It's a Social Networking Overdose

You know what? I wish I was mature enough when I began joining social networking sites. Hmm, I'm thinking maybe I wouldn't have ended up creating an account and then deleting it after a few days, weeks, months, or years. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I wouldn't have ended up annoying my batch mates 'coz they keep on receiving friend requests from me or something. Damn, why did my network provider ever decided to make their customers access this said social networking site for free as a holiday gift? I mean, it seems like I'm having a social networking overdose or something. LOL. Well, I have deactivated my other and not to mention unofficial accounts on the said social networking site but last night I decided to keep one unofficial account existing. Oh, this account that I'm talking about is carrying one of my old pen names. Well, I currently don't have friends that I know in person in this said other account. I mean, I just added complete strangers randomly in this account or something as a numbers game. Hmm, it's just that it's different in my official account in this said social networking site 'coz I decided to only add those that I'm interested to be updated with what's going on in their lives at present. Hmm, damn.

By they way, I decided to delete some of my status updates on this said social networking site last night. I mean, I felt like those photos I uploaded shouldn't be there or something. You know what? I'm really trying my damn best to be mature in this official account on a social networking site and I think I'm doing pretty well so far. Well, I think so. Hmm, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. You know what? It's not that easy make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online, mind you. Damn it. By the way, if I think it over I don't really get anything from social networking sites aside from unleashing the gossip girl in me and freedom of expression. Oh, not to mention that I feel like there's really nothing for me on the world wide web so why do I keep on dropping by that artificial world. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, damn it.

You know what? I did my part and I guess it's up to those who left my friend requests on a social networking site pending to accept my friend request or not. I mean, I'm thinking maybe those people don't wanna be friends with me anymore even on a social networking site or something. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to anyone. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. You know what? I came to think that a few weeks from now the network provider's holiday gift will come to an end and I'm thinking it's much better for me to stop myself from being too hooked to this said social networking site 'coz I'll surely miss surfing this site at any time of the day when the promo is over. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Well, why won't I focus on updating my blog instead?

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. LOL. By the way, I'm not yet done reading this book about dreamers and what dreamers end up doing just to make their dreams come true. Oh, not to mention that I haven't changed my profile picture on social networking sites since I joined those social networking sites. Well, let's put it this way. I mean, if it's an awarding ceremony then the best picture goes to my current profile picture. LOL. Oh, and it seems like I can't find a photo of me that's worth to replace my current profile picture with. Hmm, can you catch my drift or is my grammar getting more and more confusing or am I writing in English in a way that it's only me who can understand all over again? Damn it. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here.

Here I Go Flooding the News Feed

Hmm, so I have been liking photos of people on a social networking site and I have a funny feeling that I'm flooding the news feed of my friends on the said social networking site all over again. Well, I'm thinking maybe it's not such a big deal to them or something but if it somehow annoys them or what then they are free to stop receiving updates from me in their news feed or something. LOL. Well, actually I turned this said social networking site into a quasi micro-blogging website a few years ago by sending status updates via text message. LOL. Hmm, and now it seems like I'm turning this said social networking site into a photo sharing website or something. Well, it's just that I don't really have that much photos to share. By the way, I logged in to some of my deactivated accounts on this said social networking site yesterday to check out some old photos I uploaded back then and saved some of those photos then deactivated those said accounts all over again. I mean, this account carrying the name “Adeline Chrystyn” is really the official one and I'm trying my damn best to be mature in this account or something unlike before.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Damn, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. By the way, yesterday I had Macaroni Salad for breakfast then I had Macaroni Salad for lunch then I had Macaroni Salad and Spaghetti for dinner. LOL. Well, never mind asking why I had Macaroni Salad for the whole day. Hmm, all I can say is it's been a year since then. Okay, so why won't I talk about something else? Hmm, like what? Well, I don't really know. By the way, natural calamities are happening not just in this country where I live and grew up in but also in the whole wide world if I base it on what I have seen on my news feed on a social networking site not to mention that here goes the topic of this so called “End of the World” all over again. Well, no one really knows when the whole damn world will end. Hmm, I guess the best thing for each and every one of us to do is to make the most out of each and every single day or something. Damn, look who's talking? LOL. I mean, I can't even live my life to the fullest or what. Damn it.

Oh, it seems like none of those pending friend requests that I sent will ever get accepted. Well, I still have thirty friends on a social networking site and not counting. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn it. LOL. Hmm, I'm really running out of nonsense out here or something. You know what? I think I'm going through some diminishing satisfaction when it comes to social networking sites. I mean, it's like eating Chocolates or something. Hmm, at first one gets a lot of satisfaction when eating Chocolates but the more one eats some Chocolates the lesser satisfaction one gets from eating Chocolates. I mean, can you catch my drift or wasn't I listening to our Economics teacher back then attentively? LOL. Oh, and why did I decide to make Chocolates as an example when if you ask me I'll never get tired of eating Chocolates? Damn it.

You know what? I'm thinking social networking sites are a new medium of communication aside from being a platform for self-expression. Well, since no one out there really wants to talk to me then I'm thinking I'll go with making social networking sites a platform for expressing myself or something. LOL. By the way, I watched a reality show for designers last night and one of the guest judges is a female model. Hmm, so I went and checked her out on a social networking site and when I checked out her photos it seems like this female model is also an author of a book with a pink cover or something. LOL. Damn, so she's a professional model and a professional author which are both I'm not. Oh, another heartbreak this is. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense out here. Damn it.

It's A Polite Way of Rejection

I went online yesterday to update my blog and then I dropped by my e-mail address to check out my inbox. Well, news is I was able to receive a reply from that publishing company that is based in this country where I live in. Hmm, the message says that they were able to receive my book proposal and they are asking me to give them about one or two months to go through my book proposal not to mention that they didn't fail to stress out that they are screening book proposals these days for books to be published on 2015. Well, if I think it over since it's nearly the end of 2013 so I'm thinking it's just reasonable that this said publishing company is screening books to be published on 2015 or something. Hmm, it's just that I don't know why but there's a part of me telling me that maybe it's their polite way of rejecting my book proposal. I mean, it's like 2015 is still ages away or something and maybe psychologically speaking this said publishing company thinks that maybe I'm a bit too impatient to wait that long to get my book published or something so there's a possibility that I'll send a book proposal to other publishing companies or literary agents whom I think can publish my book sooner or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift.

By the way, I decided to add more people on a social networking site. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, I'm thinking of doing the Math all over but I guess it's much better for me to just forget about that stuff. LOL. Oh, I'd like to stress out that I'm not really that close to anyone. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I have a funny feeling that no one I know in person wants to talk to me so why won't I go back talking to complete strangers instead. LOL. Hmm, I'll think about it. You know what? I'm thinking of only adding those people that I know in person on a social networking site. Hmm, it's just that if I think it over it seems like most people on a social networking don't really know in person everyone that they added on their account or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? You know what? I'm thinking of browsing through the friend suggestions, check out the profile of those that I find interesting, and send those people friend requests. I mean, I think there's nothing wrong with that or something. Well, I don't really know with me. LOL. Hmm, I'll think about it. LOL.

Hmm, I was thinking of writing a blog draft every other day. Well, it's just that it seems not possible these days. I mean, I'm thinking why won't I just limit myself to writing a blog draft a day or something to make the whole damn world a better place to live in. Hmm, I don't really know with me. Oh, not to mention that the local newspaper to whom I sent a poem to via e-mail didn't reply to my message. Well, I'm thinking maybe my poem isn't good enough or something. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I don't really find anything wrong with adding more people on a social networking site. I mean, that's why it's called a “social networking site”, right? Well, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? LOL.

Well, I listed forty-nine people more that I'm thinking of sending friend requests to on a social networking site. Hmm, I came up with that list when I browsed through my yearbooks sometime ago. Well, I have to stress out again and again that these people and I aren't really close. I mean, I just find them interesting that's why I'm thinking of sending them friend requests. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. You know what? I wonder what it will be like if I was mature enough when I began joining social networking sites. Well, maybe I wouldn't have ended up creating an account and deleting it after a while. Damn, I guess that's life. LOL. Sigh.

Surprised by the Unexpected

It's All Saints' Day and I wasn't able to drop by the cemetery to visit the departed love ones. Well, I know it sounds a bit cheesy but those departed love ones will always be in my heart and in my mind and I don't need to physically visit their final resting place to offer them flowers, candles, and not to mention prayers. Oh, so it seems like the home buddy that I am opt to stay stuck inside my cave where I peacefully belong. Hmm, I went online a few hours ago to update my blog. Well, yesterday I was being the frustrated stylist, frustrated model, and frustrated photographer that I am all over again so I came up with an outfit, put it on, and took photos of myself wearing the said outfit. Hmm, so I came up with the best shots or shall I say frames then uploaded the black and white version of those photos on a social networking site. Oh, I also wrote on my status update that I want to be remembered as a complicated girl who once lived in a simple world and that I feel like playing a vampire-witch on a Halloween 'coz I won't pass as a saint. Hmm, damn.

By the way, when I browsed through my news feed on a social networking site a few hours ago a status update of my cousin who lives in a foreign country saying that she's getting married on the day she wrote that status update caught my attention. Well, I thought she was just joking or something so I didn't really take it seriously. Hmm, it's just that when I checked out the comments for her status update it seems like she wasn't joking at all and that she's really getting married. Well, the last time I checked my news feed on a social networking site my cousin changed her name. Hmm, strictly speaking she just added her “new” family name so I'm kind of thinking maybe it's really true that she's married and it wasn't all a joke after all. Well, I really don't have any problem with that not to mention that I don't have anything to do with it to begin with. Hmm, it's just that I have to say that I was so surprised with the news and it was really unexpected of her. I mean, if I base it on her social networking profile she's most of the time hanging out with girls so I'm kind of wondering how come a groom comes into the picture out of the blue or what.

Well, on second thought this cousin that I'm talking about and I aren't really close. I mean, strictly speaking I don't know anything about her. Well, I have to say that I was able to have a glimpse of what is she like and what her life is like through a social networking site. Hmm, it's just that I have to say that a social networking profile of a person doesn't really tell everything about a certain person. Well, if you ask me browsing through a person's social networking profile is like watching a movie. I mean, what we all see is just the end product and we don't have the slightest idea what happened behind the scenes. Hmm, if you can catch my drift. Well, so I'm thinking maybe my cousin decided to keep her relationship status as private. I mean, it doesn't mean that a person is keeping a social networking account then that said person is just gonna blab everything on one's profile, right? Hmm, and to think she's a year older than me which means she's in the right age to settle down. Well, so I guess it's much better for me to congratulate her or something.

By the way, I don't see myself settling down anytime soon or in my whole damn life. I mean, I'm not really the marrying type. Oh, and to begin with I'm single so who the hell am I gonna marry. Damn, I never even had a boyfriend my whole damn life. Well, I'm not a girlfriend material. I'm not a wife material. I'm not a mother material. Oh, so I guess as for me nothing much has changed 'coz I'm still choosing to be a virgin old maiden. LOL. By the way, I deactivated my social networking account in which I kept on promoting my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record”. Well, never mind the reason why 'coz I'm not saying the answer I have in mind. LOL. Hmm, so I guess I won't be able to keep on promoting my lyric video in the coming days or something which means my Christmas wish won't be realized. Well, on second thought maybe those netizens who kept on bumping into my posts promoting my lyric video are super annoyed by now so I guess this is God's way of telling me to stop. Hmm, so it seems like I just listened to the sign.

Slowly Learning How to Adjust

You know what? I guess it's time for me to learn how to adjust. I mean, I'm thinking maybe that's why I isolated myself from people or pulled myself away from everybody else almost my whole life by being the loner since time in memorial that I am is because I find it hard to adjust to people and to the kind of environment around me. Well, we moved to a new place a few months ago and I just stayed inside the subdivision most of the time and there are even days when I just don't step out of the house. I'm thinking of going back job hunting. I mean, I'm already in my mid-twenties and I'm supposed to be providing for my own self at this stage of my life. Well, maybe deep down I still feel like a fourteen year old it's just that I guess it's time for me to have some reality check or something. I mean, God gave me about three years and eight months to polish my skill in writing if I ever do have a skill in writing to begin with not to mention giving me enough time in learning how to deal with this Bipolar Disorder I have. Well, I guess it's time for me to move on. I mean, the path to recovery wasn't that easy, mind you. Hmm, damn it. LOL.

Well, even if I'll go and give job hunting another try I'm still gonna do whatever I can to keep my blog updated from time to time. I mean, I guess the dream still lives on. LOL. Well, I know things will never be the same again and I guess all I have to do from now on is simply to live with it. Hmm, my student career is somewhat over. I mean, I guess I'm not ever going back to school any time soon or maybe in my whole damn life. You know what? At some point I lost all the confidence I had and from time to time I feel like I'm incompetent for any job out there. Well, it's just that I think it's time for me bring back the confidence I had in me and then everything else will follow. I mean, I may be mentally ill but it doesn't mean that I cannot function like a normal human being. Oh, not to mention that I better be ready to accept rejections or something. Damn it.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. You know what? It's not my problem why other creatures think the way they do so I guess the best thing for me to do is just to let those other creatures think what they want. Damn, it's not easy to come up with a blog draft, mind you. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about. LOL. Well, maybe deep within I still feel like a fourteen year old. It's just that in my daydreams and on the world wide web maybe I'm already sixty years old or something. LOL. Hmm, in the real world I'm still twenty-five years old. Damn, why am I talking about ages? Well, maybe 'coz I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about. LOL. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Hmm, let me think. Damn it.

You know what? I don't really have that much in mind right now. LOL. Hmm, I don't even know where this blog draft is going. It's just that I need to write a few more lines to conform to the standard requirement of writing a page of nonsense per blog draft. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I don't really have that much in mind right now. LOL. Damn, what am I saying? LOL. Well, it's just that I'd rather have nothing to write about than have my psychotic mind drop by and ruin everything. I mean, my blog is really doing good so far and I don't really need my psychotic mind to drop by and spoil everything. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I just leave other people do what they want to do with their lives. I mean, I have nothing to do with other people's lives anyway. Well, so I guess all that I can do for now is keep on keeping my blog updated as I am make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online as a stepping stone towards my dream of becoming a writer in the real world everybody knows someday. Whatever. Damn it.

Psychotic Mind No More

You know what? I'm simply blogging to express myself and that's pretty much it. Oh, not to mention that it's not my problem why other creatures think the way they do. I mean, I guess it's much better for me to shrug all the negativity off 'coz I don't need such negativity in reaching for my dream to be a writer someday. Well, all I know is I'm just an unemployed not to mention unemployable young adult make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online as a stepping stone towards reaching for my dream to be a writer someday. You know what? I'm kind of thinking that this path I'm choosing is not the normal path or something. Well, it's just that I don't think there's something wrong with being abnormal from time to time. LOL. Oh, to add to that I'm not really someone you can call as “normal” to begin with. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I think it's only me in my batch way back school days who is a loner since time in memorial or something. Well, I guess this is just how God designed me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it not to mention that He happens to be the best artist that ever existed. Damn it. LOL.

You know what? Whenever my psychotic mind drops by it makes me think of out of this world stuffs and it's so stupid of me to entertain those thoughts back then so I guess it's time for me to learn how to shrug those out of this world thoughts that my psychotic mind is trying to poison my head and think of something worthwhile instead. Oh, not to mention that I'm still under medication. I mean, I take an anti-psychotic and a mood stabilizer both once a day to aid me in dealing with this Bipolar Disorder I have. You know what? I guess the best thing for me to do is to do what I can to live my life to the fullest the way I know how. Well, it seems like for now all I can be is a unemployed not to mention unemployable young adult make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online as a stepping stone towards reaching for my dream to be a writer someday. Damn, I'm saying the same things over and over again. Hmm, whatever. LOL.

You know what? I don't really mind being different from everyone else. I mean, if you ask me I like it better that way or something. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I also don't mind if most if not all people just can't relate to me 'coz I find it quite a challenge to relate to other people either. LOL. Well, I guess I'm just unique in my own way and I like it better that way. Oh, not to mention that I also don't mind if most if not all people don't think the way I do and I'm sick and tired of making the most out of my imaginative mind trying to figure out what and how other people think or something. You know what? All I know is I never asked for this Bipolar Disorder I have. I mean, who wants to be a pain in the ass to begin with? Well, it's just that I'm thinking maybe having this Bipolar Disorder is somewhat written in my book of life that God wrote for me even before I was born into this world. Hmm, I guess I better just look at the bright side. Damn it.

You know what? I don't really know if me blogging is going somewhere. I mean, all I know is it's all I can do for now. Oh, not to mention sending the lyrics of my song “A Broken Record” to a local newspaper. You know what? I think I'm just gonna spend the rest of my life make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online or shall I say living my dream as a frustrated writer even just inside the four walls of my room. I mean, if you ask me I think there's really nothing much left for me to do here in this world of the living not to mention that I don't even know why was I ever born in this whole damn world anyway. You know what? I guess the best thing for me to do now is to live my life to the fullest the way I know how and being a blogger is all that I can do for now. Damn, I just don't want my psychotic mind to drop by and ruin everything. Damn it.

More Super Boring by the Minute

You know what? It seems like my blog is getting more and more boring by the minute. LOL. Oh, not to mention that I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about. By the way, I googled “Bipolar Disorder” and “Personality Disorder” on a search engine when I dropped by online a few hours ago. Oh, not to mention that when I checked my lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” I bumped into a comment saying or actually asking why I'm spamming a social networking site by promoting my lyric video or something. Well, if that netizen thinks that I'm spamming or something then I guess there's nothing I can do about it. I mean, all I know is I'm just promoting my lyric video on a social networking site wishing for it to achieve a thousand views as a Christmas wish or make the views a million. LOL. By the way, it's not really a big deal if I'm such a boring person living such a super boring life not to mention keeping a blog that's getting more and more super boring by the minute. I mean, it's been that way since time in memorial. Hmm, I guess I'm just designed this way and I better just live with it. Damn it. LOL.

Oh, not to mention that I also googled social networking sites for aspiring writers. By the way, I forgot to send the lyrics of my song “A Broken Record” to a local newspaper. Well, I don't know with me. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. You know what? I really don't know if what I'm doing these days is going somewhere. Well, it's just that for now make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online is all that I can do. Damn, I don't really know if have I grown as a writer or what. You know what? There are times when I feel like reading everything that I have written since the day I learned how to write. Well, I don't know with me. Oh, not to mention that noticing how my handwriting changes as the years pass by can be fun too. LOL.

Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. LOL. Damn, how many times do I have to keep on asking that question? Well, I don't know with me. I mean, I'm really running out of nonsense to talk about. Well, so I think I'm gonna go and read what came out of my online research after coming up with this blog draft. You know what? I came to think why won't I write a novel about somebody with a Personality Disorder. Hmm, if a novel is too ambitious then why won't I write a short story about it perhaps or something. I mean, I think writing a short story about somebody with a Personality Disorder is my own way of starting somewhere or something. Well, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, I don't really know. I mean, I may be an imaginative mind but I'm not really a creative writer not to mention that I also forgot how to build characters and come up with dialogues. You know what? I feel like someone who wasted one's talent or talents or something.

Oh, if I'm not mistaken I heard somebody said that if God gives you a talent and you don't use it then He's gonna take that talent away from you and give it to somebody else who will make the most out of the said talent. Damn, which reminds me that it's been a long while since I made a drawing. Oh, not to mention that I was thinking of buying some sketchpad, pencils, and coloring materials a few weeks ago so that I can polish my talent in drawing 'coz it seems to be rusty these days. Hmm, it's just that I don't have a single penny in my pocket to buy the materials I need in order to polish my talent in drawing. You know what? I'm thinking one of the many reasons why I didn't take up a course in college that's related to arts 'coz I was scared to have an inferiority complex. Oh, not to mention the fear of failure. I mean, what if I took Fine Arts major in Painting for college and all I know is to make typical drawings or typical sketches inspired by Japanese Animation Characters then I'll end up bumping into classmates who know how to paint like Renaissance artists do. Damn, won't that be such a pain in the heart? Yeah, I thought so. Damn it.

Nothing Much in My Playlist

You know what? I don't like listening to most of the songs in my mobile phone's playlist anymore. Well, don't bother asking why 'coz I'm not saying the answer I have in mind. I mean, let's just say it has something to do with my head associating stuffs in an unlikeable way since I had Bipolar Disorder. Hmm, so what else am I gonna talk about? Well, I don't really know. Oh, I think I have mentioned that I like the music best back when I was still in high school. Hmm, I'm more into listening to pop, alternative, punk, and rock though at times there are songs which are a hybrid of any two genres I mentioned. You know what? I'm thinking maybe that's why God didn't allow me to discover that there's such thing as a blog way back high school and posted my thoughts in a blog back then is because God doesn't want me to make a fool out of myself by means of the world wide web. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, what am I saying? LOL.

I mean, it's just that when I read my diary entries way back the last months of high school I felt like reading a diary of a stupid girl or something not to mention the many times she murdered the English language. LOL. Well, I don't know if I have grown as a writer or what. Oh, not to mention that I'm also wondering if my readers out there if I ever do have some find themselves having a trip inside a stupid girl's thoughts every time they read my blog posts. Well, I'm just wondering what if I'm making a fool out of myself by means of the world wide web by make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Oh, and if I am making a fool out of myself I wonder why God is allowing such thing to happen at this stage of my life. Hmm, or maybe I'm thinking about stuffs like these is because I'm still wondering if am I writing in English in a manner that it's only me who can understand or what. Well, I don't really know.

Well, on second thought maybe I am given the chance by God to be a blogger here online is because it seems like I have grown as a writer as the years passed by and I'm not that stupid girl with stupid thoughts anymore though a lot of times these days I still don't make any sense at all. LOL. Oh, and I came to think maybe in my diary I sound stupid it's just that if my memory serves me right I did try to sound a bit mature in writing school essays back then or something. LOL. You know what? I'm thinking I'm not really born to be an intellectual 'coz I really don't have that much intellect to begin with. Hmm, that if I understand the terms “intellectual” and “intellect” correctly or am I giving a whole new meaning to the said terms. LOL. Well, if you ask me I can't really say that I'm born to be an artist as much as I want to be an artist. I mean, it seems like the artist in me is in a deep sleep these days and that it needs to be awaken plus polished in the coming days. Well, there will come a time for that 'coz as the Bible says there's always a time for everything. Hmm, why won't I focus more in being a blogger online for the mean time or what?

Damn, I wonder what will it be like to read my blog posts these days a decade from now. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, maybe that's why I don't have what it takes to be a teacher 'coz I'm not born to be an intellectual not to mention that I don't really have that much stock knowledge. LOL. Well, maybe the reason why I wanna be a teacher is because one of the few things that I learned my whole damn life is to go to school and being a teacher is not that far from being a student. Hmm, maybe at the back of my head I'm thinking being a teacher is just like being a student who is supposed to report a topic every school day or something. I mean, if you can catch my drift. LOL. Hmm, so so much about that topic. LOL. I mean, I guess the best thing for me to do these days is to keep on make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Hmm, I'm praying and hoping to be able to keep my blog going until the end of my time here in this world of the living. Damn, is it too much to ask? Hey, I'm not done with step one yet. I mean, I'm supposed to write 97,500 words of nonsense to begin with then send it to literary agents. LOL.

Browsing for Blog Topic Ideas

I browsed through the blog topic ideas that popped out in my previous online research back then and it's almost not helping at all. Hmm, I'm thinking of doing some further research the next time I drop by online. Damn, what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Oh, magic is a scary thing but also fascinating. It's just that as I've said I don't wanna have anything to do with magic. Damn, what if one day I'll find out that I'm a witch or maybe a vampire or maybe half of each? Yeah, right. It's like in my wildest dreams. Damn, why am I thinking like a child all over again? Well, I guess that's just me and the best thing for me to do is just to live with it. LOL. Hmm, never mind. LOL.

You know what? Being able to read the whole Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately makes me feel like I graduated a course in graduate school or something. LOL. Hmm, I don't know with me. Damn, I wonder what it will be like if I'll receive an invitation to study witchcraft or something. Yeah, right. It's like in my wildest dreams. Oh, and I'm dreaming about studying witchcraft in a sophisticated way and not in a creepy way. Damn, what am I saying? Well, I guess better not mind what I said. LOL. Hmm, I'm thinking of reading what I have written here on my blog from the very start. It's just that I don't feel like doing so. Well, I don't know with me. So what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Hmm, how many times do I have to repeat that? Damn it.

Hmm, I wonder if will I be able to write 97,500 words of nonsense by December. Well, I don't really know. Damn, who would bother to read that much nonsense from an ignorant girl like me? So what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, how many times do I have to repeat that? Well, there's really nothing much to talk about as of the moment. I mean, my reading progress update for this Fantasy book series I had been busy reading lately is now one hundred percent complete. Hmm, I'm not really that good when it comes to giving a book review. Oh, not to mention that no one cares of what I think about a book to begin with. Damn, one day I'm gonna be a bestselling author who wrote a bestselling book. Yeah, right. It's like in my wildest dreams.

Hmm, I wonder if my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'm still wishing for a thousand views for Christmas though or make it a million. LOL. Damn, how many times do I have to repeat the same things over and over again? Hmm, it seems like I need to sing my song “A Broken Record” to myself, huh? I'm thinking my readers if I ever do have some are sick and tired of me talking about the same things over and over again. It's just that there's really nothing much going on in my life these days. By the way, I really dislike watching television these days. Well, since I had Bipolar Disorder that is. Hmm, I don't know with me and damn it.

Well, so far I only have ten books in my mini-library and I don't know when there will be an addition to it. I mean, I don't have a single penny in my pocket to buy myself a new book to read or something. Well, it seems like my world only revolves around listening to music, reading books, and writing my blog book. Hmm, so I guess my life isn't that boring after all. LOL. Oh, I'm thinking when my blog book miraculously survives a year then I'm gonna read everything I have written from the beginning and figure out if I have grown as a writer or not. Hmm, I want to write a blog book for light reading and not a blog book with a heavy atmosphere. Well, maybe that's why I end up being too childish in most if not all of my blog posts. LOL. Hmm, I see nothing wrong with it. Well, I guess that's just me and that's an amen. Hmm, whatever. Damn it.

Giving Up On Something

Hey, it doesn't mean that I'm giving up my dream to be a singer songwriter slash recording artist someday I'm not gonna sing anymore. LOL. I mean, I guess I have every right to sing my lungs out whenever I feel like singing, right? Oh, not to mention that I'm not that fond of singing with a microphone so most likely my voice won't boom out of the house. Hmm, can you catch my drift or am I writing in English in a way that it's only me who can understand what the heck I am talking about? LOL. Oh, my dream to be a writer still lives on and it seems like it will never fade away. By the way, I'm thinking of dropping the idea of turning my blog into a professional looking book so it seems like signing up on a website and downloading the software that can help me turn my blog into a blog book from the said website will go into waste. Well, never mind.

I'm still gonna do whatever I can to document my life from now on. Well, I guess there's nothing wrong with that, right? Oh, did I say “life”? Damn, how can I say that when if I think it over I don't have a “life”? LOL. Hmm, so why won't I rephrase it? Okay, I think I should have said I'm still gonna do whatever I can to document my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between from now on. Hmm, I guess that's much better. LOL. So I'm still running one hundred percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days and I guess I need to remind myself over and over again that it's supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me. Well, I guess high school was not the right time to read the Fantasy book series I'm reading these days due to my bad reading comprehension. I mean, if you can catch my drift. LOL.

Oh, not to mention college 'coz up until college my reading comprehension was still as bad as ever. You know what? If I think it over I slowly learned how to read with comprehension since I had Bipolar Disorder. Well, it didn't happen overnight to learn how to understand what the heck I am reading. It took years and my reading comprehension is slowly getting better and better as the years pass by. Well, my Bipolar Disorder may be one of the worst if not the worst that happened in my whole damn life but I'm kind of considering the possibility that having this Bipolar Disorder can somehow be a blessing in disguise. Oh, I realized and learned a lot since I had my Bipolar Disorder not to mention that it also gave me so much to write about. I mean, if I didn't have this Bipolar Disorder I would not have the courage to keep a blog like what I'm doing now.

Damn, so I'm an unemployed not to mention unemployable make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Well, if I can only start earning my own dough by writing then that will surely make the whole damn world a better place to live in. I'm in my mid-twenties and I don't have a single penny in my pocket not to mention that I'm still dependent on my parents. It's just that I have a strong feeling that being a writer is really the right path for me and I'm praying that God is working on it to make my dream to be a writer come true someday. Yeah, right. It's like in my wildest dreams. LOL. But what if God is really working on making my dream come true?

Well, if being a writer is really what I'm meant to be then I'm not done with step one yet which is to write a book and I'm supposed to worry about the next step after I have written my book that I can consider as publishing worthy. By the way, I'm still undecided if I'll post the implicit version of “Behind the Mask” here on my blog or not. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, I'm gonna read it again or something. I mean, you know how I usually end up forgetting what I have written in the past. LOL. You know what? I wonder what it will be like to read what I have written these days a decade from now or something. Hmm, I'm thinking that will be quite interesting. LOL. I'm living my life the best way I can the way I know how. Well, I don't know where my life is going and I guess the best thing for me to do is to put it in God's hands. Hmm, for the mean time I have my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between to document for now and amen.

Being Such a Slow Reader

As a reading progress update I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. You know what? It seems like I'm being such a slow reader lately. Hmm, I don't know with me. Well, I'm reading it a chapter at a time. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I said something like I don't wanna pressure my brain or something. Hmm, if you can catch my drift. Oh, not to mention that I need to often remind myself that reading this Fantasy book series is supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me, right? I thought so.

By the way, I just finished watching again seventy-five percent of the movie installments of this Fantasy book series I'm busy reading these days. You know what? It's quite fascinating to watch the movie version and see each main character growing up. Oh, not to mention the actors and actresses who played those main characters. At the same time it's kind of weird 'coz if I'm not mistaken I'm just about a year older than the actor who played the title-role. I'm like I was able to witness those main characters and those who played those main characters in the movie growing up when I myself can't imagine myself growing up when if I think it over we are almost of the same age. Do you get me or am I writing in a manner that it's only me who can understand? LOL.

Oh, speaking of the actor who played the title-role in the movie version of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I mean, it's quite obvious that he's pretty damn good looking or shall I say he's pretty damn attractive. Well, I have to admit that way back high school I had a mild crush on him. I mean, if I'm not mistaken I have mentioned that way back high school the only guy I was severely infatuated with was the lead vocal of my favorite American rock band so I just had a mild crush on the actor who played the title-role in the movie version of this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Damn, why am I talking about crushes all over again? LOL.

Hmm, I'm wondering what codename are we gonna call him. Well, why won't we call him by his second given name which is “Jacob” according to the online encyclopedia I'm fond of browsing through lately. So when I was in high school and as I watched the movie version I found Mr. Jacob as a “little boy” and maybe that's why I only had a mild crush on him 'coz when I was in high school I found myself as not a “little girl” anymore but not yet a woman. LOL. Oh, talk about one of my favorite songs from the Princess of Pop. It's just that the “little boy” grew up and turned into a “man”. Well, a very attractive one, that is. Hmm, problem is I'm not a “woman”. LOL. Well, what I'm trying to say is I'm seeing Mr. Jacob in a whole new different light these days and I think I have a mild infatuation for him by now. Well, it's like saying I fancy him. LOL.

By the way, when it comes to my crushes I'm only up to the feeling of infatuation. I never loved any one of my crushes. It's either a mild crush, a typical crush, a severe crush, a mild infatuation, a typical infatuation, or a severe infatuation. Nothing much. I just feel like stressing that one out. LOL. Well, I guess it's much better for the whole damn world to just leave me and my daydreams about Mr. Jacob and I to myself, right? I mean, it won't hurt him a bit anyway as long as he doesn't have the slightest clue on what's going on in my daydreams 'coz if he ever finds out then for sure he's gonna go and vomit. LOL. So I'm hoping that I'll be able to watch again the remaining twenty-five percent of the movie installments in the coming days. As for reading the book I'm thinking of taking my time. I mean, who cares if I'm being such a slow reader these days? Oh, as an update on watching the movie version it seems like it will take some time before I'll be able to watch again the remaining twenty-five percent of the movie installments. Well, never mind the details. I guess it's much better for me to get busy with reading the books for now.

Taken the Wrong Way

I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading this Fantasy book series these days and I have to say I have been a bit of a slow reader lately. Well, not that it matters. I mean, what's the point of being able to read a hundred pages in no time without understanding a single thing, right? Yeah, I thought so. LOL. Hmm, in fairness the Fantasy book series I'm reading these days is getting more and more interesting. Well, no wonder it's the bestselling book series of all time. You know what? I wonder what it will be like to be a half-witch and half-vampire. Hmm, and I meant the sophisticated way 'coz I don't want people running by the mere sight of me 'coz I look like a monster or people accusing me that I do dark magic mainly upon how I look. Damn it.

Hmm, so why is the title of this blog draft “Taken the Wrong Way”? Well, it's because I feel like I am being taken the wrong way by other people all over again or shall I say I feel like I am being misinterpreted by other people all over again which is not a good feeling at all. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, why won't we talk about something else? I mean, as long as I do understand myself then I am good to go, right? So the heck with other people. I guess it's much better for me not to worry too much most especially about stuffs that shouldn't be worried about.

You know what? As I go on reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days I feel like a student who needs to complete and pass a year level just to level up to the next upper year level as I read one book to the next. Do you get me or is my grammar getting more and more confusing by the minute? Oh, not to mention that I just can't wait to get to the end of the story or shall I say be one hundred percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. By the way, I can't help wonder if I'll take that comment for the lyric video of my song “A Broken Record” that I uploaded on my video sharing website's channel carrying my official pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” in a good way or in a bad way. Oh, not to mention that the said comment earned three likes so far. If you forgot the comment says “This song hurts both my brain and my soul.”. Hmm, I'm thinking the one who left that comment and the one who disliked my lyric video is one and the same person. Well, maybe I'll just take it in a neutral way or something.

Damn, as I am writing this blog draft I wonder if my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. You know what? I have a funny feeling my blog is really getting more and more boring by the minute. Hey, on second thought being a witch or a vampire or half of each is quite scary so it seems like I'd rather choose to be a normal human being. LOL. I mean, it's the same thing with magic. I think magic is a scary stuff to deal with so I don't wanna have anything to do with it. Hey, I think I have said something like this before. Hmm, it seems like I'm sounding like a broken record, huh? Damn it.

Oh, a few months ago I was able to read a book that falls under the Chick Lit genre. Hmm, I borrowed it from my sister. Well, the book in fairness is quite entertaining not to mention that the book also has a movie version. Hmm, if I'm not mistaken I have seen the movie version during my late college years. Well, nothing much. It just crossed my mind and I felt like sharing that one. Hmm, I think I'm not really that into Chick Lit. Oh, when I dropped by a website for books and readers I was able to read a short description about books that fall under the Mystery genre and I found out that I took the said genre the wrong way. Oh, talk about taking things the wrong way. LOL. So by now I'm only interested in reading novels that fall under Psychology. But before anything else I have a Fantasy book series here that I need to get done reading. I mean, I'm still running seventy-one percent done in reading which means I still have a long way to go. LOL.

It Doesn't Make Any Sense at All

As a reading progress update I am running seventy-one percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Okay, so now that I'm done updating you with my reading progress then why won't I talk about something else. You know what? One of the downside of being such an imaginative mind is that I end up imagining things that don't make any sense at all. Oh, not to mention that it's stressing me out sometimes. Well, we all know the answer to that and it's prayer. Oh, not to mention a lot of writing too. LOL. Hmm, so so much about being stressed out because of my wild imagination. I mean, I really don't want my psychotic mind to drop by ever again.

You know what? I wanna take my time in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. I mean, I don't wanna read it like there's a time limit or something. It's like I don't wanna feel like a student who needs to read hundreds of pages in one day 'coz there's gonna be an exam about it the next day. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Damn, I think I have said something like this before in my previous posts. Well, never mind. I mean, I don't really have that much in mind these days. By the way, I'm working on a new song these days. Hmm, I have written the verses so far. I don't have a refrain, chorus, and bridge of the song yet. Hmm, I just feel like sharing. LOL.

Well, honestly I don't really know the parts of a fully structured song. Hmm, as I have noticed a song starts with a first verse then followed by a refrain and then followed by a chorus then comes a second verse followed by a refrain and then followed by a chorus then comes a bridge followed by a refrain and then followed by a chorus. Well, I don't know if the songs I have written so far are fully structured songs. Hmm, I have a funny feeling my songs aren't fully structured ones. I mean, I don't really follow any formula in songwriting whenever those once in a blue moon songwriting sessions drop by. I just write what I feel like writing and that's pretty much it. LOL.

If I'm not mistaken most of my songs are not relevant in my life at all. Hmm, I don't even know why I ended up writing those. Hey, I decided to drop two songs from the final “It's a Mess by Adeline Chrystyn”. I decided not to include those songs I have written before I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn”. Hmm, so my songs “Can't Tell You” and “Scream” are not included anymore in the final “It's a Mess by Adeline Chrystyn” and I only have one song for the record so far and it's “A Broken Record”. Well, technically I have written parts of “A Broken Record” before I began carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn”. It's just that I was able to finalize the song a few days after carrying my pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” so I think it's just right and proper to include “A Broken Record” in the final “It's a Mess by Adeline Chrystyn”.

Well, not to mention that I think “A Broken Record” is one of the best songs I have written in my whole damn life and I don't know if I'll be able to write another song as good as “A Broken Record”. Hey, here comes my imaginative mind all over again. Well, I'm just thinking or imagining what if there's really such thing as reincarnation and if there is such thing I'm wondering what if centuries from now I'll be reincarnated and I'll bump into my blog “Mysterious Girl” by Adeline Chrystyn and get the chance to read my posts over again. Hmm, I wonder if will I feel some sort of connection between “Adeline Chrystyn” and the reincarnated me. Well, I'm just wondering. Hmm, that if the internet still exists centuries from now. Well, so so much about me and my imaginative mind. You know what? I also wonder for how long will I be able to keep this blog going not to mention that most of my blogs back then weren't able to survive for even a day, a week, or a month. I mean, as I've said there are times when I end up deleting my previous blogs for some reason or abandoning it. Well, it's only God who knows for how long will I survive make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online and that's an amen. LOL.

Flipping the Pages of the Past

I guess it's much better for me to stop myself whenever I end up being on my way to flipping the pages of the past. I mean, thinking about the past is not helping not to mention that I don't want my psychotic mind to drop by all over again. Well, the worst thing that ever happened in my damn life is having this Bipolar Disorder I have. Damn, why won't I look at the bright side? I mean, if there ever is a bright side to having this disorder I have. On second thought, if I didn't have this disorder I have I wouldn't have the courage to face my fears and live my dreams or shall I say frustrations even just inside the four walls of my room. Hmm, so let's just leave it as that.

I'm running fifty-seven percent done in reading this Fantasy book series I'm reading these days. Well, I guess I need to constantly remind myself that reading this book series is supposed to entertain me and not pressure the hell out of me. Damn it. Well, there's nothing much going on in my life these days aside from reading this book series I'm reading these days and keeping a blog updated not to mention promoting my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” which in fairness reached another milestone lately on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. Yeah.

Damn, as I've said I'm on my way to reading the climax of the whole book series. Hmm, nothing much. I just thought of saying that one over again. LOL. So what else am I gonna talk about aside from my thoughts and my feelings and anything nonsense in between? Well, I don't really know. Damn, I'm still wishing for a thousand views for “A Broken Record” for Christmas or make it a million. LOL. Actually, the last time I checked the views for my lyric video is now twenty-five percent of what I'm wishing for. Well, thanks to social networking sites that is. Hmm, whatever.

Well, one of the few things I learned in the past is that if I really don't know the whole story then it's much better for me to keep my damn mouth shut. I mean, sometimes having an imaginative mind has its disadvantages. LOL. Oh, you just don't have any idea how wild my imagination was back when my disorder was at its worst. Well, now that I'm recovering but not fully recovered I guess the best thing for me to do is just to laugh it off. I mean, thanks to the anti-psychotic and mood stabilizer I came back to my senses and I now know what's sane and what's not. Amen.

I'm trying to live my life to the fullest the way I know how these days. I'm still praying that the right path will dawn on me one day. Well, if being a writer is what God wrote for me to be in the book of my life that He wrote before I was ever born into this world then here I am doing my baby steps as I am religiously keeping a blog as of the moment. I mean, there are even times when I can't imagine myself doing anything else aside from being a writer and singer songwriter. Well, that if you talk about the real world and not in fantasy land. I mean, if you can catch my drift. Hmm, if I can't be a singer songwriter which is quite obvious then please let me be a writer.

I guess for now all I can be is someone make-believing that I'm working as an amateur writer online. Hmm, that will do for now. I mean, I live in a world of my own my whole life so there's really nothing new with make-believing that I'm living my strongest frustrations even just inside the four walls of my room. By the way, this Fantasy book series that I'm reading these days is getting more and more exciting by the second even if I have seen the movie version and I already know what will happen. Well, I guess it's God's perfect timing that I am having the chance to read the book series at this point in my life 'coz if I read the book series when I was still a teenager I have a funny feeling I'll most probably won't understand a thing. I mean, I think I have mentioned how bad my reading comprehension was back then, right? Well, so the adventure goes on, huh?

End of the Story

I'm twenty-nine percent running forty-three percent done reading this book series I'm reading these days. Well, as I went on reading I noticed more and more differences between the book version and the movie version. Oh, not to mention that back then there were some fanatics who said that one won't be able to understand the movie if one has not read the book. As for me, I won't be able to picture out the book if I wasn't able to watch the movie first. LOL. Whatever.

Well, I'm still not over that sensitive topic I mentioned in my previous post. It's just that I'm not talking about it here on my blog. I mean, it's for the best of everyone. LOL. Hey, an idea just popped out of my head. Well, what if I write about this sensitive topic playing in my head these days with pen and paper then I roll the paper where I wrote what I wrote then place it inside a bottle then let it float in the ocean? Hmm, or tie the precious paper to a string of a balloon and let it fly to the sky? Damn, here I go with wild ideas all over again, huh? Well, forget about it. LOL.

Oh, the last time I went online I dropped by a video sharing website and watched the latest music videos of the Punk Princess and the Mother Monster. Well, I'd rather not say anything 'coz the Punk Princess' Little Black Stars and the Mother Monster's Little Monsters might strangle me. LOL. On second thought all I can say is it seems like both are experimenting this time and going through an artistic journey. Well, we live in a generation of open-minded people so I think such is not such a big deal. I mean, if you know what I mean. LOL. So I'm shutting my mouth up. LOL.

Oh, I'm running forty-three percent done in reading this book series that I'm reading these days and I just can't wait to get to the end of the story. Well, I have seen the movie and I know how the story will end. It's just that I wanna know how the ending was written in the book. Hmm, I'm thinking it's much better for me to not get too over-excited. I mean, there's fifty-seven percent more to go which is a lot of reading. I guess the best thing to do is to take my time. I mean, I have seen the movie version and let's just say having the chance to read the book version is a bonus.

On second thought, it's not really a bonus. I mean, I always wanted to have my own copy of the complete book series back then and read every single book from the very first chapter of the first book to the very last chapter of the last book. Well, this is like a dream come true or something. Hmm, sort of. LOL. I guess I better thank that someone who made having a copy of the book series possible. Well, I'm not disclosing who that someone is. It's top secret. LOL. Hmm, I guess that someone just gave me an early Christmas present, huh? Well, I'll forever be thankful for it.

Oh, speaking of Christmas present. I mean, my lyric video for my song “A Broken Record” that I uploaded on my video sharing website's channel carrying my official pen name “Adeline Chrystyn” has reached another milestone on the video sharing website where I uploaded it. I'm still wishing for a thousand views though or make it a million. LOL. Oh, this coming September it will officially be the start of the Christmas season in this country where I live in. Damn, just look at how time flies. Hey, I wonder if there will come a time when countries near the equator will also have four seasons in a year namely Winter, Spring, Summer, and Autumn. Damn, what will it be like to see some snow? Well, I don't really know. I'm thinking my favorite season is Spring. Hmm, make a wild guess why. LOL. Oh, the Punk Princess will be celebrating her birthday by the 27^th of September. She's running twenty-nine if my Math serves me right and she still looks like a teenager to me. Damn, I wonder what's the secret to being a vampire. Oh, speaking of forever young I decided to give a clue on what is this book series I'm reading these days if you still have not figured it out by now after all the accidental clues I have given so far. LOL. Well, here's the clue. I mean, the fourteen percent of the book series is somehow related to wanting to be immortal. Hmm, I guess so. LOL. Well, I don't really know. Hmm, whatever. LOL.

Playing with One's Imagination

While reading this book series that I'm reading these days I feel like I'm living in a whole new world. LOL. Hmm, I wonder if such world is really in existence. Damn, here I go being a tween all over again. You know what? There are times when I wish that I was part of the movie version of the book series. I mean, being an extra will do as long as I'll be able to be in the set and all that. Well, if you talk about wearing the costumes on Halloween then damn I'm too old for that. LOL.

I don't know why these days some people found a way of making witches, wizards, vampires, werewolves, and what not lovable when such creatures were somehow making some kids let's say pee in their pants even by the mere thought of such creatures. Well, look at most kids now. I mean, it seems like they got over their fear and ended up being such a fanatic. You know what? I'm wondering if witches, wizards, vampires, werewolves, and what not really exist and this fantasy creatures invasion is part of their aim to one day be accepted in the society we all live in.

Damn, I wonder if there's such thing as magic. You know what? I have read some books with magic as the main theme. I have a copy of those books here with me. Hmm, remember me saying that I don't feel like reading those books all over again 'coz I got a funny feeling about it? Well, it has something to do with magic. I mean, I have this funny feeling that someone cast a spell on the books or something and all that. Oh, don't ask me what kind of spell 'coz I don't have any idea.

Hmm, so here I go with my imaginative mind all over again, huh? Well, what can you expect from someone who is not so in touch with reality like me? LOL. Oh, I remember something. Well, in other countries they are making vampires look sophisticated or what making a fanatic wanting to be one. LOL. It's just that here in the country where I live in they are making vampires look like monsters making anyone out there wishing not to bump into one. Well, I guess that's just one of the many differences of western and eastern countries. Hmm, I guess so. Damn it.

Oh, it's the same thing with witches and wizards. I mean, in some countries they look sophisticated just like in the movie version of a book series making kids and kids at heart wanting to be one. It's just that in some countries witches and wizards are feared by many 'coz they imagine them to be creepy looking creatures giving the impression that most of them use dark magic. Oh, which reminds me that when I dropped by a secondhand bookshop a few years ago I spotted a book about witchcraft displayed behind the glass wall of the shop. Well, never mind.

Hey, I remember the summer before college I ended up thinking of writing a story about vampires. Well, in the story it's the vampires who live in the normal world and it's the humans who are said to be fantasy creatures. Hmm, quite the up-side-down of reality or something. So to continue I thought of a scene when there's a vampire who went into a bathroom and a few seconds after came running outside the bathroom screaming “Human! Human! Human in the bathroom! Human with Garlic in the bathroom!” and then everyone went screaming as they went running as far as they could from the bathroom where there was a sight of a human with garlic. Hmm, I find that funny. LOL. Well, which makes me wonder if there's another planet out there in the whole universe where witches, wizards, vampires, and werewolves are living. Oh, now I'm thinking about reincarnation. Well, I'm wondering what if when a person dies before going to hell, purgatory, or heaven the soul of that deceased person is asked to choose whether one wants to be reincarnated or not. If that person says one wants to be reincarnated that deceased person is asked to choose in which world one wants to be in in one's next life and one of the choices is to live in the world of witches, wizards, vampires, and never mind werewolves 'coz I'm not really a fan of werewolves. LOL. Hmm, so here I go with my wild imagination all over again, huh? LOL.