Hmm, I guess the best thing for each and every one of us to do is to make the most out of each and every single day or something. Damn, look who's talking? LOL. I mean, I can't even live my life to the fullest or what. Damn it.

Oh, it seems like none of those pending friend requests that I sent will ever get accepted. Well, I still have thirty friends on a social networking site and not counting. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. You know what? I think I'm going through some diminishing satisfaction when it comes to social networking sites. I mean, it's like eating Chocolates or something. Hmm, at first one gets a lot of satisfaction when eating Chocolates but the more one eats some Chocolates the lesser satisfaction one gets from eating Chocolates. I mean, can you catch my drift or wasn't I listening to our Economics teacher back then attentively? LOL. Oh, and why did I decide to make Chocolates as an example when if you ask me I'll never get tired of eating Chocolates? Damn it.

You know what? I'm thinking social networking sites are a new medium of communication aside from being a platform for self-expression. Well, since no one out there really wants to talk to me then I'm thinking I'll go with making social networking sites a platform for expressing myself or something. LOL. By the way, I watched a reality show for designers last night and one of the guest judges is a female model. Hmm, so I went and checked her out on a social networking site and when I checked out her photos it seems like this female model is also an author of a book with a pink cover or something. LOL. Damn, so she's a professional model and a professional author which are both I'm not. Oh, another heartbreak this is. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Damn it.

Talking to a Fictitious Character

You know what? I don't know why but I have a funny feeling that when I was chatting to Sam Keanu Neuryc back then I was talking to a fictitious character all along. Hmm, I don't know with me. I mean, not to mention that he's keeping such a low profile. Well, I'm thinking maybe what happened during my chatting days to Sam Keanu Neuryc was all a case study or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so I guess it's time for me to move on or something. Oh, not to mention that it's been ages since he deleted me as friend on a social networking account carrying my real name. Damn, I wonder what's up with him these days? Well, I'm talking about that guy I saw via webcam. I mean, I'm kind of wondering if that guy I saw via webcam is the real Sam Keanu Neuryc or not or was he just an accessory to the case study or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, I guess it's all part of God's plan and that's an amen. Damn it.

By the way, I spent the past few days browsing through photos on a social networking site. Well, if you wanna check out the photos I like then just try out the graph search and type down “Photos liked by Adeline Chrystyn” or some other keywords with the same meaning. I mean, if you can catch my drift. You know what? It seems like I'll be an unemployed not to mention unemployable my whole damn life and I'll never get the chance to know what it's like to start earning my own dough. Damn it. Well, I'm still saving in ten pesos coin denomination in my coin bank. Hmm, it's just that I don't know if this time around it's for the sake of saving or for a digital camera. I mean, I'm thinking of unleashing the frustrated photographer in me or something. LOL. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'm thinking that's not such a bad idea. I mean, there's a possibility that I'll compile my photos in a coffee table book and make some dough out of it or something. Damn it.

Oh, I'm still not done reading this book about dreams and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. You know what? I'm thinking I don't really have a way with words. LOL. Damn, and here I go dreaming to be a writer. Oh, not to mention that not just a writer but a bestselling one. Damn, who the hell will spare some of one's hard earned dough just to read all the rubbish in the world coming from an ignorant girl like me? Hmm, why won't I just keep on writing? I mean, I guess that will make the world a better place to live in. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking there are artists who are born and there are also artists who are made. I feel like I can express myself better through art. Hmm, it's just that I'm not as good as renaissance artists are so it seems like the wanna-be artist in me still has a lot of work to do or something which is not as easy as one-two-three, mind you. Well, it seems like the steps I took to be a singer songwriter someday are a total epic fail and I guess it's much better for me to just drop that dream. Damn it.

Hmm, I'm still keeping my blog though even if the steps I took to be a published writer someday are also an epic fail. I mean, I really opt to express myself through writing rather than talking. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, I wonder how will I do when it comes to photography. Well, I don't really know. By the way, I now have thirty friends on a social networking site and it seems like none of those pending friend requests I sent are gonna be accepted in the coming days. Oh, I decided to sort out those friends again. Hmm, I decided to fuse those who are in family, close friends, and interesting friends into one group which I named simply as “friends” then the rest are still “acquaintances”. You know what? I think I'm gonna give photography a shot. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, it's just that I still don't have a single penny in my pocket to buy myself a digital camera. LOL. I mean, if I can't start earning my own dough through writing then maybe I can start earning my own dough through being a frustrated photographer or something. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I'm just wondering if someone out there will appreciate any work of art coming from me or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn it. Whatever.

So Now It Seems Like I'm Bleeding

I was so bored with life so I decided to drop by Animé's profile on a social networking site. Well, it seems like he's happily not to mention madly in love with his girlfriend these days. I mean, at this point his friend and he were even talking about Animé having a baby with his girlfriend or something. Hmm, as I've said it seems like Animé and his girlfriend have been together for quite a long time now and it seems like the only thing that's lacking in their relationship at this point is a wedding and of course a baby comes after that. LOL. By the way, I also dropped by Where's-Your-Teacher?'s profile on a social networking and a picture of him carrying his son on a park greeted me with a big hello. LOL. Well, nothing much. I mean, I guess it's just that fanatic in me resurfacing all over again or something. Oh, I won't dare to add them on my official account on a social networking site. LOL. I mean, I think that's somewhat going too far or something. Damn it.

Oh, not to mention that I also dropped by Sam Keanu Neuryc's profile on a social networking site. Hmm, he wrote something in his mother tongue on his timeline a few months ago and thank goodness for the translation that I was able to somehow figure out what it means. Well, if I was able to catch the drift of what he wrote the right way it seems like he was hurting when he wrote whatever that is he wrote or something. Hmm, it's just that I don't know if he's still hurting up until now or what. You know what? I really want to know Sam Keanu Neuryc's offical social networking accounts 'coz obviously those accounts in which I had the chance to talk to him were unofficial ones. Well, if I remember it right Sam Keanu Neuryc sent me a link via e-mail message a few months ago. Hmm, I'm kind of hesitant to open that link or something. I mean, what if that link contains a virus or something. I mean, I can't risk it 'coz I really can't afford to buy myself a new laptop these days. Damn, why am I talking about my crushes all over again? Well, I don't know with me. LOL. Well, I guess I'm just bored with life all over again or something. Damn it.

By the way, I'm thinking of doing the Math all over again. Hmm, I now have thirty friends on my official account on a social networking site. Well, I decided to sort them out so I added three friends as family, eight friends as close friends, two friends as interesting friends, and seventeen friends as acquaintances. Well, most of them were my former classmates with two relatives and one schoolmate. Damn, why am I doing the Math all over again? Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, I'm not really that close to those friends I added as close friends. I mean, I just thought of stressing out that one. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I'm not really that close to anyone.

Oh, it's been a long while since Sam Keanu Neuryc posted something on his account in which I got the chance to talk to him which makes me think that maybe he has abandoned that account or something. Damn, it seems like the harmless stalker in me won't have any scoop from Sam Keanu Neuryc or something. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, I went browsing through photo albums on a social networking and liked those photos that I find interesting. Well, I don't know with me. LOL. I mean, I guess I'm just so damn bored with life or something. Hmm, on second thought I like browsing through photos. I mean, I guess it's just the frustrated photographer in me resurfacing all over again or something. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I don't know with me. Damn it. Hmm, I guess that's just me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. Oh, not to mention that I better try my best to hold back the harmless stalker in me. I mean, it seems like my crushes are happy with their lives now with someone special which leaves me bleeding 'coz unfortunately that special someone isn't me and never will be. Sigh. LOL.

It's A Polite Way of Rejection

I went online yesterday to update my blog and then I dropped by my e-mail address to check out my inbox. Well, news is I was able to receive a reply from that publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. Hmm, the message says that they were able to receive my book proposal and they are asking me to give them about one or two months to go through my book proposal not to mention that they didn't fail to stress out that they are screening book proposals these days for books to be published on 2015. Well, if I think it over since it's nearly the end of 2013 so I'm thinking it's just reasonable that this said publishing company is screening books to be published on 2015 or something. Hmm, it's just that I don't know why but there's a part of me telling me that maybe it's their polite way of rejecting my book proposal. I mean, it's like 2015 is still ages away or something and maybe psychologically speaking this said publishing company thinks that maybe I'm a bit too impatient to wait that long to get my book published or something so there's a possibility that I'll send a book proposal to other publishing companies or literary agents whom I think can publish my book sooner or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift.

By the way, I decided to add more people on a social networking site. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, I'm thinking of doing the Math all over but I guess it's much better for me to just forget about that stuff. LOL. Oh, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to anyone. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I have a funny feeling that no one I know in person wants to talk to me so why won't I go back talking to complete strangers instead. LOL. Hmm, I'll think about it. You know what? I'm thinking of only adding those people that I know in person on a social networking site. Hmm, it's just that if I think it over it seems like most people on a social networking don't really know in person everyone that they added on their account or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? You know what? I'm thinking of browsing through the friend suggestions, check out the profile of those that I find interesting, and send those people friend requests. I mean, I think there's nothing wrong with that or something. Well, I don't really know with me. LOL. Hmm, I'll think about it. LOL.

Hmm, I was thinking of writing a blog draft every other day. Well, it's just that it seems not possible these days. I mean, I'm thinking why won't I just limit myself to writing a blog draft a day or something to make the whole damn world a better place to live in. Hmm, I don't really know with me. Oh, not to mention that the local newspaper to whom I sent a poem to via e-mail didn't reply to my message. Well, I'm thinking maybe my poem isn't good enough or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I don't really find anything wrong with adding more people on a social networking site. I mean, that's why it's called a “social networking site”, right? Well, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? LOL.

Well, I listed forty-nine people more that I'm thinking of sending friend requests to on a social networking site. Hmm, I came up with that list when I browsed through my yearbooks sometime ago. Well, I have to stress out again and again that these people and I aren't really close. I mean, I just find them interesting that's why I'm thinking of sending them friend requests. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. You know what? I wonder what it will be like if I was mature enough when I began joining social networking sites. Well, maybe I wouldn't have ended up creating an account and deleting it after a while. Damn, I guess that's life. LOL. Sigh.