Days Without Dropping By Online

Well, for the past few days I was able to access my social networking account for free as a Christmas and New Year's gift from the network provider or something. LOL. Hmm, it's just that it seems like the fun is over from now on 'coz when I tried to log in my social networking account carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” a while ago it seems like something went wrong with the web page or something and don't ask me to describe it much further 'coz I just can't put my words into it. LOL. Well, so it seems like I'm going back to those days when I only get the chance to drop by online whenever I have written my latest batch of blog drafts to be posted on my blog or something. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Well, I don't really know with me. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know.

By the way, there's this song by the Twerking Queen that's giving me an LSS or a Last Song Syndrome. Well, I actually cannot relate to the song not to mention that I cannot dedicate this said song to somebody else. I mean, I was just caught by the song's melody not to mention that I ended up liking the song even more when I saw a video of the Twerking Queen on a video sharing website singing the said song live on a talk show. Oh, and when I checked out the lyrics I ended up liking it even more 'coz I find it a bit poetic or something. Well, all I can say is I had pleasant chills running down my spine while watching that live performance of this said song by the Twerking Queen. Oh, not to mention that that live performance made me forget all the ‘weird’ things the Twerking Queen has been doing in her latest music videos and not to mention her ‘twerking’ making me realize that the Twerking Queen is really a talented singer and she doesn’t have to do all those ‘weird’ things or shall I say go through all the ‘hype’ just to go further in the mainstream music industry ‘coz her amazing singing voice with an amazing song is more than enough to make her shine. Okay, I know no one asked for my opinion. I mean, I'm just saying.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Oh, I decided to drop saving in five pesos coin denomination and stick with saving in ten pesos coin denomination. I mean, with the rise of e-books these days I wonder if it's a good idea to have a books in print yard sale someday. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Oh, call me old school but I still opt to read books that are in print. I mean, I grew up doing so and I'm thinking it's gonna stay that way until my time in this world of the living is up. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

By the way, I tried to sing this song that's giving me an LSS. Well, it was a bit of a challenge to familiarize the words of the song to begin with but with a lot of perseverance I was able to familiarize myself with the words of the song and I just ended up singing the song over and over again not to mention that there are even times when I can't get myself into sleep 'coz late at night the song is still playing in my head. LOL. Oh, again I'd like to stress out that I actually cannot relate to the song not to mention that I cannot think of somebody to dedicate it to. I mean, maybe the song is just too catchy for me that's why I'm so hooked to it these days. Well, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. Well, I guess the best thing for me to do is just to keep on updating my blog to make the whole damn world a better place to live in and that's an amen.

Talking to a Fictitious Character

You know what? I don't know why but I have a funny feeling that when I was chatting to Sam Keanu Neuryc back then I was talking to a fictitious character all along. Hmm, I don't know with me. I mean, not to mention that he's keeping such a low profile. Well, I'm thinking maybe what happened during my chatting days to Sam Keanu Neuryc was all a case study or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so I guess it's time for me to move on or something. Oh, not to mention that it's been ages since he deleted me as friend on a social networking account carrying my real name. Damn, I wonder what's up with him these days? Well, I'm talking about that guy I saw via webcam. I mean, I'm kind of wondering if that guy I saw via webcam is the real Sam Keanu Neuryc or not or was he just an accessory to the case study or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, I guess it's all part of God's plan and that's an amen. Damn it.

By the way, I spent the past few days browsing through photos on a social networking site. Well, if you wanna check out the photos I like then just try out the graph search and type down “Photos liked by Adeline Chrystyn” or some other keywords with the same meaning. I mean, if you can catch my drift. You know what? It seems like I'll be an unemployed not to mention unemployable my whole damn life and I'll never get the chance to know what it's like to start earning my own dough. Damn it. Well, I'm still saving in ten pesos coin denomination in my coin bank. Hmm, it's just that I don't know if this time around it's for the sake of saving or for a digital camera. I mean, I'm thinking of unleashing the frustrated photographer in me or something. LOL. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'm thinking that's not such a bad idea. I mean, there's a possibility that I'll compile my photos in a coffee table book and make some dough out of it or something. Damn it.

Oh, I'm still not done reading this book about dreams and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. You know what? I'm thinking I don't really have a way with words. LOL. Damn, and here I go dreaming to be a writer. Oh, not to mention that not just a writer but a bestselling one. Damn, who the hell will spare some of one's hard earned dough just to read all the rubbish in the world coming from an ignorant girl like me? Hmm, why won't I just keep on writing? I mean, I guess that will make the world a better place to live in. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking there are artists who are born and there are also artists who are made. I feel like I can express myself better through art. Hmm, it's just that I'm not as good as renaissance artists are so it seems like the wanna-be artist in me still has a lot of work to do or something which is not as easy as one-two-three, mind you. Well, it seems like the steps I took to be a singer songwriter someday are a total epic fail and I guess it's much better for me to just drop that dream. Damn it.

Hmm, I'm still keeping my blog though even if the steps I took to be a published writer someday are also an epic fail. I mean, I really opt to express myself through writing rather than talking. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, I wonder how will I do when it comes to photography. Well, I don't really know. By the way, I now have thirty friends on a social networking site and it seems like none of those pending friend requests I sent are gonna be accepted in the coming days. Oh, I decided to sort out those friends again. Hmm, I decided to fuse those who are in family, close friends, and interesting friends into one group which I named simply as “friends” then the rest are still “acquaintances”. You know what? I think I'm gonna give photography a shot. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, it's just that I still don't have a single penny in my pocket to buy myself a digital camera. LOL. I mean, if I can't start earning my own dough through writing then maybe I can start earning my own dough through being a frustrated photographer or something. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I'm just wondering if someone out there will appreciate any work of art coming from me or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn it. Whatever.

Too Many Ideas Play in My Head

You know what? It seems like I'm over-thinking too much lately. I mean, a lot of ideas are popping out of my head and I keep on thinking about these ideas over and over again. Well, it's like I end up being stuck in these ideas playing in my head or something and it seems like I have to do something to get over it or what. Oh, you wanna know what are these ideas that I'm talking about? Well, it's more like thoughts actually. Hmm, I'm still thinking of what happened to the e-mail messages I sent to the local newspaper and publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. I mean, I have a funny feeling that I sent those e-mail messages in such a wrong timing and never mind asking why 'coz I don't wanna go into the details. Oh, not to mention that I just can't get over the thought of having a book yard sale someday. Well, it seems like the book yard sale is still ages from now so why am I thinking too much about it. Damn it. By the way, I'm also thinking of sending more friend requests on a social networking site. I don't know with me.

Hmm, it's just that I'm thinking twice of doing such and I'm talking about sending more friend requests on a social networking site. I mean, if my statistics serves me right I sent friend requests to thirteen people and thankfully nine of those were accepted while four are still pending. Well, I accepted three friend requests that I received on the said social networking site and in all fairness I am being followed by twelve people. Damn, why am I doing the Math all over again? Well, it's just that I'm thinking that's why I wanna send more friend requests on a social networking site is because I wanna have a glimpse of what's going on in the lives of more of my batch-mates these days. Oh, problem is there's a part of me that's somewhat holding me back from sending those friend requests. I mean, I'm thinking what if most if not all of my batch-mates don't wanna be friends with me anymore even on social networking sites. Well, how will I find out if I won't send a friend request, right? I think I'm gonna go and think over it or something. Hmm, I don't know.

Well, if my statistics serves me right I have a dozen friends on a social networking site so far and a dozen followers as well. Oh, and for the record I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” on social networking sites since the 14^th of June 2013. LOL. Hmm, maybe I'll go and send more friend requests or maybe I won't. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I'm thinking it's the gossip girl in me resurfacing all over again wanting to have a glimpse of other people's lives. Oh, or let's just say it's the fan in me resurfacing all over again wanting to know the latest updates from her favorite celebrities. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, last night I made a short list of those that I'm thinking of sending friend requests to. Hmm, it's just that I ended up deleting the list the following morning. Well, I don't know with me. Oh, or better yet why won't I just forget about sending more friend requests on a social networking site. Hmm, I don't really know. Sigh.

By the way, it seems like I can't wait for every coming Sunday to update my blog or something. I mean, I'm thinking I'm gonna update my blog as soon as I am able to come up with a latest batch of blog drafts to update it with. Well, it's just that I came to think that I only live once so I better make the most out of each and every single day or something. By the way, I'm writing this blog draft on a Wednesday. Hmm, nothing much. I mean, I just feel like mentioning that one. LOL. You know what? I guess it's much better for me not to think too much of the poem and the book proposal I sent via e-mail. Well, I'm thinking the best thing for me to do for now is to keep on blogging. Hmm, I guess that will make the world a better place to live in or something. LOL. Oh, not to mention that the book yard sale is still ages from now so I guess it's much better for me not to think too much about it. Hmm, I'm still gonna keep on saving in five pesos coin denomination to buy interesting books and keep on saving in ten pesos coin denomination for the sake of saving. You know what? I mean, it seems like doing the Math is somehow stressing me out. LOL.

Invest in Books or Save the Dough

Well, since I like reading good books then I'm thinking of browsing for good books in a secondhand bookshop, read those books I found interesting and bought, then sell those books I have read in a book yard sale. Well, on second thought there's a part of me telling me why won't I just save the dough instead. Hmm, I don't really know. You know what? I don't really need a new gadget. I mean, my laptop can still function properly even if it's slowly depreciating not to mention that my mobile phone can also still function properly even if it is also slowly depreciating. You know what? Well, I'm thinking since I'm unemployed not to mention unemployable then I guess it's much better for me to focus more on my needs and not on my wants. Oh, it's just that I don't know with me but I find dropping by online to update my blog from time to time a need 'coz it's my ticket to establishing myself as a writer and all that stuff.

You know what? I'm thinking of dropping by online on every Sunday from now on or something. Oh, not to mention that if I'm not mistaken I'm writing this blog draft on a Tuesday and Sunday feels like ages away or what. LOL. By the way, the time and date settings of my laptop and my mobile phone are broken. Hmm, nothing much. I mean, I just feel like mentioning that one. Well, so I'm thinking of saving some dough in five pesos coin denomination to invest in good books aside from saving some dough in ten pesos coin denomination for the sake of saving. By the way. I'm still in the middle of reading this book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Well, so while I'm still saving some dough to invest in good books then I guess the best thing for me to do is just to read all over again the books in my mini-library which is not that bad after all. You know what? I don't really know why I'm so into books. Damn.

Oh, not to mention that I read in an online article that reading makes somebody a better writer. Hmm, I guess that does make a lot of sense, right? Well, so it seems like I'm writing too much these days that I end up coming up with my latest batch of blog drafts in less than a week so I'm thinking of unleashing the artist within me and come up with artistic stuffs while waiting for the coming Sunday. I mean, if you can catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, I wonder what happened to the e-mail messages I sent or something. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I still have to wait until this coming Sunday to find out and it damn really feels like ages from now or something. Oh, not to mention that I have a funny feeling that I'll be waiting in vain or what. Hmm, I guess that's life and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. Damn, what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't know. LOL.

You know what? I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, on second thought I only live once so I'm wondering why would I waste time waiting for the coming Sunday to update my blog or something. Well, I don't really know with me. Hmm, why won't I just limit myself to writing a blog draft a day or something. I mean, I guess that will make the whole damn word a better place to live in. Well, I don't really know. Damn it. You know what? I have a lot of ideas going on in my head these days. Hmm, I don't know with me. I mean, take the book yard sale as a sample or something. Hmm, it's just that it seems like these ideas will remain as ideas for now since I don't have a single penny in my pocket to turn those ideas into something real. Well, I'm thinking it's much better for me not to think too much of these ideas I have in mind. I mean, I guess everything will just fall into place someday or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what the heck am I saying?

No One Asked for What I Think

By the way, I was able to accidentally discover that my broadband can also function as a memory card reader. Hmm, nothing much. I mean, I just feel like mentioning that one. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. I mean, I really have nothing much in mind right now. Hmm, I just feel like writing so here I am coming up with another blog draft. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. You know what? I'm kind of wondering what happened to the e-mail messages I sent. Well, I don't really know and I don't know when will I ever find out. Hmm, I haven't written a new poem yet. I mean, it seems like those once in a blue moon poem writing sessions is out of town these days or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? It just dawned on me that the home buddy that I am stayed stuck in my cave where I peacefully belong for months now. I mean, if you can catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Well, whatever. Damn it.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. You know what? I really can't wait to drop by online. Hmm, it's just that it seems like I have to wait until I'll be able to come up with the next batch of blog drafts or something. You know what? I'm kind of thinking why won't I start blogging something that makes some sense or what. I mean, I'm thinking maybe my readers if I ever do have some are sick and tired of me babbling the same things over and over again or something. Well, I don't really know. You know what? I'm thinking maybe that's why I haven't received any critique when it comes to my writing style since I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” is because no one ever bothered to read any of my blog posts or something. Well, I don't really know. Damn.

Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I'm thinking the reason why I just can't wait to drop by online is because I can't wait to check out if I have received a reply from the local newspaper and publishing company to whom I sent a poem and a book proposal to respectively. Damn, I'm thinking I'll just be waiting in vain or something. Well, not to mention that it seems like I sent those e-mail messages in such a wrong timing and I don't feel like going into the details why. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. You know what? I'm sounding like a broken record all over again. Damn, whatever.

You know what? I guess the best thing for me to do is really to keep on blogging while I'm still clueless on what am I gonna do in the real world everybody knows. Well, teaching in college will do. Hmm, it's just that I'm really not qualified not to mention that I don't have the brains and I don't have the heart. Oh, not to mention that I don't know what subject am I gonna teach in college or something if I ever do get the chance to go back to school or what. Hmm, on second thought I'm not really an intellectual 'coz I'm an artist. LOL. Well, a wanna-be artist that is. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. You know what? I have written 97,500 words of nonsense which means a chapter of my journey towards a career in writing has been closed and now it's time for me to start a new chapter or something. You know what? I don't really know where this path I'm choosing is going.

Better Not Keep My Hopes High

Damn, I wonder what happened to the e-mail messages I sent. Well, I don't really know. You know what? I guess it's much better for me to forget about it for now and think of something else. Hmm, problem is what something else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. By the way, I really have nothing much in mind right now. Hmm, it's just that I feel like writing so here I am coming up with another blog draft. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, so I think I'm gonna go and check my e-mail address from time to time to check if any of those I sent an e-mail message to replied or something. By the way, I thought of coming up with a poem book. Hmm, it's just that problem is I don't really have that much poems out here so I dropped the idea. LOL.

You know what? I'm kind of wondering if is it wrong of me to send my poem “A Broken Record” to a local newspaper via e-mail and send a book proposal via e-mail to a book publishing company that's based in this country where I live in. I mean, it's just that I don't know with me but I have a bad feeling about this like I made such a wrong move or something. Well, then I came to think how can such be a wrong move when it's a step for me towards a career in writing or something. You know what? I really have nothing to lose or something. Well, I'm thinking maybe it's my fear of failure and my allergy to criticisms resurfacing all over again. Hmm, I don't really know with me. I mean, all I know is I did my part and it's up to God to do the rest. Well, I'm still not keeping my hopes high. I mean, considering the fact that I don't really have any background when it comes to publishing and stuffs. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I don't know with me.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? Hmm, I guess I have to say that better not mind me when I'm writing a bunch of nonsense at times. I mean, as I've said writing is like a therapy to me or something. Well, let's put it this way. Hmm, it's like when a working girl is stressed out then she has the tendency to turn into a shopaholic at times to cope with stress. I mean, if you can catch my drift. LOL. Well, problem is I don't know if I'm stressed out or not that's why I'm writing a bunch of nonsense in this blog draft or something. Damn it. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. You know what? I'm thinking maybe I'm not really meant to start earning my own dough as a writer. Damn, what a heartbreak that is.

You know what? I don't really have that much in mind right now. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, I guess the best thing for me to do is just to keep on blogging. You know what? I'm sounding like a broken record all over again or something. Damn, I'm thinking the best thing for me to do in the real world everybody knows is to be a businesswoman even if I'm not a business-minded kind of person. I mean, I'm thinking maybe I'm not really meant to start earning my own dough as a writer. Hmm, on second thought I'm thinking of dropping by the office of that company that's looking for writers. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, it's just that problem is I'm not really an article writer or something. Oh, now I know what I'm gonna do with my remaining internet minutes after updating my blog. Hmm, I'm thinking of researching for a low capital business that I can possibly get myself into. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, why won't I just wait for a reply from those I sent an e-mail message to for now?

Over-Thinking Too Much About It

Hmm, so I went online a few hours ago and then sent a book proposal via e-mail to a publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. Well, I thought why would I over-think too much about sending a book proposal when I have nothing to lose anyway. You know what? I have to say that this publishing company that I'm talking about is the only hope I have and it really sucks to keep reminding myself not to keep my hopes high 'coz if my book proposal will get rejected then it will totally be heartbreaking or something. By the way, I browsed through my news feed on a social networking site and noticed that my newly-wed cousin has uploaded wedding photos. Well, I just thought of mentioning that one. Oh, not to mention that I tried to write a poem yesterday. Hmm, it's just that it seems like those once in a blue moon poem writing sessions aren't in town these days so here I am coming up with another blog draft. Well, so I guess what I have to do for now is to wait for a reply to my e-mail messages or will I be waiting in vain or something. Hmm, I don't really know. Well, I guess it's much better for me not to think too much about it or what. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't know. LOL.

Well, let's just say it's time to close another chapter in my journey towards a career in writing or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? It's really not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, I'm still thinking of sending a query to literary agents. Well, I don't really know. I mean, since my chance to promote my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” on social networking sites finally came to an end then I don't know what else to do on the remaining internet minutes after updating my blog or something. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Well, I don't really know. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, what am I saying? Damn it.

Hmm, so I sent my poem “A Broken Record” to a local newspaper via e-mail and I sent a book proposal via e-mail to a publishing company that is based in this country where I live in as a next step towards achieving my dream of becoming a writer in the real world everybody knows. Well, I don't know if I'll receive a reply or what and I don't wanna think too much about it. I mean, I guess the best thing for me to do is simply to keep on writing. Hmm, I did my part and I guess it's up to God to do the rest. Well, so I guess for now I'm gonna keep on updating my blog book as I am make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Damn, I feel like I'm sounding like a broken record all over again or something. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking since a mobile phone is really pointless in my case aside from taking photos plus videos and listening to music then I'm thinking why won't I just save some dough to invest in a digital camera. Damn it.

Well, so it seems like here I go thinking twice and thrice all over again. I mean, if my memory serves me right I'm supposed to save up some dough to invest in a business or something. Hmm, so I'm gonna go and wait for at least two months for a reply from those I sent an e-mail message to though I'm not keeping my hopes high or something but I'm really praying for the best or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? In all fairness my blog has better statistics than my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Oh, and to think I don't promote my blog and on the other hand gave all my best efforts in promoting my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record”. Hmm, I'm kind of wondering if is it a sign from God or something. Well, I don't really know. Damn, whatever.

Starting Off With My Poems

I went online a few hours ago to update my blog and then I decided to send my poem “A Broken Record” to a local newspaper via e-mail. Well, I guess it's time for me to face my fear of failure or something though I'm still wishing that the local newspaper will decide to publish my poem in the coming Saturdays. By the way, I did some further research about sending a query to literary agents and if I'm not mistaken I read something like a literary agent is somebody a writer hires to represent one's work to publishing companies. Well, I'm just troubled with the term “hire” because if I'm not mistaken it means the writer has to pay the literary agent for one's services whether or not the writer's book gets published or not. Well, I don't really have a single penny in my pocket for me to hire a literary agent so might as well just forget about sending a query to literary agents or something. Hmm, I'm thinking of sending a book proposal to this publishing company that's based in this country where I live in. Well, I don't really know with me. Damn it.

You know what? I'm really thinking of awakening the poet within me if there ever is a poet within me to begin with and start off my career as a writer by sending my poems to a local newspaper. Hmm, I think that will make the whole damn world a better place to live in. LOL. Well, problem is since I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” I have written only two poems so far and those poems are “A Broken Record” and “Shrug It Off” though these “poems” can also be considered as “songs” 'coz the words and melody were hand in hand popping out of my head when those once in a blue moon song writing sessions dropped by or something. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Damn it. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, whatever. LOL.

By the way, I'm still in the middle of reading this book about dreams and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Well, it seems like I'm being such a slow reader these days, huh? LOL. Oh, not to mention that when I went job hunting online a few days ago I bumped into classifieds looking for article writers or something. Well, problem is the office is located in my old city not to mention that I'm not really an article writer. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. You know what? It's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. LOL. Hmm, I don't know when will I send another poem to a local newspaper. Well, I don't even know if I will or I won't. Hmm, I don't really know with me. LOL.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking in the real world everybody knows why won't I establish myself as a poet to begin with and then everything else will follow. Well, I don't really know. By the way, I have reached the quota which is to write 97,500 words of nonsense but it doesn't mean that I'll stop documenting my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between 'coz news is I'm still gonna keep on going. LOL. Hmm, I'm thinking of writing poems in the coming days. Well, that if those once in a blue moon poem writing sessions will drop by or something. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I'm kind of thinking that a few sentences or a paragraph that makes a lot of sense is way much better than a whole page of nonsense. LOL. Hmm, it's just that I feel like sticking to writing a page of nonsense in every blog draft or something. LOL. Well, I guess that's just me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. LOL. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? Hmm, whatever. LOL.

I'm So Stuck In My Own Dreams

I was daydreaming last night as a lullaby to sleep and I was like it seems like my daydreams are gonna remain as daydreams until my time in this world of the living is up. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I'm thinking maybe it's time for me to stop living my dreams or shall I say frustrations even just inside the four walls of my room. I'm thinking it's time for me to try to make my dreams or shall I say frustrations come true in the real world everybody knows. Well, problem is am I ready for whatever that is that comes along with making my dreams or shall I say frustrations come true. Damn, I don't really know. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I don't know with me.

You know what? I think I'm gonna go and wait until December. Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I don't really have that much in mind right now. I mean, I just feel like writing so here I am coming up with another blog draft. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? It's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. I mean, not to mention that I'm such a boring person living such a super boring life. You know what? I'm thinking of touring around the city where I grew up in and document my travels. Well, I know it sounds weird 'coz I'm talking about the city where I grew up in which means I'm already familiar with the place and it's like there's nothing new to discover. Hmm, on second thought touring around the city where I grew up in can wait since I don't have a digital camera to document my travels not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to do so. Hmm, so might as well just stay stuck inside my cave where I peacefully belong for now. LOL. Damn, so it seems like being unemployed has infinite downsides, huh?

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I'm really thinking of sending some of my poems to a local newspaper. I mean, I really sense no harm in it. Hmm, it's just that I'm kind of wondering why is there a part of me telling me that it's not such a good idea. Well, I don't know with me. Damn it. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. You know what? It seems like I'm just repeating the same things over and over again or something. Well, it's just that I really don't have that much in mind right now. By the way, I'll really appreciate it if my readers if I ever do have some will send me a critique when it comes to my writing style. LOL. Hmm, or why won't I just join a writing workshop instead or something.

You know what? I guess the best thing for me to do is just to keep on doing what I'm doing even if I don't know if what I'm doing is going somewhere or what. Damn, I'm sounding like a broken record all over again. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking of starting off a business or something even if I know I'm not a business-minded kind of person. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I guess the best thing for me to do for now is to keep on updating my blog book as I am make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online or something. Damn, I guess that will make the whole damn world a better place to live in. You know what? I have a funny feeling that I really sound like a broken record in this blog draft or something. Well, I guess that's just me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. Damn, I wonder if have I written 97,500 words of nonsense by now. Well, I don't really know. You know what? I really sense no harm in sending a query to literary agents. Damn.

Wondering What to Write Next

Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Hmm, there's really nothing much to talk about. I mean, I just feel like writing so here I am coming up with another blog draft. Damn, I wonder when will I ever get the chance to travel all around the world or something. LOL. Hmm, on second thought traveling all around the world is just a want and it's not really a need so might as well just forget about that want for now. You know what? I guess it's much better for me to stay stuck inside my cave where I peacefully belong. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I think it will be interesting to be a backpacker. Hmm, it's just that for one's safety I don't think it's advisable to travel around as a backpacker all alone. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Damn, it's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Damn it.

Oh, not to mention that there's really nothing much going on in my damn life these days. You know what? I'm thinking of getting into business. Hmm, it's just that I don't know what kind of business am I gonna get myself into. Well, on second thought I have not saved that much in my coin bank for me to start off a business or something. I mean, I really have a funny feeling that I'm unemployable. Oh, not to mention that I wanna be my own boss. Damn, how many times do I have to keep on saying the same damn things over and over again? Hmm, I don't know with me. Damn it. LOL. By the way, my blog book nearly has 97,500 words of nonsense. I mean, if my Math serves me right a few more blog drafts to go and my blog book will finally reach the quota. You know what? I'm thinking not to wait until the mid of December in sending a query to literary agents. I mean, I'm thinking of sending a query to literary agents by the time my blog book reaches the quota of having 97,500 words of nonsense. Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL.

Hmm, I have another option in mind. I mean, I'm thinking of sending some of my poems to a local newspaper or something. Well, I don't really know. Damn, why am I so undecided? Well, I don't know with me. You know what? I'm thinking this isn't the right time for me to send a query to literary agents or to send some of my poems to a local newspaper. Oh, not to mention that I don't even know if there's a right time at all. You know what? I'm thinking maybe what God can only give me is the chance to make-believe that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Well, it's not because God doesn't have what it takes to make me the next bestselling author who wrote the next bestselling book. I mean, I'm thinking it's because God can see the future that's why there are prayers left unanswered. Hmm, maybe God thinks I'm not ready for whatever that is that comes along with being a bestselling author in the real world everybody knows. You know what? I'm thinking why am I always saying “I am make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online.” when I can simply say that “I'm a blogger.”. Well, I don't know with me. Damn it. LOL.

Damn, I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest here the way I know how. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Oh, since I deactivated my social networking account in which I kept on promoting my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” then it seems like it will take ages for my lyric video to achieve another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Hmm, so I guess the best thing for me to do now is to keep on updating my blog as I am make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. I mean, I guess it's my own way of living my life to the fullest or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

Something New to the Table

You know what? I have a funny feeling that my readers if I ever do have some are sick and tired of me babbling nothing but my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between so I'm kind of thinking of offering something new to the table like being a travel blogger possibly since it seems like I'm a home buddy who wants to travel. Damn, it's just that how am I gonna be able to do that not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to do so. Oh, to add to that I also don't have a digital camera in which I can take photos and videos to document my travels or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so I guess for now I'll stay as an amateur writer documenting or shall I say babbling about my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between which is not that bad after all. I mean, if you ask me I really don't have any problem with that. Well, it's just that I don't know with those on the other side of the coin and I'm talking about my readers if I ever do have some. Hmm, what am I saying? Damn it.

Well, on second thought the frustrated writer in me wants my blog to be all words for now which means my blog doesn't have any room for photos and videos from my travels if I ever do get the chance to travel. Hmm, I'm thinking maybe I'll just upload the photos on a photo sharing website and upload the videos on a video sharing website to make the whole damn world a better place to live in. You know what? I'm thinking it's really advisable for an artist to invest in a digital camera. Oh, and it doesn't have to be those expensive not to mention bulky digital cameras. I mean, I'm talking about those affordable and handy digital cameras that anyone can just keep inside one's shoulder bag or something. Well, problem is I still can't afford even the most affordable handy digital cameras out in the market these days. By the way, this 4^th of November 2013 I ended up shedding five coins in my coin bank to have a taste of a Brownie Flavoured Ice Cream coated with Belgian Chocolate and Cashew Nuts. Well, it's not everyday that I can have one anyway so go ahead and judge me. LOL. Damn, I want Chocolate Cake for Christmas. LOL.

You know what? I know I'm not really that good when it comes to researching on search engines but I'm thinking of doing the best I can to search for home-based writing jobs or something. I mean, I'm really a home buddy and I'm thinking it's really best for me to work from home or what. Hmm, or why won't I just go and send some of my poems to a local newspaper? I mean, who knows what if a poem I wrote will make it for publication and then the local newspaper decides to pay me for my contribution or something. Well, I don't really know. Damn, it seems like I'm repeating the same things over and over again. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Oh, maybe I'll go and send a query to literary agents by January of next year. Well, I don't really know. I mean, it seems like my fear of failure is damn resurfacing again.

Hmm, I guess it's much better for me to forget about being a travel blogger for now. Oh, not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to do so. Hmm, I don't even have a digital camera to document my travels to begin with. You know what? I'm still thinking of dropping by a professional photo studio to have a photo of myself by a professional photographer. Hmm, or why won't I just drop the idea not to mention that I also don't have a single penny in my pocket to do so. You know what? Some friends I met way back high school that I added on my social networking account carrying my official pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” still left my friend requests pending. Well, as a Christmas wish I hope these high school friends that I'm talking about will accept my friend requests some time soon. Hmm, or maybe that's why these high school friends that I'm talking about still left my friend requests pending is because they don't wanna be friends with me anymore. Well, I don't really know. Oh, not to mention that I'm not really close to any of them or basically to anyone in this whole wide world to begin with. LOL.

Sweat it Out for My Blog Book

You know what? I'm thinking of dropping my seventy-page book project “Heartbroken Girl” and just focus on keeping my blog book “Mysterious Girl” updated from time to time. I mean, in the process of writing “Heartbroken Girl” I ended up realizing that I'm just repeating the same things in “Mysterious Girl” over and over again not to mention that I'm sick and tired of being such a prisoner of the past sounding like a broken record. Well, on second thought I think I don't have what it takes to work on two projects at the same time. I mean, it's just like being a working student. Well, what I'm trying to say is I can't pursue my studies and be employed as an office staff in a company all at the same time. I mean, it's like working in an office during daytime and going to classes in the early evening or something. Well, in my case I have to choose between the two so it's either I'll drop out of school or I'll resign from my work or something. Damn, what am I saying? Hmm, so it seems like I need to drop “Heartbroken Girl” and focus more in writing my blog book “Mysterious Girl”. I mean, to think of it Halloween break is almost over. Damn it.

I'm writing this blog draft on a Wednesday before Halloween and it seems like I'll be posting my latest batch of blog drafts by Friday or by Saturday or by Sunday. Well, I don't really know. By the way, I'm in the middle of reading this book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Oh, I'm also thinking of dropping by a mall to buy a memory card reader. Oh, not to mention that I'm still thinking twice if I'll send any of my poems to a local newspaper or something. Well, I don't really know with me. Hmm, so it seems like my blog book “Mysterious Girl” is something that I'll get busy with for the rest of my life or shall I say until my time here in this world of the living is up. Damn, I don't really know if the internet is here to stay until the end of time or will it be a thing of the past centuries or millenniums from now. I mean, considering that technology is getting more and more advance by the minute. Oh, not to mention that I'm kind of wondering what if a book in print will be extinct in the coming future due to the rise of e-books. Damn, if you ask me a book in print is one of greatest inventions of all time.

Well, I'd like to think that posting my blog drafts here on my blog won't lessen the chances of my blog book to turn into a published book someday. Oh, not to mention that I'm thinking of limiting myself to writing a blog draft a day in the coming days. By the way, it’s been a while since I made some sketches and it seems like my talent in making sketches is a bit rusty these days or something. Well, I was thinking of buying some pencils, a sketch pad, and some coloring materials. Hmm, it’s just that problem is I don’t have a single penny in my pocket for me to do that. You know what? I’m thinking why won’t I just take photographs instead. I mean, maybe at the back of my head I’m thinking if I make sketches or paintings then obviously I’m no match to God’s work of art and He happens to be the best artist that ever existed so might as well just celebrate God’s masterpieces by taking photographs of it. Hmm, it’s just that I don’t have a digital camera not to mention that I don’t have a single penny in my pocket for me to buy myself one. LOL. Damn, so it seems like being unemployed has infinite downsides, huh? Damn it. LOL.

Hmm, I'm still gonna keep on saving in my coin bank in ten pesos coin denomination. Well, this time around I'm saving for the sake of saving. I mean, for now 'coz if I think it over I don't really need a new gadget. Well, I guess the best thing for me to do is to keep on doing what I'm doing which is pursuing my dream of being a writer someday even if I don't know if what I'm doing is going somewhere or not. Damn, it's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. Hmm, I wonder if my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Well, I don't know.

Something to Get Busy With

Hmm, so I began writing my new project which is my seventy-page book “Heartbroken Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn. Well, I don't really have a plot for the story yet. I mean, I just wrote down whatever that is that popped out of my head. Hmm, so it seems like in the coming days I'll be busy updating my blog “Mysterious Girl” from time to time and writing my new project which is my seventy-page book “Heartbroken Girl” whenever an idea on what to write next pops out of my head or something. Well, if my memory serves me right I read an online article saying that there's really not much dough when it comes to fiction writing 'coz the real dough is in non-fiction writing. Damn, the problem is I'm not an article writer so much more that I'm not an academic writer. You know what? I decided to work on a new book project which is my seventy-page book “Heartbroken Girl” is because I have a funny feeling that posting my blog drafts here on my blog “Mysterious Girl” lessens the chances of my blog book to turn into a published book.

I mean, what if the literary agent who decides to represent my blog book “Mysterious Girl” tells me to delete my blog in order for my blog book to turn into a published book. Well, the problem is I can't do that which means I'm keeping my blog no matter what. Hmm, so that's why I came thinking that the only solution to that problem is to work on a new project which is my seventy-page book “Heartbroken Girl”. Well, I'm just setting the number of pages to seventy these days but I'm thinking after reaching my goal of writing seventy pages then I'm gonna upgrade the number of pages from seventy to one hundred forty. I mean, I need to write 75,000 words to 120,000 words or something and I don't think I'll be able to reach the minimum number of words which is 75,000 if I limit my new book project to seventy pages. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing? Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about?

Hmm, on second thought why won't I send “Mysterious Girl” to literary agents and see what happens. Oh, not to mention that I'm thinking of upgrading the number of words to write from 97,500 to 120,000. Damn, why am I doing the Math all over again? Well, I don't know with me. I mean, I'm just thinking of writing 120,000 words to give my blog book some sort of allowance if ever the unfortunate editor who will be tasked to edit my work of art will end up deleting a lot of unnecessary words or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, I'm also thinking what if the editor will decide to rewrite my every blog post or something so it's like the the way my blog posts are written on the published version of my blog book will be a whole lot different from the way my blog posts are written in my blog but the thought is still the same. Damn, I'm thinking that will be a lot of work on the part of the editor. Oh, not to mention that I don't have single penny in my pocket to pay for the editor's talent fee or something. Hmm, whatever. Damn it.

You know what? I have to say that make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online isn't as easy as one-two-three, mind you. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I'm thinking why won't I be the one who will do the editing or something. I mean, I'm kind of thinking of making “Heartbroken Girl” the edited version of “Mysterious Girl”. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, on second thought I'm thinking of writing “Heartbroken Girl” in a whole new different way. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I don't really have that much in mind right now. Hmm, it's just that I need to conform to the standard requirement of writing a page of nonsense in every blog draft or something. Damn, I really want my blog book to look like a professional looking book. Hmm, it's just that I don't think that's possible these days. You know what? I'm kind of thinking that “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn is pretty damn good and so far is the best of all my literary masterpieces so I'm kind of wondering why am I thinking twice of sending my blog book or shall I say my work of art to literary agents. Oh, not to mention working on a new project which is my seventy-page book “Heartbroken Girl”. Damn it.

Workaholic on Halloween Break

Damn, I'm supposed to be on a Halloween break as I am writing this blog draft. By the way, I decided to change the title of the seventy-page book that I'll be working on from “Imperfect Me” to “Heartbroken Girl”. Well, the problem is I still don't have a plot for the story or something. Damn, I'm not really a creative writer. Hmm, there's really nothing much going on these days and I don't really have that much in mind. I mean, I just feel like writing. You know what? If I can only start earning my own dough by writing then that will surely make the whole damn world a better place to live in and the only way I know how to realize that goal is to write a blog book and send my work of art to literary agents. Damn, is it too much to ask? Well, I don't really know. By the way, I went on reading that book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Oh, not to mention that I need to remind myself that this book that I'm talking about is a work of fiction. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, damn it.

You know what? I have to say that these days my way of living my life to the fullest is by keeping my blog “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn updated from time to time and whenever I let a day pass without writing a blog draft I end up feeling like I wasted the whole damn day or something. I mean, the reason why I thought of writing a blog draft every other day for this latest batch of blog drafts is because early this October I have reached the limit of thirty-five blog posts every month. By the way, I'm still saving in my coin bank in ten pesos coin denomination. Well, since I'm unemployed not to mention unemployable the dough I'm saving in my coin bank came from my parents. Hmm, I was thinking of saving some dough for a gadget but had second thoughts of saving some dough for the sake of saving. Well, now I'm thinking of saving some dough in order for me to have some initial investment for a business or something.

Well, I have a business in mind. It's just that I have to work on the product before anything else. Hmm, I'm thinking my business' product will either be a seventy-page book or a twelve-song-acoustic-record-album. Okay, go ahead and laugh your ass out. I mean, I'm pretty damn serious with this idea I have in mind. Oh, there's nothing to worry 'coz the seventy-page book is definitely not “Behind the Mask” 'coz I'm thinking of working on a new book and I'll also work on a new set of songs for my twelve-song-acoustic-record-album that I'll still name “It's a Mess”. Hmm, actually I was able to finalize a new song for “It's a Mess by Adeline Chrystyn”. Well, some of the lyrics are originally from my song called “Walls” as a working title and I just added a few more verses from my song “Poison” as working title to finalize and complete the new song. Hmm, so it seems like my dream of being a singer songwriter someday still lives on, huh? LOL. By the way, this song that I recently finalized doesn't follow the usual song format. Hmm, actually the song is mainly composed of verses without a chorus which is not that bad after all.

Okay, so I'm gonna write down the lyrics of this song I recently finalized. Hmm, this song is called “Shrug it Off” and the verses go like this “There's too much to say but I don't know where to start. So I keep my mouth shut and wait for you to say something. You say you are fine. Not missing everyone and everything you left behind. And I tried to read between the lines. You're holding something back from me tonight.” and then “I remember those days when you would come home. Tell me stories about your day and then you write a song or a poem. But it seems different now. I feel like you are pushing me away. I know I'm not a part of your new world. But I am sure here to listen.” and then “You say it will poison your head. It will ruin her in your eyes. It will make you think she's a good for nothing witch. And then you will realize that it's just poisoning your head. And the venom slowly creeps in. And you will never look at her the same way again.” and then “She shouldn't waste her words. Play around it too much. Or else she will be taken the wrong way. Try to imagine how that sucks. Learn how to shrug it off when it's not helping at all in making you a better person as well as in saving your soul.” Damn, now I'm thinking twice if I'll push through or not with this business I have in mind. You know what? Why won't I just keep on writing my blog book “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn and then send my work of art to literary agents? Well, I don't really know with me. Damn it. Hmm, whatever.

I'm Not Really a Creative Writer

You know what? I'm thinking of writing a blog draft every other day for this batch of blog drafts. Well, never mind asking why 'coz I'm not saying the answer I have in mind. Hmm, it's just that if I let a day pass without writing I feel like I ended up wasting the whole damn day or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, so I'm thinking of unleashing the creative writer in me if ever there is a creative writer in me to begin with. Well, I'm thinking of writing a seventy-page book that I'll name “Imperfect Me” by Adeline Chrystyn. Hmm, it's just that I don't have a plot for the story yet. Well, if I'm not mistaken it seems like love stories will most likely sell in the market. It's just that problem is I'm not in the right position to write a love story 'coz I never had one. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking it's much better for me to write a seventy-page book about having crushes and stalking my crushes or something not to mention daydreaming happy ending and tragic ending daydreams about my crushes and I. Hmm, what am I saying? Damn it.

Well, I'm just thinking of being a writer here. I mean, I read an online article saying that one becomes a writer when one starts thinking about readers. Damn, it seems like thinking about readers will be quite a challenge on my part. By the way, my laptop's time and date settings are broken as well as my phone's. Oh, not to mention that since we don't have a clock at home and I don't have a wristwatch then I ended up turning my mobile phone into a pocket watch or something. LOL. You know what? I'm not really a creative writer. Hmm, I'm thinking why won't I focus on keeping my blog “Mysterious Girl” updated or something. Well, I don't really know. By the way, it's nearly Halloween. Hmm, nothing much. I just thought of mentioning that one. Damn, there's really nothing much to talk about. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know.

Oh, I just fixed my laptop's time and date settings and I'm kind of wondering if is it gonna be broken all over again or something. Well, I don't really know. You know what? It's nearly Halloween and I'm thinking of watching a movie marathon or something. Hmm, it's just that I'm not really fond of watching Horror movies. Well, I'm thinking why won't I watch a movie marathon of the the movie version of this Fantasy book series I had been busy reading around August to September of this year. Hmm, on second thought since I'm done exploring the world of witches and wizards then I'm thinking of giving the world of vampires and werewolves a chance. Well, I'm not really that interested in reading the book version. I mean, I just feel like watching the movie version or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it.

You know what? I'm thinking why won't I have a Halloween break or something. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, if I'm not mistaken Halloween is exactly a week from now. Well, I'm just thinking of starting my Halloween break tomorrow and I'll resume writing after All Souls' Day and All Saints' Day or something which happens to be the 3^rd of November. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about and it seems like I need to recharge or something so I'll have something to write about in my up coming blog drafts or something. Hmm, if you can catch my drift. Oh, an idea just crossed my mind. I mean, I'm thinking in the coming days or during my Halloween break why won't I focus more in reading that book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to achieve their dream. Hmm, I think that's a good idea. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I'm thinking if my blog book will go through revision by an editor then I have a funny feeling that the unfortunate editor who will be tasked to edit my blog book or shall I say my work of art will end up getting so annoyed reading the same sentences over and over again. Oh, not to mention my disregard from proper grammar plus my terrible subject-verb agreement plus my awful tenses.

Fashion is Simply Not My Element

You know what? When I was younger I wanted to be tall and skinny 'coz I wanted to be a supermodel. Hmm, it's just that my bones stopped growing way back high school if I'm not mistaken and I gained a lot of weight a few months after I turned twenty-two years old if my memory serves me right. Well, I guess I better just be happy with what God gave me though products advertised on television that are promising to increase a person's height and promising to help lose a lot of a person's extra weight tend to lift my hopes high that I can still grow taller and be slimmer or something. Hmm, the problem is I just don't feel like taking the risk not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to buy those products to begin with. Oh, when it comes to my childhood dream of being a supermodel someday I have watched reality shows on modeling and it somehow broaden my mind making me realize that I didn't know what I was wanting to get myself into back then. I mean, it's not that easy to be a model not to mention that I don't have what it takes to be one to begin with. Oh, not to mention my physical features. LOL.

You know what? While growing up I'm not really that fond of clothes. I mean, a shirt and pants will do and I'm good to go. Well, I guess fashion is simply not my element or something. LOL. Hmm, it's just that it seems like the frustrated supermodel in me is resurfacing from time to time these days or something. I mean, at some point there are times when I feel like mixing and matching the clothes I have, take photos of myself wearing those clothes I mixed and matched, and create a “LookBook” online or something. Hmm, I don't know with me. Well, actually that's what I have been trying to do lately. LOL. It's just that it seems like the insecure bitch in me is somewhat resurfacing or something. I mean, I tried to mix and match some of my clothes and when I look at the mirror I think I look okay. It's just that when I look at myself with my laptop's webcam I look short and plump or something and it's somehow making my spirit low or what.

Well, a few minutes before writing this blog draft I decided to wear this dress and take photos of myself wearing this dress with my laptop's webcam. Well, actually those weren't really photos to begin with since my laptop's webcam doesn't have a continuous shot feature or something. Hmm, so what I did is I set my laptop's webcam to video mode and took a video of myself wearing that dress I was wearing a while ago. Well, I did an experiment on different postures until I was satisfied with those postures or something. Hmm, then I played back the video hoping to find a shot of myself that looks pleasant and when I found a shot of myself which I look pleasant I paused the video and did some print screen then I did some paste on the Paint application then cropped the shot of my own figure and then saved it. Hmm, can you picture out what I'm trying to say or is my grammar getting more and more confusing? Well, so I guess that's much it. LOL.

Hmm, I'm thinking of posting that photo of myself wearing that dress on social networking sites. Well, I don't know with me. I mean, not to mention that it's been a while since I posted something on my social networking accounts. I mean, I was thinking of dropping by a professional photo studio to have a photo of myself by a professional photographer as a remembrance of what I look like at this stage of my life. Well, it's just that it seems like I can't do that for now not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to do such so maybe that's why I made the most out of the resources I have which is my laptop's webcam or something. Hmm, let's just say it's the artist wanna-be in me resurfacing all over again and this photo of myself wearing this dress is a way of expressing myself or something. Oh, not to mention that I did some editing on the photo. LOL. Well, if I'll ever post this photo of myself wearing this dress on social networking sites at least I am able to live my dream as a frustrated supermodel even just inside the four walls of my room, right? Oh, not to mention that fashion is also a means of self-expression. Hmm, I think so.