I Need to Sort Out My Priorities

You know what? I'm thinking why won't I just focus more in updating my blog or something. I mean, it seems like there's really nothing for me on social networking sites. Oh, not to mention that it seems like something is wrong when it comes to turning my laptop on these days and I'm kind of worried that what if a day will come when I cannot turn my laptop on anymore which means it's a goodbye to my blogging days. I mean, if you can catch my drift. You know what? If I think it over there's really nothing for me on the world wide web so why am I so hooked into it. Damn. I mean, my blog “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn haven't even survived half a year and here I go having some trouble when it comes to turning my laptop on or something. Damn it. Well, I guess I better prepare myself for whatever that is that may happen or what. You know what? I haven't even started a career in writing in the real world everybody knows and it seems like I'm gonna have to say goodbye to my blogging days one of these days or something. Damn.

You know what? I'm thinking maybe none of my dreams are meant to come true in the real world everybody knows. I mean, I tried and tried but still all my efforts went into waste. Well, it's just that I don't know what those days without blogging is gonna be like or something. Damn it. Hmm, on second thought I'm thinking since my current laptop is slowly depreciating and is nearly fully depreciated I'm thinking why won't I sacrifice dropping by online for now and just save the dough instead for the sake of getting myself a new laptop and not to mention a digital camera plus a camera phone. LOL. Hmm, so it seems like you won't be hearing anything from me for about five years or something if my Math serves me right. LOL. Well, I'm still gonna keep on writing. It's just that I won't be typing my thoughts down anymore and blogging them 'coz it seems like I'm gonna go back to the old school way which is scribbling my thoughts down on a piece of paper which is not that bad after all even if I don't really like my current handwriting.

Damn, saying goodbye to my blogging days feels like one of the hardest goodbyes. LOL. Well, let's put it this way. Hmm, if I can still manage to update my blog from time to time then it means my laptop is still carrying on but if you won't be hearing anything from me anymore for like ages then it only means my laptop finally can't carry on anymore. Well, look at the bright side. I mean, at least I managed writing 97,500 words of nonsense before my laptop will soon say goodbye for good. Well, in all fairness I can say that my blog book “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn is one of the best works of art that I have ever came up with my whole damn life and maybe my journey when it comes to writing this blog book will soon come to an end for now but hopefully will resume in about five years time. LOL. I mean, God has given me three years, nine months, and five days to make my dreams or shall I say frustrations or better yet foolishness come true even just inside the four walls of my room and I guess it's more than enough for me. I guess so.

You know what? I'm thinking why won't I get myself busy by reading the books in my mini-library. I mean, I guess that will make the whole damn world a better place to live in. Oh, not to mention that it seems like I don't really have a future when it comes to being a writer in the real world everybody knows someday so might as well just settle as a reader or something. I mean, for now. LOL. You know what? It seems like the reason why I'm a bit hooked to dropping by online is because it's where I get the chance to live the artistic side of me or something. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Oh, now I came to think what if a break from blogging and reading the books in mini-library for the mean time will make me a better writer in the future or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn it. Well, I don't really know.

Overcome My Fear of Failure

I went surfing online a while ago and I ended up bumping into a list of instructions on how to send a book proposal to a publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. Hmm, so I came up with a book proposal and I'm thinking of sending it by the time I have written 97,500 words of nonsense. I mean, I guess it's time for me to overcome my fear of failure or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I'm thinking I better wait until next year or something. I mean, what if the publishing company will just throw my work of art in the trash or something. Damn, won't that be so heartbreaking? Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Oh, why won't I ask for a sign? I mean, I'm thinking I'll only send a book proposal to this said publishing company by the time my blog book miraculously survives a year. Well, I don't really know. LOL.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. By the way, I also went job hunting online a while ago and researched on how to start a business or something. Oh, not to mention that I also checked out my news feed on a social networking site and stalked my favorite celebrities on a micro-blogging website. You know what? I guess the best thing for me to do for now is to keep on documenting my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between and not think too much about literary agents, publishing companies, and not to mention being the next bestselling author who wrote the next bestselling book. Damn, I'm sounding like a broken record all over again. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

You know what? I'm thinking I'm just pressured to start earning my own dough at this point in my life. Hmm, it's just that it's nothing new that I'm unemployable not to mention that I want to be my own boss. Oh, to add to that it seems like I wasn't really able to develop some interpersonal skills considering that I'm such a loner since time in memorial which means I find it hard to be with people and to adjust to people. I mean, if you can catch my drift. By the way, the Punk Princess' self-titled fifth studio record album is out now if I'm not mistaken. Hmm, it's just that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to grab a copy and that comes with a sad face. LOL. Damn, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL. You know what? I think I'm not meant to be an employee in a company. I'm thinking I'm meant to be a businesswoman. Damn, did I say “businesswoman”? I mean, that sounds like a tough one, huh? LOL. Hmm, problem is I'm not really a business-minded kind of person not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket pocket to start off a business or something. Damn it. LOL.

You know what? I'm thinking of keeping on saving in my coin bank in ten pesos coin denomination for the sake of having a capital to start off a business someday. Hmm, so for the mean time I'm gonna try and figure out a business with a lot of potential that I'm gonna get myself into. You know what? I'm thinking of the basic needs of an individual aside from money 'coz let's face it that each one of us won't be able to have any of our basic needs if our pockets are empty. Damn it. Well, so it's gonna be food, clothing, shelter, and if one is sick then medicines. Oh, not to mention water and electricity. Hmm, I'm thinking appliances, gadgets, cellphone load or internet load and so on and so forth are just secondary needs or something. Well, I don't really feel like getting into food business though it seems like it's the most intelligent choice since people eat everyday 'coz the pessimist in me is telling me that I don't wanna have anything to do with food poisoning. Damn it. Oh, when it comes to shelter I don't have a single penny in my pocket to venture into an apartment business. Hmm, so I'm thinking of getting into a clothing retail store business instead. Well, it's just that people don't buy clothes everyday or something. You know what? I'm really thinking of putting up a secondhand bookshop someday. Damn it.

Not a Bit Sense of Humor in Me

Hmm, so I'm done reading this end-of-the-world inspired book with a twist of humor in it. Well, I'm kind of thinking twice if I'll write a book review or am I just gonna keep my damn mouth shut. LOL. Oh, not to mention that my reading comprehension was so bad while reading the book so it's nothing new that I wasn't able to picture out most of what I read. Okay, so I'm gonna write down what I think of this book that I'm talking about. Well, I don't know with me but the book failed to make me laugh. Hmm, I don't know if it's because my reading comprehension was so bad while reading the book or I just simply don't have a bit of sense of humor in me. By the way, the world did not end in the book's story. Well, the world almost ended in the book's story it's just that someone put a stop to it. You know what? I feel like dropping by a secondhand bookshop and browse for interesting books or something. Well, I'm hoping to find a quirky story 'coz as I have said it seems like I'm a graduate when it comes to reading romance novels. LOL. Whatever.

Oh, I didn't send any of my poems to a local newspaper the last time I dropped by online. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I may not have a bit of sense of humor in me but I'm not really a serious kind of person. LOL. Hmm, I'm thinking this isn't the right time to drop by a secondhand bookshop and browse for books with a quirky story. I mean, as a reader I'm not really a fan of e-books 'coz as a reader I opt for books in print. By the way, I did a research on how to be a published writer the last time I dropped by online. Well, my research led me to almost nowhere. LOL. Hmm, what I'm trying to say is what came out of the search engine's results weren't helping at all. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I'm still far from writing 97,500 words of nonsense which means I still have a long way to go. Damn it. LOL. I mean, if you catch my drift.

Hmm, I wonder if those who print school yearbooks also print in pocket book style. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I really want my blog book to look like a professional looking book. Hmm, is it too much to ask? Well, I don't really know. Oh, didn't I ask for a sign? Hmm, it's just that it seems like my sign isn't coming any time soon or maybe in my whole damn life. On second thought, posting my thoughts on a blog rather than having my thoughts printed on a short bond paper can save the trees not to mention Mother Earth, right? LOL. Hmm, I wonder if my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'm a writer in a sense that I know how to write. It's just that I'm not the kind of writer who can write a page-turner. Oh, so much more that my writing style isn't that spellbinding that readers will keep digging. Hmm, whatever.

You know what? I came to think if I buy a book first-hand in a bookstore it will cost me about hundreds of pesos. If I sell the book to someone who is running a secondhand bookshop I'll most probably be able to sell my first-hand books for thirty-five pesos per book. If I buy a book from a secondhand bookshop it will certainly cost me lesser than buying the book first-hand in a bookstore. Hmm, so I came to think if I do the Math books aren't that good of an investment. Well, that if you do the Math. Hmm, the catch is the knowledge, lessons, and not to mention the entertainment that books gave me are something priceless. I mean, if you can catch my drift. LOL. Damn, why am I doing the Math all over again? It's just that if you ask me I opt to deal with words than deal with numbers. LOL. Hmm, maybe I'm just thinking what if I'll be a published writer someday then miraculously somebody will buy a copy of my book first-hand in a bookstore then one day I'll just spot the same copy of my book in a secondhand bookshop or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, what I'm trying to say is having a copy of my book ending that way is somewhat saying that that somebody who read my book thinks that my book isn't worth keeping which will be an ouch on my part if you ask me. Hmm, damn it. LOL.

Secrets to Success Still Unknown

You know what? I wonder what are the secrets to success. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, my cousin mentioned this book with a theme somehow related to the topic of this blog draft and not to mention that she didn't fail to express how amazed she is that most successful people of all time knew about these secrets. Well, she encouraged me to watch the documentary or film or whatever about this book about the secrets to being successful. Hmm, it's just that I don't have a copy of the documentary or film not to mention that I also didn't bother to research it whenever I drop by online. LOL. Well, when I was a student I did my best in studying my lessons so that I will be able to answer the examinations and then God did the rest. Hmm, I don't really consider myself successful as a student. I mean, not now that I realized that I don't have that much stock knowledge. Damn, if I only knew how to read with comprehension back then. Sigh. Damn it.

Hmm, I don't know if God really gave me the talents I have since time in memorial or am I just able to do what I know how to do due to being such a frustrated artist wanna-be or something. Well, all I know is I learned how to draw since the day I learned how to hold a pencil and I opt to write or type my thoughts down than expressing it verbally. Hmm, I don't know if artists are born or made and I don't know which one am I. Oh, which reminds me of multiple intelligences. I mean, there are a number of multiple intelligences and it's unfortunate that I can't enumerate them all in this blog draft 'coz I have forgotten most if not all of those multiple intelligences and I don't have the book where I read it from right now. Well, what I'm trying to point out is I read in the book that each and every person has all of the multiple intelligences. It's just that there are an average of two or three or more multiple intelligences that are more developed in a person. Okay?

Hey, I'm thinking if a single person can fully develop in one's self all of the multiple intelligences then I think that person can somehow be considered as a Renaissance Man, right? Damn, am I making some sense here or what? LOL. Hmm, I don't know which of my multiple intelligences are more developed. Oh, there's something I'm sure of and it's the reality that I'm not that developed musically. LOL. Well, in a sense that I don't know how to read musical notes plus play and create music or something. Hmm, but in fairness I like listening to music and totally agree with the saying that goes something like “Music Saves Souls”. LOL. Well, it's just that most of the time I like the music better when it's loud with a lot of pleasant screaming. Hmm, something like my favorite American rock band's music or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Or something like the Punk Princess' music or what. Well, something of those kinds. LOL. Damn it.

Well, I did research on what is the secret to writing a bestselling book. It's just that the research led me to nowhere. I mean, I even bumped into an article saying that there's no such thing as a secret to writing a bestselling book and I forgot the supporting details after that. Well, all I know is being an amateur writer online is not as easy as one-two-three, mind you. You know what? I'd really appreciate to receive some critique when it comes to my writing style. I mean, I'm just wondering what if I'm writing in English in a way that it's only me who can understand. LOL. You know what? I guess the best thing for me to do is to keep on writing for now and then when my blog book is ready then I'm gonna send my work of art to literary agents. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Damn, am I making some sense here or what? Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I think I'm gonna go and research about this book about the secrets to success my cousin mentioned to me. Or maybe I'm just gonna go and research about the documentary or film based on this book. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, why won't I go and discover my own secrets to success as I journey towards a career in writing then? LOL. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, as of now the secrets to my success are still unknown if you ask me.

Start Learning Something New

I'm thinking of learning more about “Psychology” more specifically on “Personality” or something. Hmm, I can either research about it online from time to time or drop by a secondhand bookshop and buy a book about “Personality”. Well, I'll think about it. Hmm, I don't know why but I have this funny feeling that I wasn't able to develop my own personality my whole damn life aside from being a loner since time in memorial. Well, I also have this funny feeling that there's a possibility that I have developed some sort of “Personality Disorder” while growing up. Hmm, those are just funny feelings anyway 'coz I'm not an expert to conclude such stuffs about the state of my personality as of the moment. LOL. Well, the main reason while I'm interested in “Psychology” is because I want to understand myself better. I mean, I can understand myself better through writing it's just that I think it's really different when there's the aid of an expert's point of view or something. Hmm, I think I'm gonna start researching on an online encyclopedia.

Well, if my memory serves me right I remember somebody once said that if you are able to understand yourself better then it will be easy for you to understand other people as well. Hmm, I don't know about that. Well, I think I'll focus more in understanding myself better before anything else. I mean, everything starts within me and then the rest will follow, right? Yeah, I thought so. LOL. Oh, I remember this saying that goes something like the way you judge is the way that you are. Well, if you ask me I don't think so. I mean, what if I'm a psychiatrist and I'm already an expert in my field then I judged this patient or something. Well, it doesn't mean that the way I judged this patient is the way that I am just because that's the way I judged this patient, right? I mean, if you can catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing?

Damn, what am I saying? I mean, I'm just trying to give out an opinion here or something and as a reminder I'm not an expert in Psychology. LOL. Oh, I'm not ever going back to school any time soon or maybe in my whole damn life. Hmm, which reminds me of getting into business. LOL. Well, it's just that I came to think self-publishing my own book is somewhat a form of business, right? I mean, instead of selling the typical ones like clothes, shoes, bags, other accessories, or whatever you can think of and not to mention food my product will be my own blog book. It's just that I don't know if self-publishing my own blog book without spending a single centavo is really possible or is it just a myth these days. LOL. Damn, why won't I just write my blog book to begin with and when it's ready I'm gonna send it to literary agents? Well, I don't really know.

Oh, not to mention that I better be ready how to handle rejections. I mean, even the first book of this Fantasy book series I had been reading lately was rejected loads of times before a literary agent accepted the book for representation. Well, to make the long story short the book was published and the whole Fantasy book series became the bestselling book series of all time if I'm not mistaken. Hmm, I read that the query has a lot to do with it. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I read somewhere that one's query better be good so that literary agents will somehow give the book a chance. Well, as of now I think I'm gonna go and keep on documenting my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between. Damn, if I can only start making a living out of writing then that will surely make the whole damn world a better place to live in. Hmm, I'm thinking of reading about a lot of new things then I'll go and blog about what I have read to share what I learned to my readers if I ever do have some. Or maybe it's just the frustrated teacher in me resurfacing all over gain. LOL. It's just that I'm not qualified to be a teacher. Hmm, I just simply don't have the brains and I don't have the heart. Well, I guess that's life and that's an amen.

Time to Simply Shrug it Off

By the way, my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Hmm, I'm still wishing for a thousand views for Christmas though or make it a million. LOL. Oh, when I went online a few hours ago I found out that my lyric video earned two more comments. Hmm, I don't know if I'll start with the fair one or start with the bad one. Well, I better start with the bad one. Hmm, so someone wrote a comment telling me to stop and I'm thinking it means stop in promoting my song on social networking sites. You know what? Being told to stop in promoting my song on social networking sites feels like being told to perish on the face of the Earth. Ouch! It's just that I won't let such comment pull me down and I'll go on promoting my song until my Christmas wish is realized.

Hmm, so let's talk about the fair comment for my lyric video. Well, it was sort of an advice telling me to start with coming up with covers of songs with instruments then upload my song covers on a video sharing website and by the time I have earned some subscribers then that's when I introduce my original songs. Well, that sounds like a good advice. LOL. It's just that number one my laptop's sound recorder is broken and number two my headset with microphone is broken and is most probably in a dump site by now and number three I don't know how to play any musical instruments and number four my webcam is broken and number five I don't have a voice of a diva and number six I don't see the point of taking that advice given to me 'coz number seven I have given up on my dream to be a singer songwriter someday and that's an amen. LOL.

You know what? There are times when I think and feel like it's much better for me to lock myself inside the house. Well, never mind the reason why 'coz I'm not saying the answer I have in mind. Hmm, maybe 'coz I'm a home buddy and all that or something. Oh, not to mention that this kind of head God gave me may be a blessing at times but there are also times when this kind of head God gave me turns into a curse. By the way, on the day of the Punk Princess' birthday I found the time to read everything I wrote so far since I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” and I came to realize that it took months for me to write everything I wrote and it only takes a few hours to read everything. Oh, remember that book about dreams that I was reading a few days ago? Well, I stopped reading it and put it back in the shelf. Hmm, not because I don't wanna read it 'coz I have to say that that book is one of the best ones from the writer or author or novelist or whatever you call it who wrote it. LOL. Well, I put the book about dreams back in the shelf because my sister bought a new set of secondhand books a few days ago. Hmm, I browsed through the set of books and ended up getting interested in reading this said to be funny story.

Actually, I was a bit surprised to spot this book in the new set of secondhand books my sister bought. I mean, if my memory serves me right I have read about this funny book I'm talking about in a student publication a few years ago. Hmm, it's just that I can't recall if it was a student publication of my alma mater or my brother's, who is now in college, current university. Well, this book is end-of-the-world inspired with a twist of humor in it. Hmm, I'm not done reading the book yet so I guess this isn't the time for me to give a book review if I ever do come up with one. LOL. Well, it's the same thing I won't disclose the title of the book and the writers who wrote it. I mean, I guess it's much better for me to keep such information to myself to make the world a better place to live in. LOL. Oh, before I forget. I mean, my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” now has six dislikes on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Hmm, at least it still has one like. LOL. Oh, not to mention that that comment saying “This song hurts both my brain and my soul.” also has six likes so far if I'm not mistaken. Well, I don't really give a damn. I guess it's time for me to shrug all the negativity off. LOL. Hmm, I'm still wishing for a thousand views for Christmas though or make it a million. LOL. I guess it's time to look at the bright side.

I Find it Ideal to Work at Home

Well, since we moved into a new place a few months ago and I'm not that familiar with my new environment then it seems like I find it ideal to work at home instead of being employed in a company somewhere out there. I mean, in this new place I'm sort of isolated from the city where I grew up and it seems like if I land a job in my old city then I'm thinking my salary won't be enough to cover the transportation, lunch, and not to mention my medicines. Well, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, actually I dropped by online a few minutes ago and went researching on how to self-publish a book online without spending a single centavo. Damn, why won't I just write a book to begin with and then send my work of art to literary agents when it's ready? I mean, I don't have superpowers to do everything on my own. Well, if you can catch my drift.

Hmm, then my research led me to a self-publishing company looking for data encoders and I was like somewhat interested to apply or something. It's just that when I read the qualifications that company is looking for I realized that I'm not qualified 'coz I can't type 70 words per minute with 98 percent accuracy not to mention that they opt for somebody who can touch type. Damn it. Hmm, so I researched for data encoding jobs or typing jobs or whatever you call it on a search engine and then I realized that I have a problem when it comes to the difference between typing on a laptop's keyboard and typing on an old-fashioned keyboard. I mean, it seems like my fingers got used to typing on a laptop's keyboard and my fingers usually get lost whenever typing on an old-fashioned keyboard. Hmm, so the problem led me to researching about work at home jobs.

Well, if you ask me I think the idea of being able to work at home and start earning my own dough is brilliant. It's just that I have an issue when it comes to how am I gonna get my pay. I mean, I find it ideal for my pay to simply be deposited in my bank account every pay day or something rather than receiving it through an electronic money transfer whatever thing that I forgot the right term or through cheque. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, it's just that the world is changing each and every second so I guess the best thing for me to do is to adjust to everything which is not to mention something I find quite a challenge. LOL. Well, there are different kinds of work at home jobs. Hmm, I read about those and decided that I opt to be a self-employed blogger. Well, if I'm not mistaken it's like earning while blogging through letting advertisers post advertisements on the extra spaces of my blog or something. Hmm, and if I understand it correctly it's like a pay-per-click whatever thing which means the blogger earns a certain amount for every click the advertisement gets. I mean, if you can catch my drift. LOL.

Hmm, it's just that that style of earning while blogging is not that lucrative most especially when one's blog doesn't have that much traffic. Damn, I think I'm gonna go and research about data entry jobs in companies within walking distance the next time I drop by online. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking of starting my own business instead not to mention that I'm the kind of person who opts to be one's own boss. LOL. It's just that number one I don't have a single penny in my pocket to start a business not to mention that number two even if I do have a capital I don't have any idea what kind of business am I gonna get myself into. Hey, why won't I give answering surveys a try? Well, I don't really know. On second thought it's somehow inconvenient to work online when we don't have a 24/7 internet connection at home. Well, it's okay. I mean, if ever we do have a 24/7 internet connection at home it seems like I'll only end up wasting the hours surfing the internet or something. Well, what I'm saying is there's really nothing much to do online aside from keeping my blog updated from time to time, promoting my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” on social networking sites, watching videos on a video sharing website, and stalking my favorite celebrities online. LOL. Damn, how the hell am I gonna start earning my own dough by blogging? Hmm, I think I'm gonna go and research for online writing jobs or what.

Listening to My Own Songs

I opt to listen to my own songs with a headset. Hmm, I don't know with me. Well, since my headset with microphone got broken and is most probably in a dump site by now I tried to listen to the fine-tuned version of my twelve-song-acapella-record-album “It's a Mess” without a headset but I ended up putting an end to it after a few minutes of listening. Damn, I wonder if my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. You know what? I'm thinking since I'm done exploring the world of witches and wizards through reading this Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately not to mention watching the movie installments of the said Fantasy book series then I'm kind of feeling like giving the world of vampires and werewolves a chance. Well, I don't feel like reading the books. I mean, I just feel like watching the movie version and all that. Hmm, whatever. LOL.

Hmm, so I guess for now my world revolves around listening to music, reading good books, and writing my own blog book. Oh, I'm thinking the world will be a better place to live in if I can add watching movies to the list. LOL. You know what? I feel like it's been a while since I mentioned “It's a Mess” in my previous blog posts. Well, I don't really know. LOL. Hmm, I'm thinking it's fair enough to say that my singing voice somehow got polished through the years of constant singing or shall I say screaming. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking if I'll combine all my literary masterpieces since I had Bipolar Disorder I would have written a book that I can reconsider as publishing worthy by now. It's just that it was a girl with a psychotic mind who wrote those stuffs so I better drop the idea of combining all those literary masterpieces and just work on a new work of art instead. Well, I already am working on it and this new work of art happens to be my blog book “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn. Well, never mind. Damn it.

Oh, if I'm not mistaken one of the interesting blog topic ideas that popped out in my online research is to give a critique on someone or something or whatever. Damn, I'm not really that good when it comes to giving a critique or what. Oh, not to mention that I'm quite somehow allergic to criticisms especially if it's a not-so-constructive criticism delivered in a barbaric way. LOL. Oh, another interesting blog topic idea that popped out in my online research is to write a blog post about my stand on books in print compared to e-books. Hmm, why won't I go and give this topic a try? Well, so here it goes. I mean, as a reader I opt to read books in print 'coz I grew up doing so and I have to say that there's really nothing like flipping the pages or something. LOL. Well, it's just that if I'll ever become a writer then I opt to sell an e-book version of my work of art rather than the printed one. I mean, most people these days are living in the digital age and with the rise of tablets then I'm thinking modern readers opt for e-books or something. LOL.

Well, I'm still dreaming to have a mini-library someday though and I mean a mini-library of books in print. Damn, why is the title of this blog draft “Listening to My Own Songs”? I mean, it's quite funny how I gave this blog draft the said title when here I am ending up talking about books and not songs. LOL. Well, I guess that's just me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. LOL. Hmm, so I guess the best thing for me to do for now is to live my life to the fullest not to mention making the most out of each and every day the way I know how. Damn, what am I gonna do without writing? Hmm, maybe I'll go and listen to “It's a Mess” by the time I'll have a new headset with microphone not to mention that I'll go and read what I have written so far since I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” by December or by the time my blog book survives a year which is still ages from now. I mean, reading my literary masterpieces is somehow like listening to my own songs. I mean, if you can catch my drift. LOL. Damn, why am I writing a lot lately? Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, so the dream still lives on, huh?

It's Not the Time to Take a Break

Hmm, I think I mentioned in my previous posts that I'm thinking of taking a break from writing. Well, maybe I ended up saying such 'coz I was running out of nonsense to talk about and I have a funny feeling that my blog is getting more and more boring by the minute. Oh, not to mention that I'm spending too much dough just to keep my blog updated without earning a single centavo out of it and to make things worse the dough spent came from my parents 'coz I don't have a single penny in my pocket to begin with. You know what? I guess it's much better for me not to feel that bad about spending without earning at this point of my journey to becoming a writer someday. I mean, why won't I just think that being a blogger and keeping my blog updated from time to time is my way of establishing myself as a writer or something? Hmm, don't you think?

Oh, I'm reading another book from my mini-library. Well, at first I was kind of hesitant to read this book or basically read all the books I have that was written by this certain writer or author or novelist or whatever you call it. Hmm, don't bother asking why 'coz I'm not saying the answer I have in mind. LOL. Well, if I'm not mistaken this book I'm currently reading is about dreams and what dreamers end up doing just to reach that dream. Hmm, I think I chose to read this particular book next to the one I previously read from my mini-library is because I'm hoping that the story of this certain book will somehow inspire me in my journey to becoming a writer someday. You know what? It's been years if I'm not mistaken since I last read this book I'm currently reading and it's somehow a good idea to read it again and refresh my mind on what went on the book's story or something. Hmm, I still don't know if I'll write a book review after reading or not. LOL.

You know what? When I browsed through the interesting blog topic ideas that popped out in my online research back then some suggestions were more on writing a blog post about a review on this and a review on that. Well, I attempted to write a book review in one of my previous posts and I don't know if I did pretty well or was my book review a bit terrible or something. LOL. Hmm, at least I was able to step out of my comfort zone and wrote a book review which is a breath of fresh air to my readers if I ever do have some especially when they are sick and tired of me babbling about my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between not to mention talking about my dreams or shall I say frustrations and how I'm living those even just inside the four walls of my room. Well, I guess that's just me and I better just live with it. LOL. You know what? I feel like reading all my books from kindergarten, grade school, high school, college, to graduate school. Hmm, maybe 'coz I feel like my head is empty and it needs to be fed. On second thought not everything in school books is relevant to survive life anyway. Damn it.

I mean, if I'm not mistaken it's impossible for an average student to retain all the lessons discussed back in school. Damn, it seems like I'm feeling like going back to square one or something which is totally pointless. I mean, I'm a college graduate who completed a semester in graduate school but unfortunately dropped out by the middle of graduate school's second semester 'coz my psychotic mind dropped by and ruined everything which somehow unofficially put an end to my student career. Oh, not to mention that pressure also dropped by and wiped me out on the face of the Earth. Damn it. Oh, not to mention that during practice teaching I was required to teach Math which is not my area of expertise to high school students. I mean, I was thinking of teaching in college. Well, it's just that problem is I don't know what subject in college am I gonna teach. I mean, it seems like I'm not going back to school any time soon or maybe in my whole damn life so I obviously won't have the chance to take more graduate school units to qualify me as a college teacher. Hmm, on second thought I'm not really an intelligent person not to mention that I don't have most if not all of the qualities that supposed to be found in a teacher or what.

Path Towards a Career in Writing

Well, I decided to start off my path towards a career in writing by going through a writing workshop on my own. Hmm, so for a start I'm gonna attempt to write a book review and I got the idea of doing such from what popped out of my online research about interesting blog topic ideas back then. Damn, I'm not really a girl of many opinions and I just don't know how am I gonna survive this challenge of writing a book review not to mention that I have a funny feeling that no one out there cares of what I think about basically anything to begin with. Hmm, I'm gonna try to write a book review about this book which happens to be one of the books in my mini-library. I mean, I think I have mentioned in my previous post that I'm reading one of the books in my mini-library that is written in the national language of this country where I live in. Yeah, I thought so.

Hmm, unfortunately I'm not disclosing the title of this book and also the author who wrote it. I mean, I need to keep such information to myself in order to make the world a better place to live in. Well, I think I have mentioned in my previous post that this book is more on the adventures and misadventures of being a student with a twist of humor in it and I have to say that the book was really entertaining. Hmm, the narrator of the book's story was basically having a trip way back memory lane and it dates back to the beginning of his career as a student towards the end of his career as a student towards his short-term career as a teacher. If I'm not mistaken the book was written in such a way to make it's readers laugh. Or maybe the author was simply naturally funny and his sense of humor was effortlessly reflected in the book or something. Hmm, I guess so.

Well, I have to say that I wasn't able to relate to some parts of the book maybe 'coz the author and I were born in different generations. Hmm, actually the real identity of this author that I'm talking about remains a question mark up to this day. I mean, this author was featured on a Sunday evening television magazine program and if my memory serves me right when the author's publisher was interviewed the publisher said that this author that I am talking about would rather keep one's real identity a question mark 'coz the said author wants to live a quiet and peaceful life. Well, those weren't really the exact words but that's how I understand it. Hmm, if my memory serves me right the segment featuring this said author was concluded that this author that I am talking about is a real person and not a fictitious character so so much about the said author. LOL.

You know what? While reading this book that I am talking about I have to say that I somehow miss being a student not to mention that one of the few things that I learned my whole damn life is to go to school and now that my student career is somewhat over I'm here left clueless on what am I gonna do with my damn life in the real world everybody knows. Well, I want to be a writer. It's just that it seems like that dream is an inch away from impossible and only what God can give me is the chance to make-believe that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Hmm, maybe I'm just up until living my dreams or shall I say frustrations even just inside the four walls of my room. Well, I have to say that a part of me is still wishing for a miracle though. Hmm, whatever.

Oh, the book was expressed in slang language so it wasn't that difficult to understand. I mean, I just remembered my copies of two of the novels written by the national hero of this country where I live in. Well, the copy I have is written in the national language of this country where I live in. It's just that it was written in such a formal way that it's sort of a challenge to understand when I tried to read those two novels way back high school. I mean, I really have a problem when it comes to reading books that belong to classics. Well, maybe 'coz I grew up with the modern language or something. You know what? I'm really wondering if am I writing in English in such a way that it's only me who can understand. LOL. Well, if my memory serves me right some people say that it's okay to have many changes in a certain language 'coz it means the said language is evolving which means it's still alive. Hmm, that's how I understand it. LOL. Damn it.

The Journey Came to an End

So I'm one hundred percent done reading this Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately and it was quite a journey. If I'm not mistaken it took me thirty-three days to read the whole Fantasy book series. Hmm, so I guess I can now say that I didn't miss half of my life after all or something. LOL. So I guess that's much it for my reading progress update which is one hundred percent complete as of the moment. You know what? As an advice I think it's much better to properly read a book instead of doing some speed reading 'coz if one speed reads the tendency is one will most likely miss out a lot on the story or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift.

Hmm, so why won't I talk about something else? Well, my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” that I uploaded on a video sharing website's channel carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” achieved three milestones out of the ten milestones that I'm wishing for so far. Well, I'm still wishing for a thousand views for Christmas though or make it a million. LOL. You know what? I have a funny feeling that this blog book of mine is just for personal keeps. Well, what I'm trying to say I don't think it's a good idea to sell my work of art or something. I mean, I'm thinking no one in one's right mind will ever bother to spend some of one's hard earned dough just to read my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between. Yeah, I guess so.

Well, I'm still gonna keep on make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online though. Hmm, I don't know for how long will I survive though I hope it will be until the end of my time here in this world of the living. You know what? I'm thinking of asking for a sign from God. I mean, I think there's nothing wrong with asking for a sign, right? If you ask me it's simply a way of asking for God's guidance or something. Hmm, so here's the sign I'm asking for. I'll go and sell my work of art which is my blog book to the whole damn world only if I'll receive a message from a literary agent saying that my work of art which is my blog book has the potential of making it as a next bestselling book. Yeah, right. It's like in my wildest dreams. LOL. Damn it.

It's just that since I am someone in my mid-twenties who is unemployed not to mention unemployable and it seems like the only things I'm good at are reading and writing then I find it really ideal to start earning my own dough by writing so I'm setting a deadline for that sign I am asking from God and it's gonna be this 15^th of December 2013. I mean, maybe at that time I should have written 97,500 words of nonsense which makes my blog book worthy enough to be submitted to literary agents. Hmm, if the sign won't arrive by the 15^th of December 2013 then I'm gonna go and start submitting my work to literary agents the next day. Hmm, am I making some sense here or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Well, whatever.

You know what? They say what's amazing in being a writer or an author or whatever you call it is when one's body die one still lives on through what one has written. I mean, if you can catch the drift. Well, one of the good things of being a writer is being able to leave something in this world of the living after one's time in this world of the living is up. I guess that's why I'm trying to figure out what is the better way to preserve one's thoughts or something. Is it through posting it on a blog online? Or is it having my thoughts printed on a short bond paper and book bounded? It's just that I came to think what if the internet won't be there 'til the end of time and all my literary masterpieces that I worked hard for will just perish with it. I also came to think what if I'll have it printed on a short bond paper and book bounded and then when I die those I left behind will find it as rubbish and throw my literary masterpieces in the trash and will most probably rot in a dump site. Hmm, am I making some sense here? Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I wonder what it will be like if “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn will really be a published book and it will be kept on re-published and re-published through generations and generations or something. Hmm, sounds like a good idea. LOL. Yeah, right. It's like in my wildest dreams. LOL.

Forward Not Backwards

So I'm done reading one hundred percent of this Fantasy book series I have been busy reading lately. Well, technically I'm only eighty-six percent done in reading 'coz I didn't really read the last fourteen percent properly 'coz I only gave more attention to those parts in the book that I find interesting. Hmm, I have seen the movie anyway and while browsing through the last book I noticed that the book wasn't squeezed in to fit the movie timeline unlike what happened in the previous books. Well, I'm thinking of properly reading the last fourteen percent sometime soon but I don't know when will that be. I mean, I was just so pressured to get to the end or something.

Well, I'm pretty sure you have figured it out by now what Fantasy book series it is that I have been babbling about lately, right? So what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? As I went through browsing the pages of the final book I felt like wanting to go back to square one and read everything properly. It's just that there's also a part of me telling me to go on and just read what I find interesting 'coz I just can't wait to get to the end of the Fantasy book series. Well, it just reminds me of real life and not to mention time. I mean, no one can turn back time and once time is wasted one just can't bring it back. Damn, what am I saying? I mean, it's like if I ever feel like I wasted too much time I can't just ride a time machine and go back to square one or something. Hmm, am I making some sense here? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

I mean, it's like in life 'coz in life we all have to move forward and do as much as we can not to move backwards such as being a prisoner of the past. Hmm, if you can catch my drift. On second thought when it comes to simply doing some sort of speed reading on the last book of this Fantasy book series I have been busy reading lately I remembered that I read in a book about developmental reading that when reading one doesn't necessarily have to read what was written word for word 'coz it is advisable to read for thoughts. Well, my literary masterpieces are an exception, of course. I mean, if you won't read my work word for word then most likely you will end up taking it the wrong way. LOL. Oh, not to mention my disregard for correct grammar. Oh, talk about time. I mean, when I was younger I could not wait to get older and now that I am already in my mid-twenties I wish I made the most of my time when I was younger. Yeah, right.

Okay, so why won't I take it technically? Hmm, what I mean is I'm not yet done reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days 'coz technically I'm still eighty-six percent done reading the Fantasy book series I have been busy reading lately. Well, look at the bright side I still have one book here to get busy reading with which is a good thing. LOL. Hmm, I'm thinking of taking my time reading since I know how the story will end by now anyway so I'm over the excitement and pressure to get to the end of the story not to mention the feeling that I'm running out of time and I need to read the book before I die or else I'll leave an unfinished concern here on Earth which most likely won't make my soul finally rest in peace after I leave this world of the living. LOL. Do you get me or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute?

Hmm, so as a reading progress update I'm still eighty-six percent done reading and I'm on my way to reading the final fourteen percent of the Fantasy book series. Damn, how many times do I have to repeat that? Well, I guess it's okay to just browse through the final book and only read those parts that I find interesting 'coz I have seen the movie anyway and I was able to picture the book out and understand where the story of the book is going. I mean, for me it's nothing like reading a hundred pages in no time without understanding a single thing, right? Well, I thought so. LOL. I mean, it's just different if you ask me. By the way, I have a dandruff problem. Nothing much. Hmm, I guess there's nothing much to talk about so I went mentioning that I have a dandruff problem. You know what? I really don't like watching television anymore. It's just that I'm not the only one living in the house so I just don't have any say if people inside the house want to watch television. As I have said it's much better to go writing or reading a book instead.

All the Nonsense in the World

So I'm done watching one hundred percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Well, I don't know if some people are thinking of making a re-make. It's just that if you ask me I think nothing beats the original version. I mean, if you can catch my drift. I'm like if it wasn't Mr. Jacob who played the title-role in the movie then I think I won't end up being such a fan of the movie at all. Hmm, maybe I'll just go and read the books. LOL. Well, what I am trying to say is the casting crew of the movie did a pretty good job or something. LOL. Oh, not to mention that the one who wrote the book is someone I can consider as a genius as well.

I'm still running eighty-six percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I'm thinking of taking my time reading. I mean, how many times do I have to remind myself that it's supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me? Yeah, I thought so. Well, I asked some friends via mobile on what's the better way to preserve one's thoughts. Is it through posting my thoughts on a blog? Or is it through having my thoughts printed on a short bond paper? It's just that no one from those who I asked replied to my question. Well, it's okay. Hmm, I'm still thinking of turning my blog into a professional looking book though. Hmm, I guess so.

Oh, I'm thinking for now my blog book is only for personal keeps. I mean, if self-publishing is an option then I better drop it considering the fact that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to do so. Oh, not to mention that I don't think someone out there will ever spare some of their hard earned dough to read all the nonsense in the world written by an ignorant girl like me. So the next time I go online I'm gonna research further on how to turn my blog into a professional looking book. I hope a company in this country where I live in is offering such kind of service. Well, the last time I went online I bumped into a website offering services such as turning a blog into a book but such is based in the U.S. and I'm just wondering if will I be the one who will shoulder the shipping aside from the amount they are asking for my blog book itself. I don't really know.

I wish by the time I have written enough blog posts for my blog to be book worthy I'll bump into a company in this country where I live in offering services such as turning a blog into a professional looking book. I just want to document my life from now on or something. I guess there's nothing wrong with that, right? Oh, a few hours before writing this blog draft I just watched the final movie installment of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days and I have to say I'm still not over it. LOL. I mean, some scenes in the movie are still flashing in my head as I am writing this blog draft. It was really one hell of a finale and there's no doubt about that. LOL. I don't know if I'm born in the right generation or not. It's just that it seems like there's really such thing as God's perfect timing. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? LOL.

Well, if I am really meant to be a writer someday then maybe God is working on making that dream of mine come true as of now. Hmm, so for the mean time I think it's much better for me to go on make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer here online. You know what? If my blog “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn will miraculously be able to survive a year then a blog book of all my blog posts from the 15^th of June 2013 to the 15^th of June 2014 will surely be the best birthday gift for my 26^th birthday. LOL. Well, that if a miracle happens and I'll be able to keep on updating my blog for a year. Hmm, it's just that it seems like no one is stupid enough to make that wish of mine come true. LOL. By the way, I also bumped into a website offering services such as turning a blog into a book and not just that 'coz the blogger has the option to sell one's blog book on the website's online bookstore. If I was able to understand it correctly turning my blog into a book and selling it on the website's online bookstore is totally for free which means I don't have to spend a single penny in my pocket at all in order to sort of publish my work online. Hmm, I'll research further about it. I mean, what if I got it all wrong or something. LOL.

It's Not Such a Good Idea

You know what? I really want to turn my blog into a professional looking book by the time I reach my quota of blog posts or by the time my blog survives a year or by the time my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” achieves a thousand views on the video sharing website where I uploaded it or something. It's just that I don't think such is such a good idea not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to make such possible. Do you get me or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? As I've said I want my thoughts preserved. LOL. I mean, there's really nothing like an old-fashioned book or something. If you can catch my drift.

I'm also wondering if earning my own dough while blogging is a good idea or not. Oh, not to mention making a living out of writing. I mean, I don't think someone out there will spare some of one's hard earned dough just to read my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between. Well, not unless it's a Psychology student who is looking for a guinea pig for one's case study or thesis about Personality Disorders. LOL. I'm just kidding not to mention that the idea of being a guinea pig is quite annoying. I mean, who wants to be a guinea pig anyway? LOL. Well, one of the reasons that's holding me back from studying Psychology in a formal school is because I don't wanna go through coming up with a case study or a thesis 'coz I'm just not good at it. LOL.

Hmm, I think I made up my mind. I'm gonna drop the idea of turning my blog into a professional looking book for now though my own blog book will be my ideal birthday gift for next year. LOL. By the way, good news is it seems like I'll be able to watch really soon the final twenty-five percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Yehey. So what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Hmm, I'm still wondering what is a better way of preserving my thoughts though. I mean, is it through posting it here on my blog? Or is it having my thoughts printed on a short bond paper? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

Well, still no one has left a comment here on my blog but someone did shared some of my blog posts on a social networking site and I'd rather not share who that someone is 'coz it's top secret. Actually, it came quite as a surprise. I mean, I never thought that someone will share some of my blog posts on a social networking site back then or something. Well, if I'm not mistaken she shared my blog posts “It Doesn't Make Any Sense at All”, “I Forgot What I Wrote Yesterday”, “The Dream Lives On”, and “End of the Story”. Hmm, I don't know why that someone chose to share those blog posts and I didn't bother to ask that someone why. Well, I don't know with me.

Hey, I'm thinking what if it's a sign from God. I'm thinking what if it's God's way of telling me that my thoughts don't make any sense at all and it's much better for me to forget about blogging and it's stupid of me to let my dream to be a writer someday live on and that's the end of the story. Ouch! Well, it's just that I have a strong feeling that it's not what God is trying to tell me. LOL. I feel like the right path for me is really to pursue my dream to be a writer someday. I mean, if I was meant to be a regular employee I should have landed a good-paying job right after college graduation, right? It's just that up until now that I'm already in my mid-twenties I'm still unemployed not to mention unemployable. Well, I guess the right path just dawned on me, huh? I mean, it's my dream to be a writer since I was eight and here I am doing my baby steps just to get there. Well, not to mention that I need to remind myself that there's no such thing as an overnight success. Okay, so I'm gonna go and write a book then send it to literary agents as a first step to achieving my dream to be a writer someday. Well, I don't know where this path that I'm choosing will go. Hmm, I don't even know if this is the right path or what. Well, it's only God who knows. By the way, I'm running eighty-six percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I guess the best thing for me to do is to take my time reading. Hmm, I guess so. LOL.

Being Such a Slow Reader

As a reading progress update I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. You know what? It seems like I'm being such a slow reader lately. Hmm, I don't know with me. Well, I'm reading it a chapter at a time. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I said something like I don't wanna pressure my brain or something. Hmm, if you can catch my drift. Oh, not to mention that I need to often remind myself that reading this Fantasy book series is supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me, right? I thought so.

By the way, I just finished watching again seventy-five percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm busy reading these days. You know what? It's quite fascinating to watch the movie version and see each main character growing up. Oh, not to mention the actors and actresses who played those main characters. At the same time it's kind of weird 'coz if I'm not mistaken I'm just about a year older than the actor who played the title-role. I'm like I was able to witness those main characters and those who played those main characters in the movie growing up when I myself can't imagine myself growing up when if I think it over we are almost of the same age. Do you get me or am I writing in a manner that it's only me who can understand? LOL.

Oh, speaking of the actor who played the title-role in the movie version of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I mean, it's quite obvious that he's pretty damn good looking or shall I say he's pretty damn attractive. Well, I have to admit that way back high school I had a mild crush on him. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I have mentioned that way back high school the only guy I was severely infatuated with was the lead vocal of my favorite American rock band so I just had a mild crush on the actor who played the title-role in the movie version of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Damn, why am I talking about crushes all over again? LOL.

Hmm, I'm wondering what codename are we gonna call him. Well, why won't we call him by his second given name which is “Jacob” according to the online encyclopedia I'm fond of browsing through lately. So when I was in high school and as I watched the movie version I found Mr. Jacob as a “little boy” and maybe that's why I only had a mild crush on him 'coz when I was in high school I found myself as not a “little girl” anymore but not yet a woman. LOL. Oh, talk about one of my favorite songs from the Princess of Pop. It's just that the “little boy” grew up and turned into a “man”. Well, a very attractive one, that is. Hmm, problem is I'm not a “woman”. LOL. Well, what I'm trying to say is I'm seeing Mr. Jacob in a whole new different light these days and I think I have a mild infatuation for him by now. Well, it's like saying I fancy him. LOL.

By the way, when it comes to my crushes I'm only up to the feeling of infatuation. I never loved any one of my crushes. It's either a mild crush, a typical crush, a severe crush, a mild infatuation, a typical infatuation, or a severe infatuation. Nothing much. I just feel like stressing that one out. LOL. Well, I guess it's much better for the whole damn world to just leave me and my daydreams about Mr. Jacob and I to myself, right? I mean, it won't hurt him a bit anyway as long as he doesn't have the slightest clue on what's going on in my daydreams 'coz if he ever finds out then for sure he's gonna go and vomit. LOL. So I'm hoping that I'll be able to watch again the remaining twenty-five percent of the movie installments in the coming days. As for reading the book I'm thinking of taking my time. I mean, who cares if I'm being such a slow reader these days? Oh, as an update on watching the movie version it seems like it will take some time before I'll be able to watch again the remaining twenty-five percent of the movie installments. Well, never mind the details. I guess it's much better for me to get busy with reading the books for now.

Taken the Wrong Way

I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading this Fantasy book series these days and I have to say I have been a bit of a slow reader lately. Well, not that it matters. I mean, what's the point of being able to read a hundred pages in no time without understanding a single thing, right? Yeah, I thought so. LOL. Hmm, in fairness the Fantasy book series I'm reading these days is getting more and more interesting. Well, no wonder it's the bestselling book series of all time. You know what? I wonder what it will be like to be a half-witch and half-vampire. Hmm, and I meant the sophisticated way 'coz I don't want people running by the mere sight of me 'coz I look like a monster or people accusing me that I do dark magic mainly upon how I look. Damn it.

Hmm, so why is the title of this blog draft “Taken the Wrong Way”? Well, it's because I feel like I am being taken the wrong way by other people all over again or shall I say I feel like I am being misinterpreted by other people all over again which is not a good feeling at all. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, why won't we talk about something else? I mean, as long as I do understand myself then I am good to go, right? So the heck with other people. I guess it's much better for me not to worry too much most especially about stuffs that shouldn't be worried about.

You know what? As I go on reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days I feel like a student who needs to complete and pass a year level just to level up to the next upper year level as I read one book to the next. Do you get me or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Oh, not to mention that I just can't wait to get to the end of the story or shall I say be one hundred percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. By the way, I can't help wonder if I'll take that comment for the lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” that I uploaded on my video sharing website's channel carrying my official pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” in a good way or in a bad way. Oh, not to mention that the said comment earned three likes so far. If you forgot the comment says “This song hurts both my brain and my soul.”. Hmm, I'm thinking the one who left that comment and the one who disliked my lyric video is one and the same person. Well, maybe I'll just take it in a neutral way or something.

Damn, as I am writing this blog draft I wonder if my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. You know what? I have a funny feeling my blog is really getting more and more boring by the minute. Hey, on second thought being a witch or a vampire or half of each is quite scary so it seems like I'd rather choose to be a normal human being. LOL. I mean, it's the same thing with magic. I think magic is a scary stuff to deal with so I don't wanna have anything to do with it. Hey, I think I have said something like this before. Hmm, it seems like I'm sounding like a broken record, huh? Damn it.

Oh, a few months ago I was able to read a book that falls under the Chick Lit genre. Hmm, I borrowed it from my sister. Well, the book in fairness is quite entertaining not to mention that the book also has a movie version. Hmm, if I'm not mistaken I have seen the movie version during my late college years. Well, nothing much. It just crossed my mind and I felt like sharing that one. Hmm, I think I'm not really that into Chick Lit. Oh, when I dropped by a website for books and readers I was able to read a short description about books that fall under the Mystery genre and I found out that I took the said genre the wrong way. Oh, talk about taking things the wrong way. LOL. So by now I'm only interested in reading novels that fall under Psychology. But before anything else I have a Fantasy book series here that I need to get done reading. I mean, I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading which means I still have a long way to go. LOL.