It's a Social Networking Overdose

You know what? I wish I was mature enough when I began joining social networking sites. Hmm, I'm thinking maybe I wouldn't have ended up creating an account and then deleting it after a few days, weeks, months, or years. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I wouldn't have ended up annoying my batch mates 'coz they keep on receiving friend requests from me or something. Damn, why did my network provider ever decided to make their customers access this said social networking site for free as a holiday gift? I mean, it seems like I'm having a social networking overdose or something. LOL. Well, I have deactivated my other and not to mention unofficial accounts on the said social networking site but last night I decided to keep one unofficial account existing. Oh, this account that I'm talking about is carrying one of my old pen names. Well, I currently don't have friends that I know in person in this said other account. I mean, I just added complete strangers randomly in this account or something as a numbers game. Hmm, it's just that it's different in my official account in this said social networking site 'coz I decided to only add those that I'm interested to be updated with what's going on in their lives at present. Hmm, damn.

By they way, I decided to delete some of my status updates on this said social networking site last night. I mean, I felt like those photos I uploaded shouldn't be there or something. You know what? I'm really trying my damn best to be mature in this official account on a social networking site and I think I'm doing pretty well so far. Well, I think so. Hmm, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. You know what? It's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. Damn it. By the way, if I think it over I don't really get anything from social networking sites aside from unleashing the gossip girl in me and freedom of expression. Oh, not to mention that I feel like there's really nothing for me on the world wide web so why do I keep on dropping by that artificial world. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, damn it.

You know what? I did my part and I guess it's up to those who left my friend requests on a social networking site pending to accept my friend request or not. I mean, I'm thinking maybe those people don't wanna be friends with me anymore even on a social networking site or something. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to anyone. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I came to think that a few weeks from now the network provider's holiday gift will come to an end and I'm thinking it's much better for me to stop myself from being too hooked to this said social networking site 'coz I'll surely miss surfing this site at any time of the day when the promo is over. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, why won't I focus on updating my blog instead?

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. LOL. By the way, I'm not yet done reading this book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Oh, not to mention that I haven't changed my profile picture on social networking sites since I joined those social networking sites. Well, let's put it this way. I mean, if it's an awarding ceremony then the best picture goes to my current profile picture. LOL. Oh, and it seems like I can't find a photo of me that's worth to replace my current profile picture with. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing or am I writing in English in a way that it's only me who can understand all over again? Damn it. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here.

So Now It Seems Like I'm Bleeding

I was so bored with life so I decided to drop by Animé's profile on a social networking site. Well, it seems like he's happily not to mention madly in love with his girlfriend these days. I mean, at this point his friend and he were even talking about Animé having a baby with his girlfriend or something. Hmm, as I've said it seems like Animé and his girlfriend have been together for quite a long time now and it seems like the only thing that's lacking in their relationship at this point is a wedding and of course a baby comes after that. LOL. By the way, I also dropped by Where's-Your-Teacher?'s profile on a social networking and a picture of him carrying his son on a park greeted me with a big hello. LOL. Well, nothing much. I mean, I guess it's just that fanatic in me resurfacing all over again or something. Oh, I won't dare to add them on my official account on a social networking site. LOL. I mean, I think that's somewhat going too far or something. Damn it.

Oh, not to mention that I also dropped by Sam Keanu Neuryc's profile on a social networking site. Hmm, he wrote something in his mother tongue on his timeline a few months ago and thank goodness for the translation that I was able to somehow figure out what it means. Well, if I was able to catch the drift of what he wrote the right way it seems like he was hurting when he wrote whatever that is he wrote or something. Hmm, it's just that I don't know if he's still hurting up until now or what. You know what? I really want to know Sam Keanu Neuryc's offical social networking accounts 'coz obviously those accounts in which I had the chance to talk to him were unofficial ones. Well, if I remember it right Sam Keanu Neuryc sent me a link via e-mail message a few months ago. Hmm, I'm kind of hesitant to open that link or something. I mean, what if that link contains a virus or something. I mean, I can't risk it 'coz I really can't afford to buy myself a new laptop these days. Damn, why am I talking about my crushes all over again? Well, I don't know with me. LOL. Well, I guess I'm just bored with life all over again or something. Damn it.

By the way, I'm thinking of doing the Math all over again. Hmm, I now have thirty friends on my official account on a social networking site. Well, I decided to sort them out so I added three friends as family, eight friends as close friends, two friends as interesting friends, and seventeen friends as acquaintances. Well, most of them were my former classmates with two relatives and one schoolmate. Damn, why am I doing the Math all over again? Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, I'm not really that close to those friends I added as close friends. I mean, I just thought of stressing out that one. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I'm not really that close to anyone.

Oh, it's been a long while since Sam Keanu Neuryc posted something on his account in which I got the chance to talk to him which makes me think that maybe he has abandoned that account or something. Damn, it seems like the harmless stalker in me won't have any scoop from Sam Keanu Neuryc or something. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, I went browsing through photo albums on a social networking and liked those photos that I find interesting. Well, I don't know with me. LOL. I mean, I guess I'm just so damn bored with life or something. Hmm, on second thought I like browsing through photos. I mean, I guess it's just the frustrated photographer in me resurfacing all over again or something. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I don't know with me. Damn it. Hmm, I guess that's just me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. Oh, not to mention that I better try my best to hold back the harmless stalker in me. I mean, it seems like my crushes are happy with their lives now with someone special which leaves me bleeding 'coz unfortunately that special someone isn't me and never will be. Sigh. LOL.

It's A Polite Way of Rejection

I went online yesterday to update my blog and then I dropped by my e-mail address to check out my inbox. Well, news is I was able to receive a reply from that publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. Hmm, the message says that they were able to receive my book proposal and they are asking me to give them about one or two months to go through my book proposal not to mention that they didn't fail to stress out that they are screening book proposals these days for books to be published on 2015. Well, if I think it over since it's nearly the end of 2013 so I'm thinking it's just reasonable that this said publishing company is screening books to be published on 2015 or something. Hmm, it's just that I don't know why but there's a part of me telling me that maybe it's their polite way of rejecting my book proposal. I mean, it's like 2015 is still ages away or something and maybe psychologically speaking this said publishing company thinks that maybe I'm a bit too impatient to wait that long to get my book published or something so there's a possibility that I'll send a book proposal to other publishing companies or literary agents whom I think can publish my book sooner or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift.

By the way, I decided to add more people on a social networking site. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, I'm thinking of doing the Math all over but I guess it's much better for me to just forget about that stuff. LOL. Oh, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to anyone. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I have a funny feeling that no one I know in person wants to talk to me so why won't I go back talking to complete strangers instead. LOL. Hmm, I'll think about it. You know what? I'm thinking of only adding those people that I know in person on a social networking site. Hmm, it's just that if I think it over it seems like most people on a social networking don't really know in person everyone that they added on their account or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? You know what? I'm thinking of browsing through the friend suggestions, check out the profile of those that I find interesting, and send those people friend requests. I mean, I think there's nothing wrong with that or something. Well, I don't really know with me. LOL. Hmm, I'll think about it. LOL.

Hmm, I was thinking of writing a blog draft every other day. Well, it's just that it seems not possible these days. I mean, I'm thinking why won't I just limit myself to writing a blog draft a day or something to make the whole damn world a better place to live in. Hmm, I don't really know with me. Oh, not to mention that the local newspaper to whom I sent a poem to via e-mail didn't reply to my message. Well, I'm thinking maybe my poem isn't good enough or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I don't really find anything wrong with adding more people on a social networking site. I mean, that's why it's called a “social networking site”, right? Well, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? LOL.

Well, I listed forty-nine people more that I'm thinking of sending friend requests to on a social networking site. Hmm, I came up with that list when I browsed through my yearbooks sometime ago. Well, I have to stress out again and again that these people and I aren't really close. I mean, I just find them interesting that's why I'm thinking of sending them friend requests. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. You know what? I wonder what it will be like if I was mature enough when I began joining social networking sites. Well, maybe I wouldn't have ended up creating an account and deleting it after a while. Damn, I guess that's life. LOL. Sigh.

Hold Back the Gossip Girl in Me

I browsed through my grade school and high school yearbooks then made a list of those that I'm thinking of sending friend requests to on a social networking site. Hmm, it's just that I'm thinking it's not a good idea to send more friend requests to people on a social networking site for now. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I'm thinking of sending a message to those who left my friend requests pending telling them that my account carrying the name “Adeline Chrystyn” is the official one or something hoping for them to accept my friend requests 'coz I really want to be updated with what's going on in their lives these days. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, it seems like I can't hold back the gossip girl in me or something. LOL. Well, actually I initially listed down only fifteen people to whom I will send a friend request to on a social networking site. Hmm, that includes two cousins then two friends I met way back grade school then eight friends I met way back high school then three friends I met way back college. Well, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to any one of them. Hmm, I guess I just want to have a glimpse and be updated with what's going on in their lives these days or something. Well, I want to add my sister too. Hmm, it's just that I know she'll never accept any friend request coming from me so I decided to just drop the idea. LOL. Well, we see each other everyday anyway. LOL.

Hmm, so it seems like I just wasted my time browsing through my yearbooks and listing down to whom I'm thinking of sending friend requests to. Well, maybe in the coming days I'm gonna go and add them or maybe I won't. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I'm just thinking what if they don't wanna be friends with me anymore even on a social networking site. Well, how will I find out if I won't send a friend request, right? I mean, it's like waiting for somebody to talk to you again when that said somebody is also waiting for you to start a conversation. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, I wonder what happened to the poem and book proposal I sent via e-mail or something. Well, I guess it's much better for me not to think too much about it. I mean, it's only stressing me out or something. You know what? It's really sad that I won't be able to keep on promoting my lyric video for “A Broken Record” on a social networking site 'coz I deactivated that account in which I kept on promoting it. I mean, it only means I won't be able to make my Christmas wish come true or something. Well, I guess that's life and I better live with it. Damn it.

You know what? I'm still starting off a career as a writer these days but why is it that I feel like I'm in this journey my whole damn life. Well, maybe because this dream started when I was eight and I have been trying to write a book since then. Damn, I don't really know where this path I'm choosing is going. Oh, not to mention that it's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. Well, as they say that there's no such thing as an overnight success. I mean, if I'm climbing a mountain then it seems like I'm still at the bottom of it. I mean, it's like I haven't even started climbing yet. Damn, how can I say that when I have been trying to write a book since I was eight? Well, I don't really know with me. Damn, forget about it. Sigh.

Well, maybe I'm talking about being a writer in the real world. I mean, I'm still living my dream of being a writer even just inside the four walls of my room. Well, I sent a poem and a book proposal which seems like a step towards making it in the real world or something. Hmm, it's just that it seems like my poem and book proposal don't stand a chance in making it in the publishing industry. I mean, who the hell will put one's confidence on an amateur and take the risk? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I feel like I made a fool out of myself for sending that poem and that book proposal. Well, it's a step towards making my dreams come true so I just thought of giving it a shot. Oh, not to mention that this is just the starting point. I mean, I'm thinking there will be more making-a-fool-out-of-myself feelings in the days to come. Well, I guess this is part of my dream and it seems like the best thing for me to do is just to live with it making it an amen.

Too Many Ideas Play in My Head

You know what? It seems like I'm over-thinking too much lately. I mean, a lot of ideas are popping out of my head and I keep on thinking about these ideas over and over again. Well, it's like I end up being stuck in these ideas playing in my head or something and it seems like I have to do something to get over it or what. Oh, you wanna know what are these ideas that I'm talking about? Well, it's more like thoughts actually. Hmm, I'm still thinking of what happened to the e-mail messages I sent to the local newspaper and publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. I mean, I have a funny feeling that I sent those e-mail messages in such a wrong timing and never mind asking why 'coz I don't wanna go into the details. Oh, not to mention that I just can't get over the thought of having a book yard sale someday. Well, it seems like the book yard sale is still ages from now so why am I thinking too much about it. Damn it. By the way, I'm also thinking of sending more friend requests on a social networking site. I don't know with me.

Hmm, it's just that I'm thinking twice of doing such and I'm talking about sending more friend requests on a social networking site. I mean, if my statistics serves me right I sent friend requests to thirteen people and thankfully nine of those were accepted while four are still pending. Well, I accepted three friend requests that I received on the said social networking site and in all fairness I am being followed by twelve people. Damn, why am I doing the Math all over again? Well, it's just that I'm thinking that's why I wanna send more friend requests on a social networking site is because I wanna have a glimpse of what's going on in the lives of more of my batch-mates these days. Oh, problem is there's a part of me that's somewhat holding me back from sending those friend requests. I mean, I'm thinking what if most if not all of my batch-mates don't wanna be friends with me anymore even on social networking sites. Well, how will I find out if I won't send a friend request, right? I think I'm gonna go and think over it or something. Hmm, I don't know.

Well, if my statistics serves me right I have a dozen friends on a social networking site so far and a dozen followers as well. Oh, and for the record I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” on social networking sites since the 14^th of June 2013. LOL. Hmm, maybe I'll go and send more friend requests or maybe I won't. Well, I don't really know. I mean, I'm thinking it's the gossip girl in me resurfacing all over again wanting to have a glimpse of other people's lives. Oh, or let's just say it's the fan in me resurfacing all over again wanting to know the latest updates from her favorite celebrities. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, last night I made a short list of those that I'm thinking of sending friend requests to. Hmm, it's just that I ended up deleting the list the following morning. Well, I don't know with me. Oh, or better yet why won't I just forget about sending more friend requests on a social networking site. Hmm, I don't really know. Sigh.

By the way, it seems like I can't wait for every coming Sunday to update my blog or something. I mean, I'm thinking I'm gonna update my blog as soon as I am able to come up with a latest batch of blog drafts to update it with. Well, it's just that I came to think that I only live once so I better make the most out of each and every single day or something. By the way, I'm writing this blog draft on a Wednesday. Hmm, nothing much. I mean, I just feel like mentioning that one. LOL. You know what? I guess it's much better for me not to think too much of the poem and the book proposal I sent via e-mail. Well, I'm thinking the best thing for me to do for now is to keep on blogging. Hmm, I guess that will make the world a better place to live in or something. LOL. Oh, not to mention that the book yard sale is still ages from now so I guess it's much better for me not to think too much about it. Hmm, I'm still gonna keep on saving in five pesos coin denomination to buy interesting books and keep on saving in ten pesos coin denomination for the sake of saving. You know what? I mean, it seems like doing the Math is somehow stressing me out. LOL.

Please Mind Your Own Beeswax

You know what? I'm still not over the mind reading without a gadget issue. I don't know with me. Oh, not to mention that the thought of being a guinea pig is really super annoying. You know what? It makes me want to learn that kind of magic that can block other creatures from getting inside my head. Oh, I read or knew or whatever about that kind of magic in the Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately. You know what? There really is nothing so special in me so why can't other creatures just mind their own beeswax and leave me alone. I mean, I'm not doing anything to them anyway. Damn it. I'm just simply trying to live my life to the fullest the way I know how and that's pretty much it. I mean, I just want to be left alone to do my own thing. Damn, I can't help wonder why is it so damn hard for other creatures to understand that. Damn it.

Oh, when it comes to my readers if I ever do have some I guess it's much better for them not to take my literary masterpieces too seriously. LOL. I mean, I think taking all the nonsense I have written so far seriously is not an intelligent thing to do. LOL. Well, I simply just want to express myself the way I know how and I think it doesn't take for one to be a genius to understand that. LOL. Hmm, my readers if I ever do have some can keep on reading my blog if they ever feel like doing so. Well, a reminder to them whoever they are is I'm trying my damn best to write a blog for light reading and not a blog with a heavy atmosphere. Hmm, I'm not psychotic anymore or shall I say I'm not going through some mental and emotional torture anymore so the thought that my readers if I ever do have some found my blog entertaining doesn't piss me off anymore. LOL.

Hmm, I'm not really an entertainer. LOL. Well, let's just say I'm just doing my work here as an amateur writer online and there's really nothing personal 'coz it's all part of my work. LOL. I mean, it's really stupid for other creatures to take my literary masterpieces personally 'coz I'm not really writing for anyone in particular. LOL. I'm basically just writing to express myself and that's pretty much it and it's not my problem why other creatures out there are so assuming. LOL. Oh, not to mention that it's none of my concern why other creatures think the way they do. Well, I think I have said something like writing is a need and a want for me. Writing is like a therapy. Writing is what keeps me sane when I'm an inch away from insanity. I mean, writing makes me feel a whole lot better when stuffs don't seem to feel right not to mention that writing also makes me understand myself a whole lot better when I'm confused or something. That's pretty much it.

Hmm, I think there's nothing wrong with being a sort of entertainer by being a blogger here online. It's just that I don't wanna be a celebrity. LOL. I mean, I just wanna live a quiet and peaceful life. LOL. Well, that's why I'm carrying a pen name, right? LOL. Oh, now I remember how I am being entertained whenever I stalk my crushes. It's like my crushes are celebrities and I'm their number one fan. LOL. Well, the thing is I guess it's time for me to put an end to my stalking career. LOL. Hmm, most of my crushes are really celebrities. It's just that there are a few of them who are ordinary people. LOL. Damn, it's funny to realize that here I am whining about other creatures who can't mind their own beeswax when I myself can't mind my own beeswax by stalking my crushes. LOL. Well, on second thought most of my crushes are celebrities so it's nothing new to them to have stalkers and on the other hand I'm just an ordinary person so the thought of being tailed around all over the place is quite annoying. Hey, since I'm just an ordinary person then who would tail after me anyway? Damn, what the heck am I thinking? LOL. Hmm, as I've said it's time for me to put an end to my stalking career. LOL. Well, I'm still gonna keep on promoting my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” on social networking sites though. I mean, I'm still wishing for a thousand views on the video sharing website where I uploaded it by Christmas. Or make it a million. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Damn it. LOL.

All the Nonsense in the World

So I'm done watching one hundred percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Well, I don't know if some people are thinking of making a re-make. It's just that if you ask me I think nothing beats the original version. I mean, if you can catch my drift. I'm like if it wasn't Mr. Jacob who played the title-role in the movie then I think I won't end up being such a fan of the movie at all. Hmm, maybe I'll just go and read the books. LOL. Well, what I am trying to say is the casting crew of the movie did a pretty good job or something. LOL. Oh, not to mention that the one who wrote the book is someone I can consider as a genius as well.

I'm still running eighty-six percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I'm thinking of taking my time reading. I mean, how many times do I have to remind myself that it's supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me? Yeah, I thought so. Well, I asked some friends via mobile on what's the better way to preserve one's thoughts. Is it through posting my thoughts on a blog? Or is it through having my thoughts printed on a short bond paper? It's just that no one from those who I asked replied to my question. Well, it's okay. Hmm, I'm still thinking of turning my blog into a professional looking book though. Hmm, I guess so.

Oh, I'm thinking for now my blog book is only for personal keeps. I mean, if self-publishing is an option then I better drop it considering the fact that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to do so. Oh, not to mention that I don't think someone out there will ever spare some of their hard earned dough to read all the nonsense in the world written by an ignorant girl like me. So the next time I go online I'm gonna research further on how to turn my blog into a professional looking book. I hope a company in this country where I live in is offering such kind of service. Well, the last time I went online I bumped into a website offering services such as turning a blog into a book but such is based in the U.S. and I'm just wondering if will I be the one who will shoulder the shipping aside from the amount they are asking for my blog book itself. I don't really know.

I wish by the time I have written enough blog posts for my blog to be book worthy I'll bump into a company in this country where I live in offering services such as turning a blog into a professional looking book. I just want to document my life from now on or something. I guess there's nothing wrong with that, right? Oh, a few hours before writing this blog draft I just watched the final movie installment of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days and I have to say I'm still not over it. LOL. I mean, some scenes in the movie are still flashing in my head as I am writing this blog draft. It was really one hell of a finale and there's no doubt about that. LOL. I don't know if I'm born in the right generation or not. It's just that it seems like there's really such thing as God's perfect timing. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? LOL.

Well, if I am really meant to be a writer someday then maybe God is working on making that dream of mine come true as of now. Hmm, so for the mean time I think it's much better for me to go on make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer here online. You know what? If my blog “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn will miraculously be able to survive a year then a blog book of all my blog posts from the 15^th of June 2013 to the 15^th of June 2014 will surely be the best birthday gift for my 26^th birthday. LOL. Well, that if a miracle happens and I'll be able to keep on updating my blog for a year. Hmm, it's just that it seems like no one is stupid enough to make that wish of mine come true. LOL. By the way, I also bumped into a website offering services such as turning a blog into a book and not just that 'coz the blogger has the option to sell one's blog book on the website's online bookstore. If I was able to understand it correctly turning my blog into a book and selling it on the website's online bookstore is totally for free which means I don't have to spend a single penny in my pocket at all in order to sort of publish my work online. Hmm, I'll research further about it. I mean, what if I got it all wrong or something. LOL.

It's Not Such a Good Idea

You know what? I really want to turn my blog into a professional looking book by the time I reach my quota of blog posts or by the time my blog survives a year or by the time my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” achieves a thousand views on the video sharing website where I uploaded it or something. It's just that I don't think such is such a good idea not to mention that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to make such possible. Do you get me or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? As I've said I want my thoughts preserved. LOL. I mean, there's really nothing like an old-fashioned book or something. If you can catch my drift.

I'm also wondering if earning my own dough while blogging is a good idea or not. Oh, not to mention making a living out of writing. I mean, I don't think someone out there will spare some of one's hard earned dough just to read my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between. Well, not unless it's a Psychology student who is looking for a guinea pig for one's case study or thesis about Personality Disorders. LOL. I'm just kidding not to mention that the idea of being a guinea pig is quite annoying. I mean, who wants to be a guinea pig anyway? LOL. Well, one of the reasons that's holding me back from studying Psychology in a formal school is because I don't wanna go through coming up with a case study or a thesis 'coz I'm just not good at it. LOL.

Hmm, I think I made up my mind. I'm gonna drop the idea of turning my blog into a professional looking book for now though my own blog book will be my ideal birthday gift for next year. LOL. By the way, good news is it seems like I'll be able to watch really soon the final twenty-five percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Yehey. So what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Hmm, I'm still wondering what is a better way of preserving my thoughts though. I mean, is it through posting it here on my blog? Or is it having my thoughts printed on a short bond paper? Well, I don't really know. LOL.

Well, still no one has left a comment here on my blog but someone did shared some of my blog posts on a social networking site and I'd rather not share who that someone is 'coz it's top secret. Actually, it came quite as a surprise. I mean, I never thought that someone will share some of my blog posts on a social networking site back then or something. Well, if I'm not mistaken she shared my blog posts “It Doesn't Make Any Sense at All”, “I Forgot What I Wrote Yesterday”, “The Dream Lives On”, and “End of the Story”. Hmm, I don't know why that someone chose to share those blog posts and I didn't bother to ask that someone why. Well, I don't know with me.

Hey, I'm thinking what if it's a sign from God. I'm thinking what if it's God's way of telling me that my thoughts don't make any sense at all and it's much better for me to forget about blogging and it's stupid of me to let my dream to be a writer someday live on and that's the end of the story. Ouch! Well, it's just that I have a strong feeling that it's not what God is trying to tell me. LOL. I feel like the right path for me is really to pursue my dream to be a writer someday. I mean, if I was meant to be a regular employee I should have landed a good-paying job right after college graduation, right? It's just that up until now that I'm already in my mid-twenties I'm still unemployed not to mention unemployable. Well, I guess the right path just dawned on me, huh? I mean, it's my dream to be a writer since I was eight and here I am doing my baby steps just to get there. Well, not to mention that I need to remind myself that there's no such thing as an overnight success. Okay, so I'm gonna go and write a book then send it to literary agents as a first step to achieving my dream to be a writer someday. Well, I don't know where this path that I'm choosing will go. Hmm, I don't even know if this is the right path or what. Well, it's only God who knows. By the way, I'm running eighty-six percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I guess the best thing for me to do is to take my time reading. Hmm, I guess so. LOL.

Being Such a Slow Reader

As a reading progress update I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. You know what? It seems like I'm being such a slow reader lately. Hmm, I don't know with me. Well, I'm reading it a chapter at a time. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I said something like I don't wanna pressure my brain or something. Hmm, if you can catch my drift. Oh, not to mention that I need to often remind myself that reading this Fantasy book series is supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me, right? I thought so.

By the way, I just finished watching again seventy-five percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm busy reading these days. You know what? It's quite fascinating to watch the movie version and see each main character growing up. Oh, not to mention the actors and actresses who played those main characters. At the same time it's kind of weird 'coz if I'm not mistaken I'm just about a year older than the actor who played the title-role. I'm like I was able to witness those main characters and those who played those main characters in the movie growing up when I myself can't imagine myself growing up when if I think it over we are almost of the same age. Do you get me or am I writing in a manner that it's only me who can understand? LOL.

Oh, speaking of the actor who played the title-role in the movie version of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I mean, it's quite obvious that he's pretty damn good looking or shall I say he's pretty damn attractive. Well, I have to admit that way back high school I had a mild crush on him. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I have mentioned that way back high school the only guy I was severely infatuated with was the lead vocal of my favorite American rock band so I just had a mild crush on the actor who played the title-role in the movie version of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Damn, why am I talking about crushes all over again? LOL.

Hmm, I'm wondering what codename are we gonna call him. Well, why won't we call him by his second given name which is “Jacob” according to the online encyclopedia I'm fond of browsing through lately. So when I was in high school and as I watched the movie version I found Mr. Jacob as a “little boy” and maybe that's why I only had a mild crush on him 'coz when I was in high school I found myself as not a “little girl” anymore but not yet a woman. LOL. Oh, talk about one of my favorite songs from the Princess of Pop. It's just that the “little boy” grew up and turned into a “man”. Well, a very attractive one, that is. Hmm, problem is I'm not a “woman”. LOL. Well, what I'm trying to say is I'm seeing Mr. Jacob in a whole new different light these days and I think I have a mild infatuation for him by now. Well, it's like saying I fancy him. LOL.

By the way, when it comes to my crushes I'm only up to the feeling of infatuation. I never loved any one of my crushes. It's either a mild crush, a typical crush, a severe crush, a mild infatuation, a typical infatuation, or a severe infatuation. Nothing much. I just feel like stressing that one out. LOL. Well, I guess it's much better for the whole damn world to just leave me and my daydreams about Mr. Jacob and I to myself, right? I mean, it won't hurt him a bit anyway as long as he doesn't have the slightest clue on what's going on in my daydreams 'coz if he ever finds out then for sure he's gonna go and vomit. LOL. So I'm hoping that I'll be able to watch again the remaining twenty-five percent of the movie installments in the coming days. As for reading the book I'm thinking of taking my time. I mean, who cares if I'm being such a slow reader these days? Oh, as an update on watching the movie version it seems like it will take some time before I'll be able to watch again the remaining twenty-five percent of the movie installments. Well, never mind the details. I guess it's much better for me to get busy with reading the books for now.

I Forgot What I Wrote Yesterday

So as an update on this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days I'm fifty-seven percent done. Yehey! LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from updating you with my reading progress? You know what? I always am candid when I write a blog draft and there are times when I end up forgetting what I have written in the past and when I go read my previous literary masterpieces I end up asking myself in disbelief if am I really the one who wrote such. Damn it. Hey, I think I have said something like this in my previous blog drafts. Hmm, I think so. LOL.

Oh, I do browse through biographies of successful people with the help of an online encyclopedia more specifically read about what they went through to be successful. Hmm, quite inspiring not to mention that there were some who went through some bad times and good times along the way. Oh, I also googled about literary agents. Well, I understand if you don't see the point since I have not written a book that I can consider publishing worthy yet. Hmm, I'm hoping to write one one of these days. Damn, why won't I just settle as a reader or something? Yeah, right. Damn it.

Hmm, I have a funny feeling that my blog is getting more and more boring by the second. Well, what can you expect from a boring person like me who lives such a super boring life? You know what? It's quite ironic to consider myself as a “Mysterious Girl” not to mention naming my blog the same when it seems like through religiously updating my blog these days I'm making my life sort of an open book or something. Do you get me or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? LOL. Well, I think it's God's perfect timing that I am able to keep on religiously updating a blog at this point in my life 'coz I have a funny feeling that if I kept a blog when I was a teenager stuffs will most likely go an awful lot wrong and maybe I would have dropped out of high school. Oh, don't ask me why 'coz I'm not saying the answer I have in mind.

Hmm, I'm not psychotic anymore so it's much better for you not to expect anything psychotic from me. LOL. I mean, my anti-psychotic and my mood stabilizer are working pretty well these days. Oh, not to mention that I also need to help myself. I mean, medication is nothing if I myself won't give myself a helping hand towards getting better. You know what? There are times when I ask myself if was I really able to learn the English language properly not to mention my disregard for correct grammar or am I writing in English in a manner that's it's only me who can understand what the heck I am talking about. Oh, talk about being misinterpreted or something. Damn it.

Well, if I am writing in English in a manner that it's only me who can understand then well and good. LOL. I mean, at least I'm giving my readers if I do ever have some a treat by springing them something to decode or what. LOL. If it is so then I hope my readers if I ever do have some are having a lot of fun so far. Well, the question is were my readers if I do ever have some able to decode my literary masterpieces correctly. Damn, what am I saying? Oh, I remember a quote saying something like “One of the worst things that can happen to a person is not when the whole world don't understand you. It's when you don't understand yourself.” If I'm not mistaken I bumped into that quote via mobile message way back late college. You know what? Hmm, I think that quote makes a lot of sense, right? So I guess it's much better for me not to care if I am being misinterpreted or taken the wrong way or whatever you call it. I mean, I do understand myself and as long as I do understand myself then I'm good to go. Hey, I don't think I need a psychologist, psychiatrist, or therapist for me to understand myself. I mean, a lot of prayer to God and a lot of writing will do. Well, I have to admit I need my anti-psychotic and my mood stabilizer as of now to refrain my psychotic mind from dropping by and ruining everything.

The Dream Lives On

I'm still running fifty-seven percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days and if you are witty enough then you most probably have figured out what book series it is by now. Well, I don't wanna keep on babbling about this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days so why won't I talk of something else. Hmm, like what? Well, I don't really know. You know what? There are times when I read some of my previous blog posts I can't help ending up asking myself if was I really the one who wrote those stuffs. Well, I don't know why. Whatever.

Oh, after ages I finally remembered to research about interesting blog topics the last time I went online. Well, I browsed through the suggested topics and honestly it's not helping at all. Hmm, I'm just thinking of researching about interesting blog topics 'coz I have this funny feeling that my readers if I ever do have some are most probably sick and tired of me babbling about my dreams or shall I say my frustrations and how I'm living those even just inside the four walls of my room.

By the way, when I went channel surfing on television one afternoon I stopped and watched at a station airing an interview with the one and only Queen of Telenovelas on Earth. Well, it's quite obvious that you don't need a clue to figure that out but for those who are clueless about who this gorgeous lady is then the only clue I can give you is she is Mexican. Hmm, I guess that clue will do. Damn, she's still beautiful as ever. I mean, she even looks younger these days. Yeah, right. Hmm, talk about another vampire, huh? Damn, I wonder what's the secret to being a vampire.

So after watching her interview if I'm not mistaken I turned the television off 'coz as I've said I have grown to dislike watching the television since I had this disorder I have. By the way, the last time I went online via web I dropped by my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” to check how many are its views then I also read the comment again only to realize that I remembered it the wrong way. I mean, I wrote in my previous post that the comment says “This song both hurts my brain and my soul.” 'coz that's how I remembered it but when I read the comment again it says “This song hurts both my brain and my soul.”. Well, it still means the same thing, right?

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? Nobody has ever left a comment here on my blog. I mean, I'd really appreciate some comments or something. Well, both constructive and not-so-constructive comments. LOL. I mean, maybe I wanna learn how to deal with criticisms or something. Well, I'm talking about criticisms in a civilized manner. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, I wonder if someone really read any of my posts or something.

Oh, I have been drinking too much coffee lately. Hmm, an average of three cups a day which is quite alarming. On second thought it's white coffee anyway so I guess it's not much of a big deal. Hmm, I think so. LOL. Well, I just thought of mentioning that one in this blog draft and now that I have mentioned it then why don't I talk about something else. By the way, I'm still dreaming to write a book but all I can do for now is to keep on updating a blog. Hmm, there's nothing much interesting going on in my life right now aside from dropping by a whole new world from time to time as I go on reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I'm thinking of researching for literary agents. Damn, why am I thinking about literary agents when I have not written a book yet? Damn it. LOL. Well, if self-publishing is an option then I don't have a single penny in my pocket to self-publish. Hmm, I guess the best thing to do before worrying about those stuffs is to write a book first, right? Yeah, I thought so. So the dream still lives on, huh?

Always Getting Pitchy

I have tried to sing the Punk Princess' songs for a gazillion times and it turns out that I cannot sing most if not all of her songs without getting pitchy. LOL. Damn, when will I ever sing like her? I mean, it's nothing new that those who have heard me sing live and in the flesh found my singing voice too annoying. Oh, there's another topic playing in my head these days. It's just that I also feel like not writing a whole blog entry about it. No, it has nothing to do with that sensitive topic I'm talking about in my previous post. It's a whole new world different from that. Whatever.

So why won't I talk about something else? Well, I'm reading a book these days and don't ask me what book it is 'coz I'm not saying. Hmm, maybe I'll tell you after reading the whole book series. Hey, was that a clue? Well, I'm not saying anything else 'coz if I tell you how many books are there in the series then you will surely figure that out in a snap of a finger. On second thought all I can say is the book series either has seven, four, or three books and it has a movie version. Well, I have seen the movie version and while reading the book version I noticed a lot of differences.

Oh, don't ask me how I got the book version 'coz I'm not saying and I'm also not saying how I was able to watch the movie version. Damn, am I really living up to being a “Mysterious Girl”, huh? LOL. Well, if I am then I find nothing wrong with it. Oh, I remember our high school yearbook. I mean, when the whole batch was in the process of coming up with that yearbook one classmate suggested to label myself as “Mysterious Girl” in the yearbook. Well, I don't know with me back then why I said “No” and decided to leave what I submitted to them the way it is.

So here I go wishing I can turn back time all over again, huh? It's just that there's no such thing as time travel these days not to mention that I find traveling back in time a bit scary. Hey, now I'm thinking it's a good thing that I'm reading this book series I'm currently reading right now. I mean, while reading the book series I feel like making up to the time I lost for something that I'd rather not say. LOL. Well, honestly I don't exactly know why I feel like I wasted too much time in my whole damn life. Damn, I wonder what it will be like if I didn't fear failure that much. Damn it.

Hey, here I go going off-topic all over again. I mean, I'm supposed to write about being pitchy. Well, that's what the title says. It's just that I don't know with me why sometimes I end up writing a blog post with a content way too off-topic with its title. Hmm, I don't know with me. LOL. I guess that's just me and the best thing to do is just to live with it. I mean, this is how God designed me and He happens to be the best artist that ever existed. Well, I guess that's an amen.

Oh, I remember this story I wrote in a notebook way back the last year of grade school. Well, a girl in class borrowed it from me 'coz she wanted to read it. Hmm, the problem is my notebook where that story I wrote was written was never returned. Well, I'm thinking maybe that girl classmate forgot about it or much worse threw my notebook in the trash or something. Hey, I'm not keeping my hopes high but I'm thinking of searching for that girl on a social networking site and ask her if she remembers that notebook she borrowed from me way back the last year of grade school and where is it now. Well, maybe 'coz a part of me wants to read that story in that notebook all over again not to mention that I also want to find out how my writing style was way back grade school. Or maybe I just better forget about it. Damn, I remember when I was in grade school I wanted to be the youngest bestselling author of all time. LOL. Well, thing is I'm twenty-five now and all I can do for now is to keep updating a blog. Hey, I'm trying to live my life to the fullest these days. Oh, not to mention that I have read somewhere that there are some writers who just stay at home most if not all of the time and maybe some of them never leave the house. LOL.

Talk About a Sensitive Topic

You know what? A sensitive topic is playing in my head these days. Well, I wrote a paragraph about it with pen and paper just to get over it and somehow writing about it made me feel a whole lot better. It's just that I don't think writing a whole blog entry about this sensitive topic I'm talking about and posting it here on my blog is such a good idea. I guess I'd like to leave things a mystery after all I'm “Mysterious Girl”, remember? Well, what the heck? LOL. Hmm, whatever.

So why won't I talk about something else? Hmm, so what am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Oh, now I'm thinking keeping this sensitive topic playing in my head a mystery may end up making other people come up with possibilities on what this sensitive topic might be with their wild imagination which is quite annoying. I mean, it doesn't mean that I'm keeping a blog online I'm gonna blab everything here. I guess there are things in life that are best to be kept to one's self like this sensitive topic playing in my head these days. Well, I guess so. Damn it. LOL.

By the way, a few days ago I got the chance to watch the Princess of Pop's concert in Las Vegas again that took place if I'm not mistaken on the same year her home country had a terrorist attack. Well, if you ask me I can honestly say that that was the best concert I have ever seen in my whole damn life. I mean, if you ask me based on that Princess of Pop's concert in Las Vegas that I'm talking about I can honestly say that the Princess of Pop is the best performer of this generation. Hmm, so I guess I won't add anything more to that 'coz the Princess of Pop's Army might strangle me by saying what I'm about to say. Well, on second thought I'll write it down anyway. I mean, what I want to say is everything changed since she got married and had her two sons. Well, if you know what I mean. Oops! I hope the Princess of Pop's Army will forgive me for what I just wrote. LOL. So might as well just enjoy the music 'coz I'm still a fan though and forever will be.

Hey, I'm wondering why is it that most female music artists end up re-inventing themselves just to survive the mainstream music industry. I mean, take the Punk Princess as a sample. I'm wondering if the Punk Princess didn't change her image will she survive this long in the mainstream music industry. Well, I hope the Punk Princess' Little Black Stars won't strangle me for wondering this way about the Punk Princess. Damn, I wonder what's the secret to being a vampire. LOL. So might as well just enjoy the music 'coz I'm still a fan though and forever will be. I mean, it were the Princess of Pop and the Punk Princess who inspired me to be a singer songwriter someday. It's just that I don't have that “It” they have whatever that “It” is that they are talking about. Well, as they say one just can't get everything one wants. LOL. Well, whatever.

By the way, I'm thinking of coming up with a final “It's a Mess by Adeline Chrystyn”. Hmm, so far I have three songs which are “Can't Tell You”, “Scream”, and “A Broken Record” which means I have nine more songs to go to complete the whole record. It's just that this time around I'm wishing of making the record acoustic. Well, problem is I don't have a single penny in my pocket to buy myself a guitar. Hmm, so I guess this is another downside of being unemployed, huh? Well, I'm thinking if I can't make it in the mainstream music industry then why not give being an independent music artist a try. Hmm, I don't really know. Hey, I'm thinking of joining a singing workshop. I mean, what if joining a singing workshop can be my stepping stone to having a real studio record album? It's just that I don't think it's a good idea 'coz joining a singing workshop is just for kids in this youth worshiping society we all live in. Or maybe why won't I go and research for singing workshops without an age limit? Hmm, that sounds like a good idea.

Live and in the Flesh

So my favorite American rock band had a concert in my country last 13^th of August and it's too bad I wasn't able to watch them play live and in the flesh. LOL. Well, to add to that I only found out about the concert a few hours before the said event via mobile on a social networking site. Hmm, it's just that I'm thinking even if they'll go and play live in a venue nearby where I don't have to ride a plane just to get there I don't think I'm gonna get the chance to watch them anyway. Well, never mind the reason why 'coz I don't feel like stressing it out. LOL. Damn, never mind.

Well, good news is based on my google via mobile on a social networking site my favorite American rock band had a successful concert and I'm so happy for them though it's such a pain in the heart not to witness them rock the whole house down. LOL. Damn, I wonder what it will be like to see my crush who happens to be the lead vocal sing live and in the flesh. Or way much better get a V.I.P. pass and have a photo taken with him. Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL.

Honestly, I was only able to get a copy of their first two record albums. Well, I have the cassette version 'coz it's what I can afford and we have a cassette player at home those days anyway. If I'm not mistaken by the time they released their third record album cassette tapes were extinct by then due to the rise of mp3s so it's either I'll get a copy of the C.D. or get an mp3 copy of their songs. Well, problem is I'm not that rich to do that so up until now I don't have a copy of my favorite American rock band's third to their latest record albums. Damn, what kind of fan am I? LOL.

Well, on second thought not having a copy of all of my favorite American rock band's record albums doesn't make me less of a fan. I mean, there are even times when I'm in a bad mood I just simply go and listen to their music and then I end up feeling a whole lot better. Hey, this is an off topic but I'll write it down anyway. Well, what I want to say is I wish the Punk Princess will release a greatest hits record album after her self-titled fifth studio record album. I mean, I'm not that rich to buy a copy of her third to her latest record albums so might as well get a copy of the greatest hits instead if ever the Punk Princess will go and release one. Damn, how I wish. LOL.

Hey, I just realized that I was such a fanatic way back late grade school to high school days. It's just that everything changed when college came. Well, maybe one factor I can consider is the stereo at home got broken so what's the point of getting a copy of cassette tapes and C.D.s when I can't play and listen to those anyway. Hmm, to add to that then came the rise of mp3s and video sharing websites. Damn, what am I saying? Hey, I'm thinking those weren't the only reasons why the fanatic in me bid farewell or something. Hmm, I'm thinking I'll go with having the stereo at home broken as one of the main factors. Well, I can't think of anything else. LOL. Never mind.

Well, I miss those days when I get the chance to listen to the whole studio record albums of my favorite artists. I mean, as a fan I feel like getting a copy of those record albums I missed and catch up on my favorite artists' music or something. Well, problem is I'm not that rich to do that. Oh, not to mention that when college came two of my favorite music channels switched to cable so I can't watch music videos of the latest songs anymore. Well, it seems like the fanatic in me is somehow coming back to town for good or something. LOL. It's just that if you ask me I like the music best when I was still in high school. Oh, I still have my cassette tapes here with me. I kept them all in a shoe box. By the way, my mobile phone's sound recorder isn't broken so I recorded my voice singing the latest song I wrote. Well, at first I thought my latest song isn't video sharing website worthy. It's just that after recording it on my mobile phone's sound recorder I thought my latest song isn't that bad after all and I'm thinking of uploading it on my official video sharing website's channel carrying my official pen name “Adeline Chrystyn”. Well, I don't really know.

Harmless Stalker

It sucks to drop by some of my crushes' profiles on a social networking site only to find out that one is married and the other one is in a long time relationship. Hmm, it seems like the married one now has a kid with his wife and the one who is in a long time relationship will possibly be getting married soon. I mean, he's been in a relationship with his girlfriend for more or less six years and two months now so I guess what's missing in their relationship at this point is simply a wedding. Damn, the mere thought of it is killing me. LOL. I wish them all the best though. LOL.

I mean, most of my crushes don't have a single clue that I exist. I'm not a part of their lives and they are not a part of mine aside from being my crushes and that's pretty much it. Well, the fanatic in me is somehow resurfacing all over again and I wanna add some of my crushes on my official account on a social networking site. It's just that I'm thinking I'd rather not push through with it. I mean, I guess it's time for me to outgrow from being a stalker or something. LOL. Oh, not to mention that seeing them happy with someone else is such a pain in the heart. Damn. LOL.

Hmm, this is somewhat an off topic but I'll write it down anyway. I mean, I came to wonder what's worse. Is it doing all you can to turn someone off but no matter how you try that person is still into you? Or is it doing all you can to turn someone on but no matter how you try that person is still not into you? Oh, now I remember my song “Waiting for Nothing”. Hmm, I uploaded that song on a video sharing website's channel carrying my unofficial pen name “Adeline McSunday”.

Well, as I've said I don't have a new crush as of the moment. I mean, my latest crush is that Turkish guy I met on a social networking site during graduate school. Nope, I didn't drop by his profile on a social networking site lately. Actually, I only dropped by the profiles of two of my crushes recently. I call the married one with a kid as “Where's-Your-Teacher?” and never mind the story behind it 'coz I don't feel like sharing then the one who is in a long time relationship is no other than Animé. Damn, it's been ages since I last seen them in person. Hmm, never mind.

Oh, in a micro-blogging website I followed a male celebrity crush of mine who has the same first name as Animé. He's a professional basketball player wearing jersey number seventeen and a celebrity all at the same time. Hmm, it seems like I have given enough clue for you to figure out who he is, huh? LOL. I guess it's safe to say that Mr. Jersey Seventeen is my ideal kind of guy or something. I wonder if I'll ever find someone like him. Well, I don't really know. Who knows?

Well, I guess at this point in my life I'm just up to having crushes and daydreaming about my crushes and I may the daydream be a happy ending one or a tragic one. LOL. I'm not really the type who enters into a boy-girl relationship anyway. I mean, I'm such a loner since time in memorial. LOL. Oh, not to mention that it seems like my peg these days is what they call on a micro-blogging website as “Forever Alone”. LOL. Well, I guess that's life and that's an amen.

I'm thinking I guess it's time for me to outgrow from being a stalker or something and call my stalking days over. It's just that I have the tendency to change my mind from time to time so I won't add a period to that. Oh, out of boredom I came up with a quote one time and it goes like this. “Dear Bitches, you belong with jerks. Dear Girls, you belong with boys. Dear Women, you belong with men. Dear Crush, you belong with ME!” LOL. I don't know why but I find that one a bit funny though a part of me thinks it doesn't make any sense at all. LOL. I meant that one as a joke and not anything else or whatever. Hmm, I don't know if someone else will find that one funny too. Hey, I think that's a good one to tweet on a micro-blogging website or something.