Every
time I drop by a bookstore I can't help feel like I'm swimming in a
sea of books. It makes me wonder of all the quantity of books
published in a year how can I make my own book stand out. Well, that
if I'll be able to write my own book to begin with. Hmm, I don't
really know. I mean, I have been trying to write a book since I was
eight and I usually wasn't able to write one until its last page.
Well, problem is I'm not as imaginative as I used to be anymore. I'm
thinking maybe it has something to do with this disorder I have. Hmm,
I don't really know and never mind.
I
wanna have a mini-library here at home filled with novels. Well, so
far I have ten novels in my mini-library and I don't know when there
will be an addition to those. Hmm, since I don't have all the dough
in the world to buy myself a new book then I'm thinking of reading
those books all over again. Well, problem is there's a part of me who
doesn't feel like doing so. Hmm, I don't know with me. I don't know
if I can really trust my funny feelings or what. Well, I guess the
best thing for me to do is to not worry too much about it or
something. Hmm, I guess so. Whatever.
Damn,
I'm quarter of a century old and I'm still clueless in life. Hmm, I
think it's nice to start earning my own dough by reading books. LOL.
Yeah, why not be a literary agent? I mean, since it's quite
impossible for me to be a writer in the real world everybody knows
then why not read other writers' work and help them get their work
published. Well, problem is I don't have the connections for me to be
a literary agent. Hmm, I wonder if there's a university in town
offering a course on being a literary agent or something. Well, I
think I better go and research about that.
Well,
as the way things look right now I think I'm not ever going back to
school anytime soon or maybe in my whole damn life not to mention
that my online job hunting attempts are such a failure. Hmm, as they
say it's part of growing up. Damn, I'm wondering why I'm not so in
touch with reality just like most people are. Well, I guess this is
how God designed me and I guess the best thing for me to do is just
to live with it. Hey, I'm trying to live my life to the fullest these
days the way I know how. I guess it's more likely that I'll just
spend the rest of my life waiting for my dying day. I mean, what is
there left for me to do in this whole damn world? I don't know.
So
it seems like my life is going nowhere these days, huh? Well, if I am
to decide where my life is going I want to be the next bestselling
author in the real world everybody knows. It's just that dreaming
such is quite detached from reality so I guess it's much better for
me to drop the idea. Well, some people say that there's nothing
impossible in this world. Hmm, I don't know about that. I mean, it
seems like my real studio record album and my bestselling book are
still an inch away from impossible or something. Or maybe God is
still working on it to make things possible for me. LOL. Yeah, right.
It's like in my wildest dreams. I don't really know and never mind.
Damn,
when will I ever wake up from my deep sleep? Well, I guess for now
the best thing for me to do is to get busy updating my blog
“Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn. Oh, but not as religiously
as I did during my birthday month. Hmm, maybe I'll go and update my
blog once a week or something. I mean, it's all I can do for now
while I'm still clueless in life. Damn, I wonder what does it take to
write a page-turner 'coz I really dream to write one. Hmm, I'm
wondering if professional writers do hire ghost writers or something.
It's like a teamwork kind of thing. It's like the professional
writers write the plot of the story and the ghost writers stretch the
plot into chapters. It's just that the professional writer gets the
credit for everything and what the ghost writers get is some dough or
what. Hmm, I don't really know. Well, maybe such happens.
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