Unwanted

I came across a quote one time saying something like “I'd rather be disliked for who I am than be liked for who I'm not.” Hmm, I'm thinking that does make some sense, right? Well, as I've said I'm not perfect. I'm not a saint. I'm only human. I got my own monsters. I'm thinking of reading everything I wrote on my blog so far and try to figure out if have I said something wrong. I mean, is there something wrong with being too candid and writing in my own perspective? Damn, I really need some feedback from someone out there. Well, I asked a friend to read all my blog posts and for her to tell me her honest opinion after reading. It's just that it seems like she read the wrong blog. Hmm, I don't really know. She hasn't replied to my latest messages or something.

It sucks when I'm having fun here coming up with blog posts for the sake of keeping my blog and living my dream as a frustrated writer even just inside the four walls of my room and here comes the thought that maybe there are some people out there who has nothing else to do in life but take what I wrote the wrong way and put their own colours to my literary masterpieces. Well, it's just a thought or a funny feeling. I don't really know if someone out there who has read my blog posts took what I wrote the wrong way. Or maybe it's my psychotic mind resurfacing all over again. Well, news is it ain't happening 'coz my medicines are doing pretty well these days. Never mind.

So it seems like being misinterpreted comes along with being an aspiring writer, huh? Well, if I ever do have readers I'd like to suggest that if one reads my blog then it's much better to read every single word and don't do any speed reading 'coz if one speed reads then most likely it will be easy for that person to take what I wrote the wrong way. Hmm, I'm not asking my readers if I ever do have some to study my literary masterpieces the way they study Shakespeare. LOL. Well, what I'm trying to point out is I hope they will refrain from taking what I wrote the wrong way. Hey, I'm writing 'coz I also just plainly want to express myself and that's pretty much it. Okay?

Well, not to mention that if one doesn't really know the whole story then it's much better for one to keep one's damn mouth shut. I mean, there are times when I end up only writing the tip of the iceberg and I came to think maybe some readers out there can't help come up with the rest of the story with their wild imagination which is quite annoying. Well, I guess it seems like it's part of being an aspiring writer so I better just learn how to live with it and that's an amen. On second thought I'm not really a native English speaker so maybe there are times when I end up expressing what I want to say in a confusing way or something like that. Hmm, I guess so.

Well, I guess what matters most is I do understand what I wrote, right? On second thought maybe I don't really know if I really do have readers so it's quite hard for me to think of those who are on the other side of the coin. I'm asking feedback from friends now so I can somehow know what they think of my literary masterpieces and so that I can improve my style of writing or something. Damn, who would bother to read my blog posts anyway? Well, I guess there's nothing wrong with asking for someone else's opinion. I just hope I'll be able to get some honest opinions.

As I've said I want to write a blog for light reading and not a blog with a heavy atmosphere. I guess it's time for me to face my fear of rejection. I mean, as the saying goes “You can't please everybody the same way everybody can't please you.” Well, all I know is I never meant to cause trouble to anyone. Oh, as they say that the people who come into your life are there for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. I guess those who came into my life for a reason has served their purpose and those who came into my life for a season have reached the end of their contract period. LOL.

I don't really know what other people think about me and I guess the best thing to do is not to care. Well, all I know is I'm doing my thing and I'm not interfering as other people are doing their thing. Hey, I'm living my dream as a frustrated writer even just inside the four walls of my room so what can be any better than that? LOL. Oh, I forgot that my baby is slowly depreciating so it seems like me living my dream as a frustrated writer even just inside the four walls of my room will soon come to an end. Well, as they say that it's part of growing up. Hmm, never mind. LOL.